Dage

I cry with a smile and live with the death—Yu Hua's "Live".

梦 He dreamed that he was still very young, five or six years old, sitting on the bedside, leaning on a hot radiator, while leaning against a woman.

The grandma had a big belly, and he didn't dare to rely on it. He just put her crooked head on her arm in vain, creating an illusion of intimacy and dependence.

女人 The woman looks so beautiful, and it's not bad compared to the big red stars on TV. She has an egg-white face, white eyes, and straight eyes.

拿着 She is holding a tattered old book in her hands and is carefully reading the story above.

A woman seems to have a low level of education and a very limited reading ability. She also reads fairy tales with simple words, and often appears confusing sentences, but she seems to be quite happy, holding books in one hand, and playing in the other. On his belly, the sound is sweet and clear, and his expression is calm and beautiful.

"... The children went to the other side of the mountain together and found a stream. The stream ran happily from the east to the west, and clamored," Stupid child, there are fragrant pastries, golden chicken, The unclear candy is hung colorfully on the tree, just like the stars in the sky, and you can't pick it up. There are monsters who cannibalize, waiting to grow you into little lambs.

"In the beginning, the children were stunned and didn't dare to step over. They lived on this side of the brook and lived on wild mushrooms and wild strawberries. Wild mushrooms were not odorous and tasteless. Sour and green. Finally one day, the oldest boy said to himself: "I can't bear it anymore, how good it would be if I could eat the pastry and roast chicken on the other side, and countless sweets Then. ""

"He jumped over the stream for the first time, had a full meal in the beautiful forest, and jumped back to the stream at night. He said to everyone that there were no monsters eating in the forest. So the next day, the oldest The girl also said to herself, "How good would it be if I could eat the pastry and roast chicken on the other side, and countless sweets." On the same day, she followed the first boy to skip the stream and arrive The beautiful forest had a full meal, and the two returned in the evening, claiming that they had not yet encountered a cannibalistic monster. "

"The boys and girls jumped over the stream one by one and went to enjoy the opposite meal. One day passed, and the monsters who were eating did not come out. One month later, the monsters who were eating did not come out. They laughed loudly at the rush The stream of interest, and then lived on the side of the stream together, and freely shuttled through the beautiful forest every day, eating beautiful food and countless sweets. Only one of the youngest boys stayed in place, No matter how his companions grow older and fatter, he insists that he will not take a step closer. "

"The children who passed the stream shouted to their children every day:" Hey, come here, the stream is lying. There are no monsters eating here, and life here is like heaven! "But the youngest boy remained unmoved, He still lives by picking mushrooms and wild strawberries. He remembers his grandmother telling him when he went out that there is no free lunch in the world, and ease for no reason is the most terrible trap in the jungle. "

突然 "Suddenly one night, the youngest boy heard a sharp roar, and he was awakened. He opened his eyes and found that the stream was soaring, splitting the earth into two halves and turning it into a vast ocean."

"Wang Yang is singing:" Lambs and lambs are rolling, eaten belly with a whine, don't even run! "The youngest boy rubbed his eyes and found that his companions were being chased by a monster the size of a mountain, but they were too Fat, can't run fast at all, before they reach the water, they are overtaken and eaten one by one. They all fell into the most dangerous trap. Only the youngest boy escaped, and spread the story. Come down. "

The yellowed pages turned over, and the endless story was over. The woman seemed to have completed a large project, sighed, and casually said to Wei Qian leaning on her, "So, people cannot live too much. It ’s comfortable. When your brain is full and you ’re full every day, it ’s not too far from the fart to cool ... ”

Her nice and vulgar voice was interrupted by a sharp ringing bell. Wei Qian opened her eyes as if frightened, and bounced off the bed.

五 At five thirty in the morning, the sky was not completely bright.

Wei Qian is still immersed in the dream just before, which is a dream and a nightmare.

With a low pressure of inadequate sleep on his forehead, he climbed up like a dead dog, rolled up his slippers, slapped a cockroach crawling on his bed, and then jumped under the water pipe with one leg. Rinse the soles clean, wash your hands and rice on the footsteps of "slap" and "slap", and use a deformed small pot to cook porridge.

Then he leaned his head out of the window and saw that the morning stall downstairs at Mazi's house had been supported and was heating the oil pan.

Wei Qian rushed downstairs and blew a long whistle, didn't mind waking up the neighbors, rushed downstairs: "Mazi, give your brother three fritters!"

刚 As soon as he finished calling, the window upstairs "creaked" and opened. A fat man with a toothbrush said vaguely, "Brother wants six, and pick me big and big!"

I was yelling at the three fat guys upstairs. The goods had become fat, and they still proudly took the "rice bucket" trait, and their thoughts were extremely extraordinary.

Wei Qian felt that compared to six, there was no heroic spirit, so he raised his head and said to the three fat, "Pig, it's very positive to go out and have a sense of thought!"

Twenty-three fat was full of white foam, and he could not care about him, so he had to stretch out a pig's paw in his busy schedule and spare Wei Qian a middle finger.

Asako ’s dad died long ago. He was an orphan who followed his widow. The widow made a living selling as early as possible. Asako woke up every morning to help his mother fry fried dough sticks. He was also used to hearing that his friends had bitten dogs early in the morning.

He wiped his hands on the apron without a snoring, grinning and waving at the two uncles upstairs, saying that he heard-oh, Mazi is a stutter, usually he does not talk in public.

With breakfast in place, Wei Qian turned to the toilet to brush his teeth and wash his face like a fight, and started his busy and hard day.

He let the cooked porridge cool, and at the same time he picked himself up, ran down with a small change, rushed downstairs to get the churros, and then came back to wake up his sister Xiaobao, stared at her after breakfast, ran upstairs with her, She handed it over to the three fat moms, and before leaving, he also beat Xiaobao's hand to his mouth.

Wei Qian then rushed to school with his worn bicycle.

This day is the day that Wei Qian took the entrance examination.

Wei Qian never knew who his dad was, nor how many noses and eyes he had. The only concept of this person is that the guy is a personal scumbag. This comes from Wei Qian's mother for ten years. Repeated endlessly in his ear.

It is said that the shameless old man is still squatting in the horn, wearing a glorious title called "Rapeman" with all sides and ten miles of fragrance, I do n’t know if the year of the monkey can be given-of course, Wei Qian also did not expect With him coming out, an old labor reformer who ca n’t even fart, coming out is also a burden on society.

Wei Qian thought that it would be better if the old goods could be killed in prison by other prisoners before being released from prison.

One of the victims of the old labor reform crime is Wei Qian's mother ... Oh, yes, and Wei Qian, an indirect victim.

When his mother was young, there was a paste in his mind. He didn't learn well. He mingled with a bunch of hooligans every day, and drunk drunkenly around the middle of the night. Unfortunately, he was caught by the old labor reformer and became a rare. The confused victim, who was later confused, gave birth to Wei Qian.

Therefore, intellectually speaking, Wei Qian understands why he didn't wait to see him since he was a child. He felt that when she was born, she didn't strangle herself directly, it was already the role of hormone ... Hormone is the miracle of human life.

Not to mention she barely pulled him by.

Despite this, Wei Qian still hated her.

I hate every day. I hate it at regular intervals like a punch card. I can't wait to eat her meat and drink her blood.

However ... he would expect that she could give herself a little tenderness, and occasionally she did, Wei Qian would feel great happiness, so he also hated himself, he thought that his genes were not good and he was born with Then a cheap bone.

The scum woman always appears day and night, and the work she depends on to make a living is ancient and traditional. It has a history of thousands of years in our country. This is a job that has brought countless "glories" to Wei Qian-his mother is a "chicken". With this **** smelling shameless words, the benefit of this job is to slap the man in vain and ask the man to give her money.

谦 Wei Qian ’s **** ’s dad ended her entire teenage age, making her completely black from the inside out, and she became more and more shameless.

As an "egg", Wei Qian's childhood was a long torture.

His mother would scold and go out every night, and didn't return until the next morning. He would wake him up alive from the quilt with long nails. If she was in a good mood, he would be scolded by his father and mother. If she is in a bad mood, she will slapping his two slaps, and then drunkenly instructed Xiao Qian, who was not yet tall, to stutter her.

On several occasions, Wei Qian bought the mouse medicine, prepared to eat it with her, but ended up with her, but it still did n’t work out, because the woman occasionally tried to be a mother, holding it with soft arms He watched TV for a while, happy, and whispered a few words in his ear.

If she earns a lot at night, she will buy two sets of pancake fruit for Wei Qian on her way home in the morning.

Although this situation is precious and difficult to meet, it always makes the young Wei Qian flattered. Whenever this time, he doesn't want to kill this woman because he will remember that this woman is his mother.

His mother is more beautiful than any woman he has ever seen in his life, but he has not brought him any glory at all.

But after all, there is only one such person in the world who is his mother-in-law. If he kills it, it will be gone, and he will not bear it.

就 The two of them were like this, and they resented each other and survived.

When Wei Qian was five years old, his mother was married again. The stepfather was an honest man. He didn't make much money. He had no ability. He was not very enthusiastic about this cheap son, but he never abused him.

He later suspected that he was annoying at home. When Wei Qian was just six years old, his stepfather took him to the elementary school and took him to the school on his 28th bike.

谦 Wei Qian calls him Uncle.

After the uncle came, his mother "put down the butcher knife and became a Buddha" overnight, and never went out again to fooling around, almost immediately washed the plum blossoms, pulled his long hair high, and never touched a drop of wine. , Temper is much better.

She transformed into a normal woman and a normal mother.

In the winter of that year, she even woven a sweater for Wei Qian. He only wore that sweater for one winter. Because he grew too fast, he could not wear it the next year, but he was always taken seriously by Wei Qianzhen. In the closet, because it was almost the only gift he received in his childhood.

Everyone said that a six- or seven-year-old child rolled around and dogs were disgusted, but when Wei Qian was six or seven, he was obedient like a dog. He did n’t say a lot of nonsense, and did n’t mention a request. , He never asked the adults to ask for money. Sometimes there was something in the school to pay the money. Wei Qian first borrowed it from others, and then went to the billiard hall and game hall to help people with miscellaneous help. .

In the process, he made a lot of juniors who were much older than him. The boss looked at him young and it was interesting to run around and pick up the ball and the plate. In addition, he had good eyesight and looked at people's faces very much, so Just left him, as a strange mascot, to tease.

Wei Qian was happy about it, and did not feel pain, because he learned in school that he was also one of the mother of the motherland, and he lived a happy life.

Therefore, he was always afraid that his uncle would not be happy, that he would divorce his mother, and let him live a life as bad as a pig.

谦 Wei Qian was seven and a half years old. When he was eight years old, his mother gave birth to another girl.

Auntie looks so engraved in a mold with his uncle—oh, it's very ugly, but the whole family is too bad.

She was born in spring, and her parents thought that the names "spring", "willow", and so on were too soiled to be worthy of their baby girls. It was hard for their mother and uncle. The education of the two of them did not add up to nine years. I got together for more than a week, and finally racked my brains to give the girl a name they thought was poetic, called "Song Lili."

He and his uncle's surname Song, the "lili" from Liliyuan Shangcao, is called Xiaobao.

However, Wei Qian hardly called his sister the obscene name until she was an adult, calling her "Little Treasure".

I do n’t talk about gathering, I have to say "away". I haven't heard of anyone who gave this name to the child.

His mother-in-law and father-in-law are illiterate and take care of the "wet", so giving the child such a name is just nothing to do.

不 This unlucky name will accompany Xiaoya for a lifetime, and it seems to herald that life and death and death will run through her thin life.