Antidote

Sister Luo spoke very slowly, whispered, and drove them from the airport to the hotel on the way, chatting casually. Cheng Ke felt relaxed when talking to her, but Jiang Yuduo sitting beside him There is always some stiffness, this physical signal Cheng Ke can obviously feel, resist and tense.

Cheng Ke kept holding his right hand, rubbing his fingertips gently in his palm.

When the car stopped at the door of the hotel, Jiang Yu grabbed his finger.

"I have time in the afternoon and evening," Sister Luo turned back and said with a smile, "If you want to chat tomorrow, it's okay. I have been on vacation for the past two days. See Xiaojiang's habits."

"Okay," Cheng Ke nodded. "I'll call you in advance."

After they got off the bus, Sister Luo didn't stay much. The car drove away, and Jiang Yuduo breathed out a little.

"Let's put things first," Cheng Ke walked in. "Take a break. When Sister Luo comes out, you decide."

"Afternoon," Jiang Yuduo followed after him, and soon changed his voice after the afternoon, "evening."

"Well." Cheng Ke nodded.

"No, this afternoon." Jiang Yuduo said again.

"Good." Cheng Ke nodded.

When checking in at the front desk, Jiang Yuduo said softly, "Now..."

"Now?" Cheng Ke was a little surprised, and quickly waved his hand. "Don't worry so much, this afternoon is quite appropriate."

"Now go eat something," Jiang Yuduo said, "I'm hungry."

"Oh." Cheng Ke looked at him and nodded.

Jiang Yuduo is obviously familiar with the city, and he can understand the dialect spoken by the driver when he takes Cheng Ke to lunch.

Cheng Ke would like to ask if he has lived here for a long time.

But he didn't dare to ask, he didn't know whether this place was where Jiang Yuduo once lived or where he spent his childhood.

Jiang Yuduo did not take him to eat food with local characteristics, but took him to an ordinary western restaurant, the kind that every city will have.

"Hot?" Jiang Yuduo asked.

"It's okay," Cheng Ke took off his coat. "My coat is quite thin."

Jiang Yuduo didn't say anything else. After ordering, he kept burying his head to eat, and didn't look up again.

Cheng Ke had no appetite, and stopped after a few bites, drinking water and watching Jiang Yuduo.

Jiang Yuduo ate the steak on his plate, and took the dish that Cheng Ke didn't move a few bite away. Then he wiped his mouth and leaned on the chair and sighed gently.

"Are you full?" Cheng Ke asked.

"Well," Jiang Yu nodded, "supported."

"You can eat again when you are hungry," Cheng Ke smiled. "You have to eat like this once."

"In case I'm hungry, I can't find anything to eat," Jiang Yuduo also smiled, looking up at the window, his face stiffened, but soon returned to normal, "Cheng Ke."

"Huh?" Cheng Ke followed and looked out. The sky outside was a bit overcast and there were many pedestrians.

"If Sister Luo said something to you, would you believe it?" Jiang Yudui looked back and looked at him.

Cheng Ke hesitated: "I will judge for myself."

"If I tell you not to believe her," Jiang Yuduo said, "Will you listen to me?"

Cheng Ke froze.

"Trust her," Jiang Yuduo bit her lip, "Don't listen to me."

After a long time, Cheng Ke nodded and responded with a low voice: "Okay."

Jiang Yuduo made an appointment with Sister Luo at 3:30 and was in a coffee shop not far from the hotel.

"You can pluck the cats," Jiang Yuduo said. "There are more than a dozen cats in that store, and all kinds of flowers."

"Well." Cheng Ke responded.

"I won't listen when you talk," Jiang Yuduo said, "I'm going to play with cats."

Cheng Ke didn't speak. He hugged him in the past and turned his head to take a bite on his neck: "It's okay. No matter what I talked to Sister Luo today, our relationship will not change."

"Huh." Jiang Yu nodded.

"I will help you and will save you." Cheng Ke said.

"Huh." Jiang Yu grabbed his head and pressed his eyes to his shoulders.

The cafe has very few guests in the afternoon, only the outside terrace has two tables, and the room is empty.

Cheng Ke and Jiang Yuduo entered the store 20 minutes in advance and took a seat by the window. Jiang Yuduo didn't wait for Sister Luo to arrive, so he walked away, washed his hands, and sat down at the table opposite the window. Before teasing the cat.

Cheng Ke didn't stop him, but looked at a kitten dozing off the window sill next to him.

Sister Luo entered the cafe on time at 3:30, and Cheng Ke got up, suddenly a little nervous.

"Did I come late?" Sister Luo came over with a smile.

"No, we came in advance," Cheng Ke pulled her chair, "want to find a suitable table."

When she wanted to pick up Luo's coat again, Luo smiled and patted his arm: "Your hands are inconvenient, sit down."

Cheng Ke sat down and looked over to Jiang Yuduo. Jiang Yuduo turned his back on them and lay on the table. A white cat lay on the table head-to-head and basked in the sun.

Sister Luo ordered a cup of coffee. After the waiter walked away, Cheng Ke didn't turn around and directly cut into the subject: "Mr. Luo, I don't know what Jiang Yuduo said to you, and I don't know what I should tell you. What, I only know that Jiang Yuduo is suffering now, he hopes I can help him..."

Sister Luo nodded.

"He said... save him," Cheng Ke said, "how can I save?"

"Can I understand your relationship first?" Sister Luo said, "I have known Xiaojiang for ten years and have been paying close attention to his situation. Although he has had little contact with me in recent years, I treat him differently. The patients are emotionally different. I want to make a rough judgment about Xiaojiang’s decision."

This problem made Cheng Ke a little difficult. The relationship between them was definitely unusual. Sister Luo also said that Jiang Yuduo had never mentioned the name of any friend with her, nor had she brought anyone to see her.

A good friend, a very good friend, a single friend, no matter what kind of friend, it seems inappropriate.

Cheng Ke took another look at Jiang Yuduo. Jiang Yuduo did not tell Sister Luo that he was a boyfriend, because he was afraid that he would mind...

"Well, if you don't mind, I want to ask Jiang Yuduo's opinion first." Cheng Ke said.

"It's okay." Sister Luo smiled.

Cheng Ke got up and walked to Jiang Yuduo's side.

Jiang Yuduo was still lying on the table, pinching a cat's ear with his fingers, and rubbing it gently. Cheng Ke saw his eyes red, but no tears.

"Huh?" Jiang Yuduo didn't move, just glanced at him.

"Sister Luo is very protective of you. She wants to know what our relationship is first." Cheng Ke said softly.

"Boyfriend." Jiang Yuduo also said softly.

"Okay, let me tell her." Cheng Ke patted his hand.

"You can say anything," Jiang Yuduo said, "you can say anything to her."

"Well." Cheng Ke nodded.

Back to the table and sat down, Cheng Ke cleared his throat: "I am Jiang Yuduo...boyfriend."

"I see it," Sister Luo was not surprised, and nodded with a smile. "I felt this way when I left the airport."

"Really." Cheng Ke was a little embarrassed.

"It sounds quite unexpected to me." Sister Luo said.

Cheng Ke drank his head and drank his coffee.

"It's not an accident that Xiao Jiang will make a boyfriend," Sister Luo smiled. "I would also be surprised if Xiao Jiang made a girlfriend. He has his own definition of intimacy, and it is very difficult to enter the range he demarcated. "

Cheng Ke remembered what Jiang Yuduo said about "friends."

"But he identified someone who was a friend and would give it his all." Cheng Ke said.

"He is afraid of losing, and all the people he thinks have left from his life are due to his mistakes." Sister Luo said, "so in order to avoid mistakes as much as possible, he will try his best to ask for "friends" Raise, narrow the scope."

Cheng Ke sighed softly: "It has something to do with his childhood experience, right?"

"When I was young?" Sister Luo looked at him. "Did Xiao Jiang mention it to you?"

"Well, I mentioned some." Cheng Ke nodded.

The expression on Sister Luo's face was obviously a little unexpected, and after a while, she asked again: "About what?"

"Just... he didn't talk too much, and his emotions were unstable every time," Cheng Ke frowned. "I probably know where he was kept when he was a kid. He has... brutal training, There are competitions, he mentioned Mom and Dad, other puppies..."

Sister Luo looked at Jiang Yuduo in surprise for a long time before turning back to look at Cheng Ke: "Is this what he told you?"

"Yes." Cheng Ke said.

"He never mentioned it to me." Sister Luo looked at him.

Cheng Ke was stunned for a while and sat upright.

"But I know the relevant case," Sister Luo saw his doubts. "Before I contacted him, he knew everything about him, but he wouldn't take the initiative to tell me, except you...should I didn't take the initiative to tell anyone."

"Well, his best friend didn't know," Cheng Ke breathed a sigh of relief, but the word "case" spoken by Sister Luo gave him a sudden shock. After a while, he looked at Sister Luo. , "Who are the parents he said?"

"Birth mother and stepfather." Sister Luo answered.

Cheng Ke felt a chill in his back, and his scalp was a little blown.

"He started'training' when he was about four years old, so his mother changed from trusting to being the source of fear, and the harm to him was unimaginable," Sister Luo said, "so he will resist and establish closeness. The relationship is very difficult for him."

Cheng Ke was speechless.

"As for the other puppies... some bought children," Sister Luo pinched her fingers. "Some people like dogfights, some people like dogfights, and some people like to watch these. After these people were caught, the rescued children There are very serious problems, and Xiao Jiang is still...better."

"Really?" Cheng Ke couldn't describe his mood when he heard this sentence.

"The worst child committed suicide at the age of 16." Sister Luo sighed.

Cheng Ke froze for a long time.

A child committed suicide.

If there is no way out for those sufferings, perhaps only death can relieve them.

He recovered and tensed nervously: "Na Jiang Yu grab..."

"I have done some tests for him before," Luo said. "He has no obvious suicidal tendency. In the face of mental torture, he is not the same as other children..."

"He can see those people," Cheng Ke said, "is it the way he faces?"

"It's his way of escaping, auditory hallucinations, visual hallucinations, self-mutilation, he allows himself to continue to live in the pain caused by his previous life," Sister Luo said. "This saves him from having to face the fact that he will still be after being rescued. Mentally tortured fact."

Sister Luo's sentence, Cheng Ke took two minutes to slowly react: "Self-mutilation?"

"Yes," Sister Luo said, "you should have seen the injuries he suffered after making direct contact with'them'."

"Have seen." Cheng Ke said softly.

I have seen it more than once.

On the head and hands, no one has seen the injury during the injury.

"Then..." Cheng Ke frowned, "Is it unconscious when I hurt myself? He didn't know he hurt himself, or..."

"He knows," Sister Luo picked up the coffee and put it down again, "so he will avoid people consciously."

"He knows?" Cheng Ke looked at Sister Luo. He didn't know what he wanted to say.

"Yes," Sister Luo took a sip of coffee and raised her eyebrows. "He knows that he has mental problems, that what he sees is not true, that he will hurt himself, and that he may at some point It hurts others because of uncontrolled emotions."

Cheng Ke felt that his hand was shaking a little, so he lowered the spoon, pressed his hand under the plaster, and took a deep breath: "How should I help him?"

"If he can continue treatment," Sister Luo said, "it can get some control, but..."

"What?" Cheng Ke asked immediately.

"He needs to face and cooperate," Sister Luo said, "he has received a lot of treatment, so the doctor will ask what, what is the purpose of these, what kind of answer will allow him to get a "normal" judgment, he It’s clear that if he can’t cooperate..."

Cheng Ke felt a bit of a headache and jumped from the middle of his forehead to the back of his head.

He closed his eyes and sorted out his emotions: "Then this time, he asked me to see you, can it be understood that he started to want to face and cooperate?"

"It's understandable," Sister Luo said. "However, how long this state can be maintained, and to what extent it can be coordinated, I can't be sure, but this is indeed a good phenomenon. I am very surprised."

Cheng Ke and Sister Luo had been chatting for almost two hours. There was a clock on the wall. Jiang Yuduo didn't watch it, but he could almost estimate it.

He would almost guess what they would talk about.

So now his hands are cold, every joint in his body is stiff, and his mind is blank.

From the moment he asked Cheng Ke for help, restlessness and confusion surrounded him all the time, and did not disappear for even a second.

He was afraid that there would be no next year, that Cheng Ke would disappear, and that he would be afraid of his whole life.

But he is also very clear that all of Cheng Ke's guesses on him are just speculations. At the moment when Sister Luo unveiled everything, Cheng Ke faced not only a real person, but also those promises.

It's ok.

nothing.

it is good.

I will help you and will save you.

No matter what I talked to Sister Luo today, our relationship will not change.

He has cut off his back path, and even told Cheng Ke to trust sister Luo, don't believe him.

But what Cheng Ke would do, he did not dare to think about it.

Is there a birthday next year?

Is there any strawberry wine?

Any boyfriend...

He didn't know when Cheng Ke was sitting in front of him. It wasn't until Cheng Ke called him softly that he recovered, and sat up suddenly.

The cat who had been sleeping on the table jumped up and ran away.

"What do you want?" Cheng Ke smiled at him.

Jiang Yuduo turned his head and glanced. There was no one in front of the table. Sister Luo had already left.

He turned back to look at Cheng Ke: "End of chat?"

"Well." Cheng Ke nodded.

Jiang Yuduo looked at him without speaking.

Cheng Ke looked tired and his face pale.

"Are you hungry?" Cheng Ke asked, "Do you want to eat something?"

"Not hungry," Jiang Yuduo said, "Shall we go back?"

"Well," Cheng Ke nodded. "Go back and stay at the hotel tonight. I just booked a ticket for tomorrow morning."

"After going back?" Jiang Yuduo asked.

"After I go back, I should be busy with the store opening there." Cheng Ke said.

Jiang Yuduo hesitated for a long time, and finally asked softly, "What about me?"

"You are still with me," Cheng Ke said, "It should be very busy after opening, do you want to help?"

"Really?" Jiang Yuduo shivered when he heard his voice.

"Really," Cheng Ke leaned forward in front of him, "but you have to promise me one thing."

"Well." Jiang Yuduo responded.

"From now on, no matter what you see or hear," Cheng Ke said, "all tell me."

Jiang Yuduo looked at him.

"I will hold you, pull you, save you," Cheng Ke said, "I won't let go, but you want me to pull you, you know?"

Jiang Yudou nodded.

"It's said that I like someone and I don't want to pay for it," Cheng Ke said. "That's fart, I paid, you have to pay me back, I'm pulling you, you can't throw me away, understand?"

"Understood." Jiang Yuduo said.