Chapter 6: A Woman Who Cannot Go Back – Fumika Kirishima’s Point of View

~Fumika Kirishima’s Point of View~

A year ago, there was a boy in my class whom I liked.

His name was Ryosuke Yamamoto. To be honest, I was seriously in love with him.

He has a pretty good looking face, but I liked his personality even more. He has a strong sense of justice, very kind and …… can’t leave anyone alone if they are in trouble.

His hobby is also really well suited for …… a shadowy guy with a lot of cute girls.

I’m a pretty flashy looking girl, and all my friends are like that too.

Everyone only talks about fashion and makeup, so I was really happy to be able to talk about games with Ryosuke.

Of course I enjoy reading fashion magazines and going shopping for cosmetics …… but the most important thing is games.

Ryosuke is very important to me because I can talk about those things.

I have never fallen in love with someone before in my life.

I’ve been in relationships with a few people who were introduced to me by friends, but I never liked them and never went out with them, nor did I fall in love with them while I was in a relationship with them.

That is why — I really wanted to go out with Ryosuke. I truely fell in love for the first time.

There are many rivals…… an older sister who caters to her younger brother, a younger sister who can marry him because they are not related by blood, and the student body president who has known him since junior high school.

They are all really beautiful and formidable.

There was another girl named Mai somehow, but she doesn’t look like she’s that close to him, so I don’t think I have to deal with her.

She’s kind of plain looking.

Her skin is nice…… but she doesn’t wear makeup and her clothes, which I saw at a school event before, are not in good taste.

But the fact that they are childhood friends pisses me off. …… Well, I’m not going to bully her.

“Fufu…… Ryosuke. I’m going to get you, I promise!!”

“H-ha!? Attempted an assault??”

“Digital, digital! I heard it from someone in the company.”

According to the story, he tried to assault a woman in the middle of the night and was stopped by a nearby high school student.

When I went to talk to Kaede, it still sounded like a true story. …… If his sister, whom she loved very much,……, says it’s true, then it must be true.

The student body president was also disappointed when she heard what happened from Kaede.

I am irrationally angry that I was so deeply in love with this man.

[You son of a bi*ch!]

[………!!]

He had a somewhat vacant look in his eyes, but it didn’t matter! I hit him as hard as I could!

You made me fall madly in love with you, but you hid your true nature from me!

But hitting him didn’t make me feel any better.

It just made me feel empty. …… No matter what I do,…… I can’t get back the feeling of my first love.

I’m not going to get involved with this guy anymore—

—-I thought so, but it was no good.

I always end up messing with him when I see him, and I always end up saying hateful things to him.

I don’t know why.

I try not to get involved because he’s trash, but when I see his face, I just end up engaging with him myself.

I don’t know why either.

When the school year started and we switched classes, we were in the same class again, and for some reason I was relieved.

I really don’t know why.

I never understood it.

In the meantime, I was introduced to a man by a friend.

“This is him? He caught that guy.”

“Really?”

He was one of the three men who had saved a woman from being attacked by Ryosuke.

I thought he would be more like a nice young man, but he is more flirtatious than I expected.

He had dyed his hair red and was more like us.

“If you don’t mind, do you want to go out with me?”

“……, yeah, I don’t mind.”

To be honest, he’s not my type, but he has a cool way about him that helps women, and more importantly, I decided to go out with him as a favor to Ryosuke.

It’s not like this is the first time I’ve had a boyfriend.

First of all, before I fell in love with Ryosuke, I always had boyfriends that I switched from one to the other,……. Since I fell in love with him, I don’t date anyone anymore.

Men want physical relations right away, and if I refuse to have physical relations with them, they will break up with me.

I’ve decided to only do that when I really like the person.

Thanks to that, I haven’t allowed anyone to kiss me yet.

———–And the day after I started going out with a guy again after a long time, I immediately reported it to Ryosuke.

[I decided to go out with the guy who saved the woman who was attacked by you.]

[…..Fufu….Is that so]

[H-Haa?]

It was not the reaction I was expecting.

I thought he was going to be extremely disappointed, but he just snickered at me.

It doesn’t even look like he’s trying to be tough. …… He’s laughing because he thinks it’s funny that I went out with that guy.

[I don’t understand.]

Not frustrated that I started going out with another guy when we were talking and enjoying each other’s company?

And the other guy is a hero who saved a woman from you?

No matter how much I tried to show how happy I was, Ryosuke never gave me a second glance. I got so pissed off that I even put the pins in his shoe, but instead it just kept coming back to me.

[Hey? Isn’t it about time?]

[I don’t want to.]

It’s nice that we got together, but within a few days I realized that he’s the meanest man I’ve ever known. He’s already pestering me the next day for a physical relationship …… but that’s just never going to happen.

[Only a kiss then]

[Tsk! All right!]

It’s a compromise I would never have made in the past.

I allowed him to kiss me because he was so insistent.

I think I also felt guilty for going out with him because I was just trying to get to know Ryosuke.

Still, the feeling of our lips touching was really weird.

I would never do something like this again, but…

Aah, how much better it would have been if it had been Ryosuke.

[I-I’ll never do this again!]

I responded to my own monologue, shaking my head in denial.

A man who assaults a woman is still impossible no matter how I think about it.

That’s why ……

……I’m sure I made the right choice.