Fantasy world

Watching them walk away, I pulled Lingzi back to where they were. Lingzi still lowered his head and turned his face away, as if he had no intention of paying attention to me at all. For a long time, I couldn't think of any way to calm her down. The two of us were in a stalemate, awkward.

Lingzi couldn't bear it any longer, so she stood up again and rushed out with all her strength. I once again grabbed her arm tightly. Lingzi finally stopped and looked at me silently:"You also said that we four girls all have the same heart. But I think I am the worst one in your heart.""No, how is that possible? I think you are the most reasonable""Then do you think that I am just like Meave, stupid and don’t understand anything?"No!" nor!"I think so!" Don't think that because Miffy is young and has nowhere to go, she is stupid and doesn't understand anything. We country wine drinkers, no matter how lucky we are, are not stupid. We have never eaten pork and have always seen pigs running on the ground. A man and a woman alone together are acting like hooligans""Then you guys still want to be friends with me and stay with me like thisPast?"It's not that I want to be like this, it's all Mi He's nonsense!""

I secretly rejoiced. A few words finally got Lingzi around, and now I took the initiative. The two of us fell into a brief stagnation again, but Lingzi no longer had any intention of escaping, and instead groped around. I looked for the ground and sat down. Her behavior gave me no idea again, so I could only sit down with her obediently.

There was another terrible silence, and I almost got up and left. But suddenly I heard the sound of water chestnuts, which was almost like a mosquito. He whispered:"Then - how did you and them get together - I - I can also - do it!"

"What?"

I really didn't hear what she was saying, but Lingzi thought I was deliberately embarrassing her, and shouted angrily:"I will do whatever they do, and that's okay, right?"

It turned out that she was really angry and anxious. I was really angry and funny. She clearly knew that it was not a good thing for us to date alone, and she was also frightened. But when she saw Wu Wenyan, Mi He and I, We were dating alone like this, but I didn't take the initiative to ask her out. She felt very disappointed and jealous.

"Lingzi! Are you so angry because I didn't take the initiative to ask you out, or because I stopped you and didn't let you go today?"

"I'm angry. You can't wait for others, but you don't even want to see me alone. Today, you are afraid of offending others so you are willing to see me like this. Do you think I should be angry?"

"You should be angry, and I was wronged too! I have strongly opposed and prevented us from continuing to interact in this way from the beginning. I feel so despicable and dirty. I didn't take the initiative to date you. I really just didn't want to increase my sins and try to cause you as little harm as possible. I also hope that we have seen each other like this today and will not do this again in the future."

"Then will you, Wu Wenyan, and Mi He meet like this again?"

"Wu Wenyan? Miho? They are different from you!"

"Yes, they are both different from me. They are smarter, more beautiful, more aggressive and bolder than me. You and the two of you have already been as casually happy as your partner. Therefore, you don’t want me to intervene in the middle and cause you trouble and worry!"

"Lingzi! What are you--if I were like you said, I would be struck by lightning tomorrow! Fine?"

"Then tell me, what do I look like in your heart?"

"you? Nothing is worse than anyone else, moreover, he has the best mind, the most reasonable and the most understanding."

"But my parents both say that I am the stupidest, most stupid, heartless, and worthless!"

"According to a saying in your country, you will suffer a lot of losses! I think you are the type of good wife and mother that people most admired in the past. Whoever marries you in the future will be lucky."

"If I follow what you say, I'm not that bad? You don’t really hate me?"

"When did I say I hate you? You are all so outstanding, so kind, and so kind to me. How can I hate you? I'll just hate myself!"

"If you had told me this earlier, I wouldn't have fought against myself. I hid in bed alone and cried several times"

"Are you still hiding under the quilt and crying secretly? Why?"

"Why? It’s not all for you! Meifu and I both thought you just liked Mihe Wenyan and didn't take us both to heart at all. He promised that it would be the same for all of us, but in the end he said one thing and did another. What do you want us to think?"

"No matter how you think about it, you can't just think about it? I said I would treat you all like my own sisters and keep them in my heart for the rest of my life. My love for you and my feelings for you can only be maintained by this principle. What else can I do?"

"alright! sorry! It’s all my own fault! I can't get along with myself. Today we also had a date alone, and all the knots in our hearts were relieved. From now on, like Mi Hewenyan, I will cherish our friendship and this fate."

"no no! Lingzi! They are them, you are still you. It would be best for both of us——"

"What do you want to say? Do you still plan to exclude Mi Fu and me, and you will only date Mi He Wenyan alone?"

"Lingzi! Aren't you afraid that I will act like a hooligan to you and bully you?"

"Neither of them are afraid of me. What should I be afraid of? Mihe is still getting married in the military! Wen Yan is still a child of the fifth category! You're not afraid of them, are you still afraid of me?"

"Lingzi! I really feel that I am so despicable and dirty, I am even worse than a bastard!"

"Even if this is the case, we can't blame you. It's because we are cheap and want to like you like this and be nice to you like this!"

"Lingzi! As I said just now, among you little girls, you are the kindest, the most stable, and the most reasonable. I also know that the countryside is very traditional and conservative, especially you drunkards, who value reputation more than life. But I see that you are completely crazy now and have no sense!"

"Yes! We are all going crazy now! When you see a fire pit and a cliff in front of you, you have to jump down."

"I know, it's my fault again, it's all my fault. I shouldn't have participated in any cram school and instilled those bourgeois reactionary ideas in you."

"Brother Hao! If you said all this before was wrong, then what you do now is really despicable. If you are really despicable, then we little girls are even more filthy and despicable. If you insist on thinking so, I can immediately drag them to death again."

"Lingzi——"

"Brother Hao! It's rare to date you alone like this. I also want to take out my heart and talk to you properly. We country wine drinkers, you have been devolved for so long, you should know how pitiful we are. Without life, you are no longer a human being, and your life will be exchanged for drinking. Before she knew anything, she was arranged to have a baby wedding, and she became a"wine jar" in the family. As a girl at home, you have to work hard to earn work points for your family, because when you get married, your family will need a dowry, and if you don't work enough, you will be in debt to the whole family. As for what kind of man to marry, you have no choice. Even your family will not make the decision for you. They are all babies, who knows who that baby will be when it grows up? But if the girl dislikes the man and wants to break off the engagement, it is almost impossible. Think about it, the man has given the woman wine and meat since the day of the engagement. After all this is calculated, which family can afford it? When you get married, the wine money becomes a debt owed to your husband's family, and you have to pay it back throughout your life. Therefore, we wine drinkers in the countryside are not human beings anywhere, we are debts everywhere, and we have to pay off our debts all our lives. You say, what else do we have to live in this life? What else is fun?"

"That’s why I encourage you to fight and resolutely resist the bad habit of baby kissing!"

"Thousands of years of feudal bad habits have not been eradicated even after the birth of New China. Even if you, a young educated youth, and just a few of us little girls do anything to protest, it will be like throwing an egg against a stone. You will be smashed to pieces, and you will be criticized by thousands of people, despised by thousands of people, and bring trouble to your brothers, sisters, relatives, and friends. Why bother?"

"It is because everyone has such negative thoughts that these feudal bad habits in the countryside are becoming more and more rampant!"

"We are all ordinary little people, and we can't do earth-shattering things."

"But you should at least fight for your own destiny!"

"Therefore, we all regard you as a life-saving straw. This is how we fight for ourselves with the greatest courage. We have a partner, but our feelings are blank; we want to be free, but the shackles on us are too heavy. We are lucky enough to know you, and it is destined that we can only have this fate in this life. None of us dare to have any extravagant hopes or greed. We just want to secretly make do with you and comfort each other. You have also seen our persistence and madness. There is no way, in this countryside, we will never find such a trustworthy, reliable, and able man to comfort each other, and it is impossible for us to have the opportunity to be so close and so heart-to-heart with any other man."

"Lingzi! sorry! I understand your feelings very well, but I still can't get over this hurdle in my heart. I also hope to give you the greatest comfort, but I can't give you the purest love, love with all my heart. I am not qualified to receive and have such pure and precious love from you!"

"You are not qualified, and others are even less qualified. Are we, the wine jars in the countryside, doomed to be 'wine jars' that are abused by others and have no one to pity them in this life? You are not qualified, who is? Isn't our final result just to marry that doll and become his wife to pay off the debt? Is he qualified to receive our pure and precious love?"

"Lingzi! Please stop talking! Stop pushing me! I'm going crazy too! I am not a saint, I am just an ordinary educated youth who went to the countryside.——"

"Then why do you still pretend to be a saint? I have known for a long time that as long as we date alone like this, we will fall into the abyss step by step. But I'm not afraid. I want to give myself a chance and live a good life for myself. I really like you and I want to be bullied by you. As long as you like me a little bit in your heart, I won't blame you. You can bully me any way you want! I really don’t blame you, it’s just me who wants to do this.——"

I could no longer control myself, but my love was blank and my spirit was completely and completely broken.