Wife has remarried

Chapter 142 Even Her Death Can't Keep Him
An inexplicable coldness, an inexplicable feeling of exhaustion to the bone marrow, and even more inexplicable, indescribable fear and helplessness.

If all of this was done by Fan Su, what should he do?How to face Su Jin?
Even though he told himself over and over in his heart that he didn't love her, it was obvious that things had completely changed.

He was already missing her uncontrollably. He thought that as time went by, he would forget her, but in the end he found that the time he missed her was increasing day by day.

"Are you back?" His voice was as gentle and melodious as ever, and Fan Su calmed down a little, and stood up to meet him: "A Kai, you came back very early today."

She wanted to reach out to hold him, but he avoided him without showing any signs, Fan Su couldn't help being taken aback, but still smiled gently as usual: "A Kai, where did this come from?"

Fan Su spoke first, pointed to the envelope and asked.

Lu Zekai glanced at her, still calm and calm: "Fan Su, from now on, don't lie, tell me whether it is true or false."

Fan Su's eyes gradually became moist, her expression became terrified, and her face became whiter than paper, Lu Zekai was still indifferent, but the sharpness in her eyes gradually became sharper.

"It's true." Fan Su nodded lightly, still holding her head high with a stubborn and noble expression: "It's true! I did it!"

"Why?" Lu Zekai was trying to control his emotions, but it was obvious that Fan Su had heard the anger and disappointment in his tone.

Fan Su looked at him fixedly, tears rolled down his eyes little by little: "A Kai, what do you think I want to do?"

"You put the blame on Su Jin to make me hate her, right?"

"If you like her enough and trust her enough, you won't be shaken by anything I do."

Lu Zekai was suddenly stunned by what she said, but he felt an unspeakable sense of self-blame and shame. Yes, if he trusted her enough, would he believe so easily what others said?
Fan Su gave a stern smile, then wiped away tears stubbornly, and smiled again sadly: "A Kai, I'm not as nasty as you think, I'm just..."

"Just what?" There was already a mocking smile on Lu Zekai's lips, he wanted to see if she had any reason to come out!
The slender neck has beautiful curves and radians. Fan Su still stands there proudly, but there is a pitiful sorrow gradually between his brows and eyes: "What else can it be? I just want you to feel sorry for me Some, I want you to look at me more, I want you to take care of me, I want the warmest support..."

Her tears fell one after another: "I suffered so much abroad, and you are the only one who treats me well. Akai, I don't want to do anything. I just want you to have me in your heart and eyes to see you." saw me."

"But why did you blame Su Jin?" Although Lu Zekai was a little moved, he was not that easy to fool.

"I just hate, hate why she came to humiliate me, hate that she did something to me, hate that you know what she did but still never forget her!"

Fan Su suddenly raised her voice, and she smiled resolutely: "A Kai, since you know, I don't want to hide it from you, either you drive me away, beat me or scold me, I admit it!"

Seeing her expression at this moment, just like the previous years when they had disputes when they were in love, Lu Zekai couldn't help but feel soft-hearted, but when he thought that she had cheated him into doing such a thing without telling him, he couldn't help being a little annoyed: "Fan Su , I will not beat you, I will not scold you, I just ask you now, have you done anything else besides these!"

Lu Zekai couldn't help but think of that pair of earrings. After he saw the same pair of earrings that day, Fan Su never wore them again. If she didn't have a guilty conscience, would she do this?
Fan Su's eyes were full of mist, but he still shook his head stubbornly and proudly: "What can I do? I'm an abandoned woman. I have no money or power. I completely depend on you. What else can I do? That's all I can do. Thinking carefully, you found out. It can be seen that you never believed me. Now you come to question me with these evidences. What am I compared with Wen Sujin? We don't have a winner, we all lost! "

"Fansu, at the beginning, I really just wanted to take care of you, and I also wanted to find a chance to tell Sujin, but she didn't know how to know about it, so she made things like this, but I didn't expect that Yes, you would actually hire someone to commit murder on Sujin, although I want to believe you, but Fansu, I have to calm down and ask myself, what else are you hiding from me."

Fan Su, if you stop lying, I can let the past go, but if I find out by myself, the relationship between me and you for so many years will really disappear.

Fan Su sneered coldly: "No, although I, Ji Fansu, am down and out, I am also from a great family. I have always disdained to do such despicable and shameless things. If it weren't for...if it wasn't for a momentary impulse, you think I would do such a thing. Small status? Lu Zekai, believe it or not, if you don't believe me, kick me out now!"

Fan Su turned around and left as she said that. After walking a few steps, she didn't hear Lu Zekai stop her. She couldn't help feeling a little nervous, but she still walked upstairs with her head held high...

"Fan Su." Lu Zekai suddenly said, Fan Su heaved a sigh of relief, a faint smile floated on his lips, but turned around reservedly and coldly: "What are you doing?"

Standing there, Lu Zekai's tall and handsome figure carried some indescribable loneliness and desolation, only his voice sounded slowly: "As you wish, you can move out first."

When Ji Fansu heard this at first, she thought she had heard it wrong, but when she saw him turn around and no longer look at her, she felt as if she had fallen into an ice cave, and gradually her limbs were filled with indescribable coldness, and she was just stunned. Staring blankly at his back as he walked towards the window, she couldn't find her own voice.

"Akai, you want to drive me away because of such a trivial matter?"

"I think you and I need to calm down a bit." There was no trace of emotion in his voice, and the heart of Su Su kept falling, almost like falling into the abyss, and there was no end to the exit.

"Calm down?" Fan Su suddenly stomped a few steps down the stairs and rushed to Lu Zekai. Her face twitched slightly with excitement and bewilderment. She grabbed Lu Zekai's sleeve and trembled desperately, "Lu Zekai, what are you doing?" Why are you so cruel? You are the one who wants me to go back to China, you are the one who wants to take care of me, you gave me hope, and then drive me away, Lu Zekai, how can you be so cruel?"

Lu Zekai smiled bitterly, looked up at the distorted beautiful face in front of him, and gently pushed her hand away: "Feng Su, yes, I am the one who wants you to go back to China, and I am the one who wants to take care of you, but I want Let me tell you, when I went to California, I really wanted to be with you, but later, some things happened, and I straightened out my heart, so the subsequent care was just pure care."

"It's just pure care?" Tears gradually came out of Fansu's pupils, and she stared blankly at the man in front of her.

Who said that a man's cruelty is infinitely more cruel than a woman's. When they say they want to break up, they really want to break up, and they will never look back.

He doesn't love her anymore, he has already fallen in love with Wen Sujin, she lost too badly!
Lu Zekai nodded lightly: "I'm sorry, Fansu..."

Seeing that her face was too pale, he couldn't say any more cruel words, so he lightly brushed her messy hair on the sideburns: "I'm sorry, I misunderstood you, I was too unstable, and I didn't do things carefully. Think clearly, Fan Su, at least for now, I can't be with you..."

"Akai, I'm waiting, no matter how long, I'll be waiting, have you forgotten those happy times when we were together? You once said that in this life, no one will love except me..."

Fan Su panicked and wanted to grab something, but Lu Zekai stood there in a daze. Yes, he had said these words before, but he had already tasted the beauty and greenness of first love. Turning his head, he saw that the person he had longed for was really standing in front of him, but he could only sigh that time was too ruthless, it changed his state of mind, changed the clean love that was once unforgettable.

"I will never forget the time we were together." Lu Zekai gently hugged her: "Feng Su, do you know how much I want to see you happy, but I'm really sorry, this happiness is not what I want. can give."

If we were really able to be together, we might have had a relationship on the night you returned to China. Until today, the closest thing between the two of us is that one almost overreaching action. Lu Zekai, Lu Zekai, don’t you is that clear?

What you have been obsessed with is not that person, not that you still love her, but a beautiful dream, a beautiful but incomplete dream. The reason why you can't forget it is because it withers at the most beautiful time. That's why I'm unwilling, nostalgic, reluctance, and desperately trying to save it.

But when all this becomes reality, the youthful taste of first love is no longer the beauty it was at the beginning, don't you understand?Also, continue to immerse yourself in such an illusory dream that you have woven, how long?
"If this happiness is not given by you, I will stay in California, stay in China, stay with any man, get married, have children, what's the difference? Because of you, I gave up everything to come back with you, because It is you who are waiting here, so I endured all the humiliation and stayed by your side, Ah Kai, tell me now that you can't give me the happiness I want, then, tell me, what should I do? My heart I was saved by you, but you started to trample on it again, Ah Kai, tell me, what should I do?"

Fan Su has calmed down, she is no longer crying, nor is she hysterical, she just looks at him calmly, the sadness in her eyes seems to overwhelm him.

Lu Zekai stared at her in a daze for a long time, when the air was so quiet that it seemed about to explode, he slowly said, "Feng Su, I really loved you once, even now, I don't deny it, because of this , I don't want to lie to you, and I can't lie to you, Fan Su, at least for now, I really can't be with you."

"I thought Wen Sujin was because of what I did." Fan Su's fingers were trembling, his face turned pale, but he still spoke quietly.

Lu Zekai frowned slightly, he reached out to touch the cigarette, but paused: "Maybe, it's both."

"The most important thing is because of her, Lu Zekai. You fell in love with a woman you thought you wouldn't fall in love with, so you refused to admit it."

Fan Su sneered, and fixedly looked at him.

Lu Zekai suddenly felt a little embarrassed, he turned his face away, not wanting to answer this question.

He has always dealt with feelings like a mess. When he was with Fan Su, he hesitated for a long time before he was sure that he really loved her. But now, he still has no way to be sure. What is the conflicting mood towards Wen Sujin?

He couldn't figure it out, so he wouldn't jump to conclusions.

"Okay, I'll go, Ah Kai, you are so ruthless and cruel to me now, I think you will suffer retribution one day."

After Fan Su finished speaking, she turned her head and walked upstairs. She was a little too calm, and her calm was abnormal. When Lu Zekai stood downstairs alone for a long time, he suddenly woke up and rushed upstairs. Lying on the floor of the bathroom with a pool of blood underneath.

She cut her wrist.

Lu Zekai only felt upset for a while, mixed with inexplicable anger, he rushed over in a few steps, first pulled a towel to cover her bleeding wrist, then hugged her, and rushed downstairs go.

Fan Su is half dreaming and half awake, only hating herself why can't she be a little more ruthless and just die?

She has always been proud and arrogant, but she is tortured by life and has no way to survive. Now she is humiliating, but she is still ruthlessly abandoned. She really, really doesn't want to live anymore.

"Why save me, do you know that the moment you said to drive me away, I was already dead..."

She murmured hoarsely, seeing his tight eyebrows, seeing his gloomy face, but she still felt nostalgic. When she was young, why was she so stubborn and why did she value that ridiculous self-esteem so much?If after the quarrel, you can try to relax, won't you come to the point where you are today?
She used to love him so much, and also hated him so much. In that failed marriage, when she felt that she was about to drown, it was he who saved her, so she followed him back to the country without hesitation, and swiped without hesitation Trying my best to stay by his side!But who is born a bad person?Who is born to plot and plot?She just wanted a little more tenderness, a little more warmth, that's all.

"If you really die, I will be immersed in regret and guilt for the rest of my life, Ji Fansu, I will not let you die."

Because, I still want to pursue the life I want, what I want, that love.I don't want to bear the burden of you dying in front of me!
(End of this chapter)