The queen is shocked

Chapter 75

"Because I'm disheartened." Bu Jingyan leaned against his growing body, "Do you know what it means to be disheartened? It's disappointment, depression."

For some reason, after learning about Mrs. Bu's assassination of Han Su yesterday, plus being wronged by Bu Fang and having an affair with Feng Yuanxi, Bu Jingyan felt as if a stuffy and turbid black air had accumulated in her chest, Zuo Chong Right suddenly, but can't find an outlet to vent.In the dead of night, there was an urgent desire to confide in others. Facing the ignorant Feng Jiu, she poured out all the thoughts in her heart without any defense.

"Ah Jiu, do you know? It turns out that my mother didn't die of illness for no reason. She was a simple woman who had nothing to do with the world and just wanted to live with her husband well. She had no extravagant hopes and treated her husband in the most gentle way. Every family member in her family, but being submissive and tolerant did not bring her good luck, and in the end, she still died at the hands of another woman of her husband..."

Her ethereal voice made people feel a little emptiness, Feng Jiu couldn't help inserting five fingers into her hair, truly feeling her existence, "Is your mother the second wife of Master Bu Xiang?"

If it was someone else, they would definitely not know what he asked, but Bu Jingyan understood, she said with a little perplexity: "Of course my mother is Bu Xiangye's second wife, and it is the greatest honor of my father's life to marry her, but But he doesn't know how to cherish, he just watched the aunt kill my mother like that, how can a man like him deserve my mother's love?"

Feng Jiu was silent for a while, and said in a hoarse voice: "There are many reasons to like someone, but you don't need any reason to fall in love with someone. As long as you really love, no matter whether he is poor or ugly. , is evil, will not dislike it, will love unreservedly, and will give everything of oneself, including life..."

"Although what you said is correct, but in this world where women have no social status, women always treat men without reservation. How can men treat their women like this?" At this time, Bu Jingyan felt something in her heart. , she didn't notice the strangeness when he spoke clearly, she unconsciously snuggled into his arms, listened to his gradually accelerating heartbeat, and said quietly: "A man loves a woman, and the pursuit of physical pleasure is more important than spiritual pleasure." It's much more intense; when a woman loves someone, she loves from the heart to the body almost regardless of gain or loss. Think about my sister who didn't believe me at all last night, but was willing to believe anything Feng Yuanxi said. However, a man with a firm heart like Feng Yuanxi, facing his wife who truly loves her, is so stingy that he doesn't want to say a word."

There was a hint of self-mockery in her tone, and she murmured: "It's ironic when I think about it. I want to explain, but she doesn't want to listen, and the person she wants to hear the explanation doesn't want to explain. It turns out that love can blind a woman's eyes. In her heart is more important than family affection, she can risk her life for love, she can be so humble that she doesn't even want self-esteem..."

Her voice became lower and lower, and in the end, she lost her voice, and she was able to express the depression in her heart, as if it made her suddenly relaxed.

In the darkness, Feng Jiu stroked her cheeks with her fingertips, but found the moisture in her eyes. He gently wiped them away with his fingertips. Only then did he realize that she values ​​family affection so much. When the person she thought she valued the most didn't give her the same thought, the disappointment in her heart made her feel disheartened, so that now she nestled in his arms like a wounded little beast, feeling sad.

In fact, in his world, family affection is like poison, the closer the blood relationship, the stronger the poison, and the more thoroughly the injury will be.She is still hurt by these things now, which shows that her world used to be very clean. You must know that the kind of cleanliness that has not been baptized by strong winds and heavy rains is not really clean. Only by letting her experience it can she be different A peaceful state of mind to be strong in everything that will happen in the journey of life.

He sighed softly, it was too hard to be a human being, with emotions and desires, love and hatred entangled, like drinking extremely bitter tea soup, the feeling was indescribable.

He felt her gradually calming breath, suppressed the heat in his heart, and couldn't help but carefully kiss her tenderness...

When Bu Jingyan woke up the next day, the genius was dim and bright. The warmth of being in the bed made her hardly want to get up, and she closed her eyes for a while before gently moving Feng Jiu's hand around her waist. Open, climbed up lightly.

Feng Jiu usually goes out around the time of Chen Shi, and I don't know if he has learned anything from studying in the palace. It just so happens that I write something today for him to take with him, and he must hand it over to the emperor.

After resting for a night, the depression in her heart faded a lot, but her clear mind could not suppress her anger.

Lighting, laying paper, grinding ink.

She picked up the brush, and under the light of the green smoke curled up, she frowned on the page and wrote. She tilted slightly, and the entire article was written on it. Finally, she put down the pen, gently dried the ink, and reviewed it carefully. Are there any mistakes.

"Abu, what are you doing so early?"

I don't know when Feng Jiu woke up, he squinted his peach eyes sleepily, like a lazy cat, hugging the quilt and looking at her slightly sideways.

"Wake up as soon as you wake up." Bu Jingyan folded the paper full of words and put it in the leather envelope on the table, "You will still go to the palace to study today."

"I won't go." When it came to reading, Feng Jiu fell on the ground very boringly, "My concubine asked you to move to such a crappy place, it really made me not in the mood to study." When he said this, his eyes suddenly lit up. , raised his head again and suggested: "Abu, since you don't like this place either, why don't we move back to my Prince Qin's mansion. Although there are fewer people there, it will save the mother and concubine from nagging in my ears all the time. What do you say?"

This suggestion is indeed very good. Since you have your own mansion, why should you stay here under the fence of others and keep looking at people's faces?After so many series of incidents, she finally discovered that the status of the daughter-in-law in ancient times was extremely low in the eyes of the mother-in-law. Often the mother-in-law would not treat the daughter-in-law as a human being, and would always look at her face and be oppressed by her.

Although she was planning to leave years ago, a mother-in-law like Concubine Lu who wanted to take three points of the win for no reason was unbearable for a day.

Thinking so, but dare not agree to this matter, Feng Jiu is a sick fool after all, if he moves back to Prince Qin's mansion, after she leaves, wouldn't he be alone again?He had already become dependent on her, and he was afraid that there would be no one to comfort and accompany him. If it caused his illness, how could she feel at ease?

She smiled, naturally she would not agree to him, and said ambiguously: "Moving back to Prince Qin's Mansion is actually not bad, but not today, and you must go to study today."

(End of this chapter)