Fantasy world

After my secret tryst with Mi He, not only did my mood not ease at all, but my guilty conscience worsened. I am becoming more and more like the thief who stole the ax next door. I feel like everyone around me looks at me so sharply and strangely. Especially when facing the other three girls besides Mi He, I kept walking around with my head down from afar. I didn't dare to look at their eyes with sharpness or contempt, and their faces with hatred. Or sarcasm. In short, in front of them now, I am just a clown who has been stripped clean to reveal my true colors, a despicable, dishonest, hypocritical and sanctimonious thief.

But these days, Mi He has completely changed. He has a smile on his face, hums a tune in his mouth, skips and skips when walking, works with great energy, speaks softly, and has a warm and patient attitude. Those little girls had obviously settled their differences with her a long time ago and were colluding with her. From time to time, they would also fight and make fun, creating a little atmosphere. It seemed like he was deliberately demonstrating against me and taking revenge on me.

I treat Mihe now, even more so when a mouse sees a cat, he will hide and run away if he can. In fact, Mihe herself was obviously a little guilty. Apart from her own inexplicable excitement and joy, she didn't dare to make the slightest move towards me. How smart and sensitive are those little girls? If Mihe reveals even the slightest clue to me, they will definitely attack him in groups. I don't believe that Mihe really dares to completely betray himself to a few girls.

The water conservancy construction site is more monotonous and harsh than the life in the countryside. When I used to work in a production team, I would occasionally encounter hard labor that was so miserable that life was worse than death. But after all, it's very rare, and it won't last that long. Most of them last for a while, a day or two, and even if they try their best, they won't despair. There is another very important factor. After all, the production team is a place where people feel at home. A small group of men, women, and children, with roosters crowing, dogs barking, and smoke curling up from cooking stoves, always makes people feel the breath of life and the picture of life. No matter how hard or tiring you are at work, you can go home to your haven after work and use the warmth of home to fill and soothe your physical and mental fatigue and pain.

The water conservancy construction site is completely different. The heavy hard labor is like this every day, and the numerous projects are far away. The bustling labor scene is full of lively young people. Everyone on the construction site is divided into two camps based on gender. They eat in big pots and live in big bucket shops. Most of them compete and exclude each other. This scene is more like a big prison without walls. The dissatisfaction and resentment accumulated in people's hearts are more likely to be touched and stimulated by each other. Everyone has a bad temper, speaks irritably, often speaks violently, and even fights with fists and kicks. How can there be any care and warmth? It takes courage and perseverance for everyone to persevere in such an environment.

I am an educated youth, and I was originally a bit of a maverick in Wanzi. I usually had little interaction or friendship with those of similar age in Wanzi. When I arrived at the Shuili construction site, I was completely immersed in this group, and I became increasingly lonely and isolated. When I was working, I was excluded from the group of strong girls in the team, but I still had to dance with wolves for food, housing and transportation. I can clearly feel that the young and middle-aged laborers who I know and are familiar with in our bay almost always say hello to me with sounds coming from their breaths, and their eyes and eyes when they look at me are also like He squinted out of the corner of his eye. In the past, I had felt that these people were not very friendly and welcoming to me in the bay. But here, I felt even more hostility and hatred, which made my hair shudder.

My bed is next to Mi Zhongliang, and he is the only person of the same gender in the bay who is relatively friendly to me. There is actually no deep friendship between us. It's just more of a feeling of sympathy.

Because I was sent down to replace my second sister, I was not in the same group as the comrades who were sent down at the same time. In addition, after being sent down to the vast world, I was immediately broken into pieces. So far, in our educated youth circle, apart from Yu Ruonan, I really don’t have any particularly close friends or sisters. Therefore, just a few days after I came to the vast world, I became a coward and a different kind of scum in the educated youth circle.

However, it was all because of Yu Ruonan that I met the idiots Du Wentao and Xia Dingming. I don't know if they were really stupid or just pretending to be stupid. They obviously couldn't catch the beauty, but they still wanted to use me as an excuse to vent their frustrations. One moment he was fawning over me, and the other moment he was furious with me. I was both funny and angry at the same time. But they are older and bigger than me. No matter which one of them I meet, I can only show weakness and pretend to be stupid like I did with Yu Ruonan.

Obviously, I offended Yu Ruonan last time, and I also unintentionally offended these two buddies again. As a result, it was Xia Dingming who asked me out first. Wutuowao scolded me like crazy. He didn't allow me to explain or listen to my arguments. After scolding me, he just left me on the spot and walked away.

This kind of bastard can just be scolded, but I haven't lost any skin or pounds of flesh, so I don't bother to care about it. But before I could calm down, Du Wentao, that bastard, came to me in an aggressive manner. Without saying a word, he pulled me to a remote place with no one, and beat me up again without thinking. His eyes were black, his face was unclear and swollen. After the spanking, he walked away without farting.

I have never experienced such shame and humiliation in my life? And completely baffling. When I came back to my senses, I wanted to fight with them and settle the score. But my opponents had already disappeared without a trace, and I was at a loss as to where I could find them. I could only gnash my teeth at Ah Q for a while, but finally I thought I was unlucky, smashed my teeth and swallowed them in my stomach, deceiving myself and others that I had fallen.

You can also fall until your nose is bruised and your face is swollen, and you can't see anyone. When the girls in Mihe Lingzi saw me for the first time, they almost screamed in unison. But in public places, in full view of everyone, no one dares to blatantly show extra care and distress.