Big play bone

The blue ceremony slammed the footsteps suddenly emerged, stopped, touch the pocket, but found that he wear a costume, all the pockets were empty, the condition was reflected, and left and right, then saw a Doctor wearing white coat standing in front of the glazing glass window while thinking.

This bridge is a bridge that connects two different departments. It is a large-faced glass wall. It is still an indoor category, but it is only compared to clear, Seattle's soft radiance penetrates the glass window, let The whole room is filled with a light blue. The sense of space is unknown.

There is no excessive thinking, the blue ceremony has gone, and the emotional surging, politely said, "Do you have a cigarette?"

That doctor turned, is a woman, leaving a short hair, narrow eyes and delicate eyebrows, the five senses are very deep, it looks like a mold, the face of the powder, but there is a Jiangnan Water Town. Clean, it is not stunned, but it feels very comfortable.

"Don't you know, is this hospital, no smoking?" The doctor was gently picking, and the voice was seriously asked, but the look did not feel a sharp feeling.

Blue Li took a photo of his pocket and showed his own innocence, and then explained a sentence, "I don't need a lighter."

The doctor paused a moment, and I got up and down, I can see the slight pockets, as if I have three seconds, then I took a box of cigarettes from the pocket, handed it to the blue ceremony, "How do you Know that I have a cigarette? "She is a woman, and it is a doctor. In fact, many people don't know that she will smoke.

"Do you need a reason?" Blue Rich asked what the doctor stunned, and then showed a smile on his face and got some heads.

Blue Rich in his mouth, did not ignite, the touch of tobacco lingering under the nose, the storm of the storm was slightly relieved, as if the smoke can be seen in the fingertips, but impetuous emotions There is no way to completely calm down, and the whole people have a restless irritability, and that a raging feel is really worse, as if all things are separated from control, people can't adapt.

The doctor can feel the negative emotions of the blue ceremony. She has a blind eye, and the mouth is outlined and smiled. "Don't work smoothly?"

Blue rites shrugged, "Life is not easy." The sight of Yunguang glanced at the doctor, "What about you? The progress of the operating room is not smooth?"

"I just conducted a pronunciation." The so-called pronunciation is to announce the death time. The doctor looked down at his hands, as if I can see the blood in my hand.

This simple movement, the blue ceremony will understand it. In front of death, in front of the condition, they always thought that habits were good, they gradually became numb, but the fact is not the case.

"Maybe you also need a cigarette." The blue ritual response, let the doctor's mouth rushed, and the sight of the sight of the smoke in the mouth of the blue rod, did not ignite, just like that, the eyebrow is still The shares cannot be waved, but it is brought about by youth, and it is unwritten, and it is beautiful, and people can't open.

The doctor did not take a cigarette, but stand straight, "I am going to go back to duty, the world is still waiting for me to save."

Blue Rich took the cigarette, turned the head, the bottom of his eyes, "Just like this? Just just breathe fresh air ... Three minutes, then continue to go back?"

The doctors inserted in the pocket of white coat, shrugged, "Life still have to continue. Short break, then start, I hope every time is new, but ..." did not continue to say , Just shrugged, the play and ridicule of the eyes were obvious.

Here is the hospital, there is nothing to start, only continue to go. Even if the surgery is successful, even if it is healed, a condition affects the life of life is indelible, even thoroughly changing the trajectory of life; but if the surgery fails, then there is no future.

The hospital is not hell, but it is a place where the life and death is. One minute and one second, it is already a sanguin, in front of the old disease, everything is weak. This is the case, and the Adam is also the case.

"Cancer" and "death", this is not a tendency, there is no noun, but when they maintain it with their own destiny, the track of life begins to change. However, in the quiet space stationed in the hospital, all the miscellaneous people have turned up, and the sour is not breathing.

This is also the case.

Blue Rich has experienced all this, Wil has experienced all this, and the doctor in front of me is experiencing all this.

In the silent scorpion of the doctor, Blue Rise saw that he had, and he saw himself.

Blue rites and doctors smile, nod, then the doctor turned and left, there is no nostalgia.

Two people just gave them three minutes, shared a cigarette, even did not exchange names, but the blue ritual irritated mood gradually settled.

This is not the end of the world.

He is a newcomer, he is still a newcomer, showing a few successful works, does not mean that he has become an excellent actor. He never genius, in front of those true geniuses, he can only be a persistent effort, it is like Siivus.

"Anti-cancer me" is also good, "super off", these two works need him to go all out, can't have a slightest error. Therefore, he is not impatient now, nor is it urgently, but calm down, starting from the beginning.

Long spit out a breath, once again put the cigarette in the mouth, penetrate the glass, watching the quiet and peaceful scene of Seattle, the blue rites finally calmed down.

CHAPTER;

418 clear thoughts

What does death mean? What does cancer mean, do he really understand? Also or said, Will really understand?

On the first world, as Chu Jiashu, he once hugged the death of the god, not fear, not afraid, but with a flux, the long torture and suffering from the ten years, except for the happiness of the spare, most of them, he is Waiting for death. He is tired, he is just tired.

He knows that he is only 32 years old, and it is too young to die. It is really too young. The figure is not open. However, the long life is always in place, when the declaration is over, he is happy.

Only in the moment of completely coming, he survived the desire to survive, it is like a comet slippery through the night sky, and the powerful energy is suddenly burst, but it has not been released, but it has disappeared.

So he began to run, and he continued to rush toward that. Death fear and threats, just just instantaneous moments.

This is also true for Will.

Even if the doctor has diagnosed, he suffered cancer; even if the mother was worried about him, it was caught in the collapse; even if his girlfriend left his life in betrayal; even if the psychologist continued to take him, let him vent their hearts Emotion; Even if a friend pulled him, use cancer to take a bar; even if everyone around him looks at him with a different eye, it seems that he is already a dead ...

However, he still has no real sense.

Cancer and death seem to be just a small change in life, he must start to accept chemotherapy, this is like he suddenly decided to go out of the dog every day - just, this "walking dog" location is relatively special, fixed time, fixed Location, fixed action. Survival desire and optimistic mentality, which is supporting him to continue. In addition, the changes in life have never really hit him.

Those trivial details have accumulated at a point, change his life mode, invading his living space, affecting his lifestyle. He is afraid, he is in the unrest, he is irritating, he can feel that his life is changing, but he is unable to stop, but this change is not turning the earth, he can step by step Back, adjustment, compromise.

From a certain day, the doctor told him that chemotherapy did not work, and cancer cells were still spreading, and surgery was the only choice, success or failure. So, all the rearward roads were cut off. He was forced to the corner, no retreat, and the amount changed to the change.

Really feel like Mars hit the earth, hit his chest. The fork is here, after closing your eyes, he may never open your eyes, and this is not as decided by him. He can only lying on the cold surgical bed / on, waiting for the judgment. It's completely harmonized.

That kind of despair, that kind of anger, the pain, that kind of sadness, shocking out. He hated this world, hate everyone around him, hate everything in life. He just only knows one thing: he has not prepared for death.

Just just the time of the moment. Because, after that, Will's surgery was successful and reopened new. Well knows what cancer means anything, and knows what death means. However, if you are in the same trend, you will usher in the tide after the tide. In the passage of time, you will have a quiet voice, and the real feeling will disappear again.