Reborn 1980's Petite Wife

Chapter 4 Thinking about Life

The ideal is beautiful, but the reality is always skinny and makes people crazy.

Xu Jiaren, who originally imagined that she could reach the pinnacle of life by focusing on living once, now her son is a little desperate.

Since the last time she drank the old man's ashes, Xu Jiaren never dared to show "sensibility".

For example, last time she instinctively wanted to tie her shoelaces by herself, but she deliberately tied them into a dead knot under Aunt Zhao's frightened eyes.

Only then did grandma's frightened and nervous eyes return to normal.

For another example, she wants to go around the street and see the small town in the 80s that has long been blurred in her memory, but she doesn't even have the chance to go out alone.

Aunt Zhao would definitely follow her when she was going out, and the range of shopping was on the street she was familiar with, and the distance from the street to the end of the street was only a few hundred meters.

Xu Jiaren wanted to go to a farther place, such as the ancient buildings in the city center, but Aunt Zhao firmly disagreed.

It was impossible for her to say that she would go by herself, so she had to give up.

It's good to live again once, but it's not so good to live again until the age of 4.

Could it be that from now until she can act alone, she can only be a child who needs help from others to eat and go to the bathroom?

"Grandma, I want to go down and play with the children for a while."

Xu Jiaren was so bored, she tugged at her grandma who was knitting a sweater sitting in front of the sewing machine and said tentatively.

Aunt Zhao looked at the weather outside and put down her sweater needles: "The weather is fine, it's good to go out and bask in the sun."

Xu Jiaren actually wanted to say that she really didn't need to be with her, but she was afraid that if she said this, if her grandma gave her another drink, she would really cry.

Helpless, she had no choice but to wait for her grandma to pack up and put on a ponytail to lead her out together.

The sun was so strong that Xu Jiaren squinted her eyes.

After going downstairs, grandma took Xu Jiaren to the shaded place next to the wall in the yard, and sat with some old ladies in the yard.

"Hey, Aunt Zhao, hasn't this girl gone to kindergarten? Why is she at home now?"

"The child doesn't like kindergarten, so I am not willing to send it."

Aunt Zhao said with a sneer.

Several old ladies exchanged glances with each other, and someone said: "Aunt Zhao, why did I hear that your little girl beat up other children? So she was fired?"

"Yeah, I heard that too."

"This girl P is so powerful when she is older, and she will be terrible in the future."

"Aunt Zhao, you should send the child to her parents, or you will be blamed for not being able to teach her in the future."

Aunt Zhao blushed when some old ladies said, "The child is just playing around, and besides, she is so young and a girl, how can she beat her up?"

"Aunt Zhao, what are you going to do? The child won't go to kindergarten, right?" the old lady asked.

Aunt Zhao said: "If you don't go to kindergarten, don't go. Anyway, I have time to take her. It will be fine to go to elementary school in the future."

"I'm afraid it's not easy to go to elementary school. What good elementary school can she go to?"

"That's right, her parents are like that... Which elementary school will accept her?"

"Tsk tsk, look at this girl's temper, I'm afraid she won't be able to marry in the future..."

The more the old ladies talked, the more shameful they became. Aunt Zhao got angry, put away the ponytail, and pulled up the granddaughter next to her: "Damn, let's go home, grandma will make tomato sauce for you to eat."

"Aunt Zhao, are you going to make sauce? Can you give me a bottle?"

"Can I go to your house to get it at night?"

Both Xu Jiaren and grandma had reached the stairs, and the old lady was still shouting at the top of her voice.

Within 10 minutes after going out for a circle, Xu Jiaren and grandma returned to the narrow room.

As soon as she entered the house, the tense grandma lost control of her emotions. She sat on the edge of the bed angrily, wiped her tears and said, "These people just look down on us!"

"Grandma—"

Xu Jiaren raised her small hand and wiped her grandma's cheek distressedly.

Just now she wanted to scold those old ladies, but she was afraid that if she really wanted to swear, it would make grandma worry again.

The last time she drank that paper gray water, her throat and eyes were uncomfortable for several days.

"Damn, I really wronged you."

Aunt Zhao touched her granddaughter's forehead with her rough hand, and sighed, "It's all because our family is poor..."

"Grandma, don't be sad." Xu Jiaren said comfortingly.

The conditions at home have never been very good, Xu Jiaren knows this very well.

This situation lasted until she was in junior high school before it improved slightly.

It's a pity that the good times didn't last long. In the second year of junior high, my father was sent to prison for intentionally hurting someone. Since then, the family has gone from bad to worse, and because of being tortured by poverty, Xu Jiaren has always had low self-esteem, which is why the following tragedy happened.

"I'm going to buy some tomatoes. You'll sleep well at home, understand?" After wiping her tears for a while, Aunt Zhao collected her emotions and prepared to go out with her cloth pocket.

Xu Jiaren grabbed her grandmother and said sensiblely, "Grandma, I won't eat tomato sauce anymore, so don't go out."

When Aunt Zhao saw that the child was so sensible, she felt warm and said, "Those grandmas will come to get it tonight. If I don't do it, I will offend others? People have to keep their word, you know?"

Xu Jiaren got angry when she mentioned those old women just now, she pouted and said, "Grandma, they made you cry when they talked about me, why did you give them something?"

"Silly boy, there are only two of us in our family. If something really happens, who can we turn to? Why don't we rely on the people in the yard? Just say a few words, it's okay."

Aunt Zhao covered the soreness and pain in her eyes, touched Xu Jiaren's little head and said: "There are some things that you will understand when you grow up. How can a person not be wronged in this world? Well, you should sleep well, grandma, wait a minute I'm back."

Xu Jiaren didn't dare to argue any more, so she lay obediently and quietly on the wooden bed.

She was reborn, but now she can't do anything.

If they are always restricted by age, she and her grandma will have to struggle in this poverty for a long time.

Then what is the meaning of her resurrection?

Xu Jiaren looked at the narrow room and the broken furniture, feeling anxious.

Wipe, wipe, woof, woof, woof, woof, woof, woof—

Suddenly there was the sound of a dog barking at the door, and the sound of paws scraping against the wooden door.

Xu Jiaren turned over and ignored her.

The place where she and her grandma live is a tube building, the toilets are shared, and the cooking is done in the corridor.

Therefore, the environment here is also very bad. There are always rats running around in the corridors, and it is common for stray dogs to come in.

She is thinking about major events in her life now, so why would she care about stray dogs?

Wang Wang Wang --

Squeeze—crack——

The movement at the door became louder and louder, Xu Jiaren was so noisy that she couldn't calm down at all.

She had no choice but to get up and go down to the ground to open the door and chase the dog away.

However, when Xu Jia arrived at the door, she found that the door was locked by her grandma.

"Stop arguing! If you keep arguing, I'll eat you!" Xu Jiaren shouted impatiently towards the door.

When the voice came out, the door was instantly quiet.

Xu Jiaren was quite satisfied with her badness, and was about to go back to bed and think about life, but when she turned around, she found a white streak on the ground...

(End of this chapter)