Holding You Into My Arms

After nearly five years of love, four years of secret love and six months of hard pursuit, finally there is a response.

Lin Jiayin felt that she hadn't given up, she bravely and persistently pursued Shen Zhan. From her indifference at the beginning to the unreal embrace she thought she was dreaming, the balance of emotion between the two began to tilt towards her .

Even though the relationship may still be unequal, she still likes him more than he likes her, she is still very happy, very happy, very happy, so happy that she cried so suddenly.

Either sad, or happy, weeping with joy.

Lin Jiayin shrank into his arms and secretly wiped away the tears, but she couldn't finish it. She slowly raised her hand, carefully not to touch Shen Zhan, and covered her mouth to cover the choking voice.

She sucked her nose, rubbed her head in his arms, pressing her forehead against his warm chest.

Shen Zhan hugged her back, feeling a little tight in her hands, making her cling to herself.

"Go to sleep." He whispered.

Lin Jiayin didn't dare to answer, she would surely let Shen Zhan hear it with a cry when she spoke. She didn't want Shen Zhan to know that she was crying.

She nodded in a small arc, closed her eyes, and the tears from the corners of her eyes ran across her cheeks and into the corners of her mouth, with a faint salty taste.

After a while, Shen Zhan felt that holding her like this might make her uncomfortable and unable to sleep, so he loosened her arms, lay flat, and then moved her waist up.

He accidentally stroked her hair that was wet with tears and stuck to her cheeks. Shen Zhan reached out and turned on the lamp and sat up.

"Why are you crying?"

Lin Jiayin arched her back, her entire face was buried in the sheets, her messy long hair spread out to cover half of her face, she closed her eyes and covered her mouth, and then briefly sobbed when she heard Shen Zhan's question. There was a rush, the depressed voice that couldn't bear no matter how much.

"Don't cry, okay?" Shen Zhan lifted her shoulders and put the person on her stomach.

Lin Jiayin buried her face on his thigh, her shoulders trembling constantly with the frequency of crying.

"What's wrong?" Shen Zhan gently touched her back.

Lin Jiayin did not speak, crying in a low voice.

Tears wet his pants, Shen Zhan lifted her entire upper body, Lin Jiayin frantically touched her tears.

"Is it because of Tao Mo?" Shen Zhan asked.

Lin Jiayin nodded after sucking her nose twice.

For some reason, she just didn't want Shen Zhan to know that it was because of him crying.

She didn't think it was necessary or necessary. It was her own business to like him, and how much she liked him was also hers.

If Shen Zhan knew, he might care more about her and like her more, but Lin Jiayin would feel sad and sad when he thought that this more caring and more liking came from her.

"No one in the world has a constant relationship with whom, from unfamiliar to intimacy, from intimacy to unfamiliar. You will meet many people as you go all the way. You will always be separated from some people, When meeting some people, everyone is going to take a new path." Shen Zhan pulled her hair away and wiped away the tears on her face, "Don't be sad, okay?"

Lin Jiayin nodded.

"In the past, thank her for walking with you for a while. In the following days, everyone will go their own way. If you are no longer friends, you will be a stranger." Shen Zhan hugged her.

Lin Jiayin wrapped her hands tightly around his waist, and raised her head after being silent for a while: "Then what about you? Are you a passerby too?"

"Me too," Shen Zhan said, "you are the only one who walks the road of life."

"So you always separate from me, right?" Lin Jiayin asked.

"Well, it's just to get to the end and then part," he said, "I will lead you in front."

Lin Jiayin choked up and asked, "Where is the end point?"

"Many years later, the average life expectancy of Chinese people is 72 years old." Shen Zhan hugged her hands tightly in his arms.

Lin Jiayin looked into his eyes, tears still falling, "Is it for a lifetime, right?"

"It's a lifetime." Shen Zhan put his chin on her shoulder and hugged her quietly.

Lin Jiayin didn't know how she fell asleep, as if she fell asleep in Shen Zhan's arms, crying and falling asleep.

When I woke up, it was just dawn, and the light penetrated through the gaps in the open windows, adding a few beams of light to the dim room.

Shen Zhan was still sleeping, eyes closed, and her chin against her forehead. Lin Jiayin didn't dare to move rashly. He didn't even dare to remove the arm he was holding, for fear that he would be woken up after sleeping so peacefully.

She could only raise her eyes to look at the faint sunlight on his side face.

As soon as Shen Zhan opened his eyes, it was Lin Jiayin. This feeling made him very comfortable, not comfortable enough, as warm and soft as the first ray of sunlight in the morning.

"I woke you up?" Lin Jiayin blinked her slightly swollen eyelids with difficulty.

Shen Zhan hummed, rubbed his chin against her head, and put his hands on her waist.

Lin Jiayin said: "Let's go to bed, it's early."

Shen Zhan looked at her for a while and closed his eyes, then opened them again after a while.

"Can't sleep," he said.

"Huh?" Lin Jiayin moved aside.

With this movement, Shen Zhan felt that his long-pressed arm was numb from shoulder to finger.

"Pressing you down?" Lin Jiayin directly sat up.

Shen Zhan slowly withdrew his hand, and it took a while before he came back.

"It's only 7 o'clock now." Lin Jiayin went to look at the phone on the bedside table, "I can lie down for a while."

"Stop lying down." Shen Zhan said.

Lin Jiayin turned her head, "Are you up?"

Shen Zhan smiled, pulled her arm into his arms, then rolled over and pressed her under him.

Lin Jiayin almost couldn't breathe with her mouth sticking up, kissing and biting.

She leaned on the head of the bed to adjust her breathing.

Shen Zhan was also leaning on the head of the bed, one leg straightened, the other leg bent lazily with his knees, lazily hugging the pillow.

The sunlight was more abundant, and the beams of sunlight that came in changed from pale yellow to warm orange.

The light falling on Shen Zhan's face outlines his smooth and soft facial lines, high nose bridge, slightly opened lips, raised chin...just like a beautiful boy walking out of a cartoon.

Lin Jiayin looked over, and Shen Zhan also tilted his head slightly.

With his eyes facing each other, Shen Zhan frowned, and subconsciously cast his eyes down.

Lin Jiayin followed his sight.

The thin quilt had fallen under the bed in the kiss just now.

Shen Zhan's leg facing her was straight, and it was obvious that the cloth in an indescribable part was being supported.

Lin Jiayin was taken aback.

"It's like this when I wake up in the morning." Shen Zhan also put down his other leg.

This is more obvious.

"What..." Lin Jiayin continued to look at.

"I'll go down in a while," he said.

"Oh." Lin Jiayin nodded.

"You can never go down if you stare at it like this," he said again.

"I... I'm going to wash my face first!" Lin Jiayin suddenly got out of the bed, almost fell, stumbled and ran out of the bedroom like an escape.

Because Lin Jiayin spent too long as an ostrich in the bathroom, Shen Zhan drove directly to school. When she got off the car, Shen Zhan asked her: "How many classes in the morning?"

Lin Jiayin opened the car door: "One section."

"Oh, let's experiment after class, and have lunch together at noon," he said.

"Okay, I'll be here after class." Lin Jiayin nodded, one leg already stepped out of the car door.

Shen Zhan stopped her: "Wait."

"What?" She turned her head.

"Kiss." Shen Zhan pointed to his cheek, "Here."

Lin Jiayin leaned in and kissed her, and Shen Zhan rubbed her hair, "Go."

Today is a skill class. After Lin Jiayin put the bag away, he took the practice clothes and went to the toilet. On the way, he met Tao Mo and the two passed by.

Lin Jiayin saw that her eyes were swollen, and she should have cried all night because she was swollen worse than last time.

She did not speak, and walked past her with her head down.

Lin Jiayin did not speak, nor looked back.

Changed into the practice clothes and entered the dance room. The technique teacher hasn't come yet, so everyone talked.

At this time, she and Tao Mo would stand in the back corner and talk.

Lin Jiayin looked at the empty corner diagonally in front, and stood for two seconds before walking forward.

In fact, when she came out of the Academic Affairs Office, she was full of thoughts about not wanting to see Tao Mo again.

But now she is in a very calm mood. I don't know if it was because of what Shen Zhan said to her yesterday. She didn't feel much anyway. She didn't blame her anymore, and wouldn't play with her anymore.

When Zhang Zhihan walked into the classroom carrying the new bag from the G family, everyone looked over, and began to whisper to each other in silence for two seconds, looking back and forth on Lin Jiayin, Tao Mo, and Zhang Zhihan.

Tao Mo stood in the front corner alone, the farthest diagonal distance from Lin Jiayin.

Zhang Zhihan squinted at him, and then talked to the people around him about last night.

In fact, everyone knows that they all live on the same floor of a dormitory building, and many people watched the scene with their own eyes.

But I still listened to Zhang Zhihan's remarks, asking some detailed questions from time to time, and then echoed.

"Tsk, how come you are such a person."

"How can she do this."

Baba Baba Baba...

"Are you all here? Warm up first when you are all here." The technique teacher walked in and shouted.

Everyone broke up, each looking for a partner to open their hips, step on the back of their feet, and pull back...

In the dormitory for dancing professionals, two people sleep, and the partners are roommates.

Lin Jiayin stood still, and Tao Mo stood still.

"What are you two doing? Everyone has made a group. Go over there...there is still an empty place." The teacher pointed to the empty corner.

Lin Jiayin walked over, Tao Mo did not move.

"What are you doing!" The skill teacher was strange.

Everyone had to cast their eyes on.

After a while, Tao Mo walked over slowly.

"Hurry up! Then who... Liu Nana! Don't let the water go! Step on me!" The teacher walked over and stepped on the thigh root of the girl lying on the ground mercilessly.

The girl cried out in pain.

"Let me go first." Lin Jiayin said first.

Tao Mo nodded.

In the time that followed, Lin Jiayin was very ordinary, not too cold and not particularly enthusiastic. Just like she treats other classmates.

"Lin Jia...Sister Lin, I..." Tao Mo stood beside him behind his feet.

Lin Jiayin asked: "What?"

"I..." Tao Mo pursed her lower lip.

"Lin Jiayin, Tao Mo, have you finished?" the teacher shouted, "Hurry up if you haven't finished it!"

Lin Jiayin looked at the teacher and nodded.

After Tao Mo was silent for a while, he said discouragedly: "Come on."

"Brother? Big brother? Immortal? Are you really not going!" Lin Qingxuan lay on the table and howled at him.

Shen Zhan was lying in the lazy chair, crackling on the keyboard, without even looking at him.

"Dad!" Lin Qingxuan shouted.

His fingers paused, and Shen Zhan turned his head: "Go away."

"Go, really, how fun." Lin Qingxuan said, "If you don't go, Dean Cheng will definitely look for you, and our school didn't get the first place in the information security competition last year, so...it was shameful. "

Shen Zhan glanced at Fu Yanzhou, whose face was quickly pasted on the screen, and Lu Zhicheng, who focused on drawing circuit diagrams, "You three are enough."

"Don't, I've inquired about it, Big B still took the first team last year to compete." Lin Qingxuan said.

"Be confident." Shen Zhan patted his shoulder.

Lin Qingxuan said: "I am quite confident in myself. After all, I am so smart, but...but I'm not afraid of ten thousand just in case!"

Last year, the team in his group lost to the big B must-win team, mainly because the other two players were not very good.

"Oh." Shen Zhan turned back and continued to tap the keyboard.

He is working on the development of a chip, which is favored by a well-known domestic technology company and has the idea of ​​investing in SZ.

"Why don't you go?" Lin Qingxuan was crying.

Shen Zhan replied: "Wasting time."

"..."

Lin Qingxuan was a bit speechless.

However, the information security competition is a waste of time, and it is a national university competition.

The competition is divided into two stages: online competition and offline competition. The online competition is an individual challenge. It adopts an online problem-solving and clearance challenge mode, which is a bit like climbing a ladder, while the offline competition is conducted by teammates in the online competition. Live confrontation on the spot.

This competition cycle will take a long time, and offline competitions will take several days.

"Go go." Lin Qingxuan said.

Shen Zhan ignored him.

"You will get it first, gold medal, what an honor." Lin Qingxuan persuaded him.

"I don't need it." Shen Zhan said.

Lin Qingxuan still wanted to say something to persuade him, but Shen Zhan really didn't need it. He won too many awards, and an exaggeration is enough for two trucks.

"Hey, then I can only go with Lu Zhicheng and Fu Yanzhou." Lin Qingxuan curled his lips.

Lu Zhicheng is okay. Fu Yanzhou's hardware is quite strong, but he is not so good about information security... well, he thinks it is very weak.

Lu Zhicheng turned his head suddenly: "This competition is a sponsor of Ming Fai Technology."

"Ming Fai Technology?" Lin Qingxuan thought for a while and looked at Shen Zhan: "Hey, is it the technology company with investment plans."

Shen Zhan said.

"Fuck, awesome." Lu Zhicheng's jaw dropped when he heard Lin Qingxuan and Shen Zhan's dialogue.

Minghui Technology is a Fortune 500 company in the world, so it would actually consider investing in a small company with only 500,000 registered capital that students just founded.

"It is said that they gave offers based on the performance of the participating students." Lu Zhicheng said with a little excitement, he looked at Shen Zhan, "Go ahead, leave a good image for Minghui, investment is better... and got the gold medal, I guess. I don’t have to worry about recruiting in the spring of next year. I heard from the previous senior class that Hui gave 200,000 yuan in the first year."

"Is it all right?" Lin Qingxuan looked at him, "only 200,000 will fascinate you."

"I am different from you. I am quite content with 200,000 yuan. After two years of work, I can buy a big house in our county center. Maybe I can buy another tens of thousands of cars." Lu Zhi Enlightenment.

"It's better to follow our big brother Shen and keep your seven figures in a year." Lin Qingxuan said proudly.

"I don't have the money to invest in SZ, let's talk...let's talk..." Lu Zhicheng looked at Shen Zhan.

"The last project did a good job." Shen Zhan suddenly said.

"Really? I don't think the logic calculation part is rigorous enough, but there is no time. If you give me two more days, I can do better." Lu Zhicheng said.

"Is SZ interested?" Shen Zhan asked him.

"Huh?" Lu Zhicheng hesitated after a while: "Can you...?"

"I can't guarantee that you have a seven-figure number in a year. Now the domestic sector is developing rapidly, upgrading rapidly, competition is very encouraging, and the technical level is also approaching a peak. It is difficult to make breakthroughs in technology and lead the entire field." Shen Zhan said: "But what I can guarantee is that as long as I am in SZ, I will keep going."

After Lin Qingxuan glanced around, he slapped his slap: "Applause! Great! Oh oh oh!"

"Shut up." Shen Zhan said.

Lu Zhicheng squeezed his fist, "Shen Zhan, I'll do it with you!"

"Those who don't know thought you were going to blow up the bunker with Shen Zhan." Lin Qingxuan stood by and smiled.

Lu Zhicheng also laughed: "I will also go to bomb the bunker."

"Is Fu Yanzhou there?" he asked.

Lin Qingxuan glanced at the person who was wearing earphones and was barely digging into the dense technical literature on the computer screen, and shrugged, "The second generation of high-ranking officials, what business."

"Oh." Lu Zhicheng didn't expect to dress up and behave... The rather casual Fu Yanzhou turned out to be the second generation of officials.

Yes, most of Huaqing University’s student families are pretty good, and very few are like him.

Lin Qingxuan saw that his smile was a bit bitter, and sighed to comfort him: "Maybe you were a rich man in your previous life, or you will be a governor in your next life... Don't care too much about this kind of thing, and you can still do it in this life. The opportunity to become the rich generation, well, we, we may be beggars in our next life." He looked at Shen Zhan who was crackling on the keyboard, "Big brother, did you say I was right?"

"It makes sense." Shen Zhan commented lightly.

Lu Zhicheng smiled and continued to touch the mouse and work harder to draw the circuit diagram.

Lin Jiayin received a call halfway through the laboratory building.

It was from Uncle Dahai.

"Xiaoyin, don't forget your birthday this Saturday, you forgot it last year." Uncle Dahai said.

"I didn't forget, I remembered it clearly, I still wrote it in the memo." Lin Jiayin said.

"That's good. Bring your classmates over for barbecue on Saturday. Uncle cleaned up the big table upstairs."

"A big table?"

"Yes, it's the one upstairs, a big round table that can sit a dozen people."

"...Not needed."

"Why don't you use it? Didn't you say that you have a good relationship with your classmates last time? Please come over for barbecue!"

Lin Jiayin was silent for a while.

"Maybe...maybe just bring one person."

"Ah? Do you only bring Tao Mo?" Uncle Dahai said, "Bring a few more classmates. If you have a good relationship, call it. Uncle Dahai has enough barbecue here."

Lin Jiayin didn't know how to answer.

Uncle Dahai always thinks that she gets along well with her classmates and has many friends, but there is only one Tao Mo.

No, Tao Mo is not a friend anymore.

A female voice came over the phone.

"Thirty dollars and eight cents, the fraction is wiped out for you, count you thirty."

"That's it. I'll bring a few more classmates. I'm buying vegetables, so I'll hang up first," said Uncle Dahai.

"it is good."

Lin Jiayin hung up the phone and continued to walk forward, until she reached the door of the laboratory, frowning, thinking about where to get someone to have a barbecue.

She pushed open the anti-theft door that said "Don't knock on the door, you will take the consequences." Lin Qingxuan was the first to see her, "Oh, sister Lin is here."

Lin Jiayin smiled at him.

Shen Zhan turned his head, "Come and sit down."

Lin Jiayin walked over and sat down beside him.

"You play by yourself for a while, and we'll have dinner in half an hour," Shen Zhan said.

Lin Jiayin nodded: "Are you busy with you."

Lin Qingxuan sighed: "I'm so sour."

"You are sour." Shen Zhan spit out three words lightly.

"Fuck... you have changed, gods have become mortals." Lin Qingxuan said.

Shen Zhan ignored him, Lin Qingxuan returned to his seat and continued to work.

"That... I was wrong last time." Lu Zhicheng walked over and bowed to her, "I'm sorry."

Lin Jiayin was frightened, stood up abruptly, and then bowed to him, "I'm sorry."

In fact, afterwards, she reflected that she was too impulsive, and she felt uneasy in her heart.

"The first time I saw people apologize to each other like this." Lin Qingxuan looked silly from the side.

"I'll invite you to dinner." Lin Jiayin said.

As soon as these words came out, Shen Zhan stopped his keyboard typing, and Lu Zhicheng was dumbfounded.

"I'll treat you to eat." Lu Zhicheng said hurriedly.

"No, I invite you to dinner." Lin Jiayin looked at Lin Qingxuan and then at Fu Yanzhou, "and Xiaomei."

"Ah? Why?" Lin Qingxuan asked.

Lin Jiayin scratched her head, and said in embarrassment, "My uncle told me to invite my classmates to dinner... I can't find anyone... He thought I had many good friends."

"Invite classmates to eat for no reason?" Lin Qingxuan was surprised.

Shen Zhan glanced at Lin Jiayin: "Her birthday."

"That's it." Lin Qingxuan knew clearly, "As a friend?"

Lin Jiayin nodded helplessly.

Lin Qingxuan raised his eyebrows and shook his head: "No."

"It doesn't matter if you don't go." Lin Jiayin pursed her lips.

Lin Qingxuan looked at Shen Zhan and bluntly threatened: "Think about the information security competition."

"Okay." Shen Zhan nodded without hesitation.

Lin Qingxuan said hey, "If I have something to do, I don't want to ask you directly to Sister Lin."

Shen Zhan glanced at him, his tone lazily: "Try it."