after losing heart

Chapter 81 [095] Mrs. Xi pulse

After many days, Qiancheng thought of what happened in Zixia Garden, and still felt like a dream.

He stood up for her.

He also said that she was his woman.

He carried her back to Tsinghua Court, put medicine on her hands, and asked her if her face hurt.

In my impression, he would never treat her like this. If he did, it would be just for show, but this time is different.

What was the difference, she couldn't say.

When he is free, he often comes to her Tsinghua Garden, and just sits there quietly, or watches her make incense, or slowly drinks a pot of tea, and chats a few words.

What has changed?she does not know.

She only knew that after that day, her life changed completely.

No one ordered her to work anymore, she wanted to find some work to do, but they didn't agree, so she changed from the busiest person in the whole palace to the most idle person in the whole palace.

The kind of idle panic.

She gets sleepy when she is too busy, and people say that she is sleepy in spring and autumn. It is strange, but this spring is over, but she is getting more and more sleepy.

Every morning when she wakes up naturally, the sun is already high; sometimes after lunch, she wants to take a nap, but she can sleep until dark, and then she can continue to sleep after dinner.

At first, she really thought it was a fault of being idle, until later, she found that she would feel sick in the morning and couldn't eat greasy food. Most importantly, her menstrual period, which was always on time, didn't come...

A terrible guess jumped out of my mind.

She thought, maybe something big happened...

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The afternoon sun shone down carelessly, piercing people's eyes.

The long street is full of people coming and going, the traffic is busy, and the sound of hawking keeps coming and going.

Qiancheng walked along the road in desperation, walking endlessly, feeling confused every step she took, all the noise in her ears had nothing to do with her, and no matter how big the sun was above her head, it couldn't shine into her heart.

Her day, it's dark!

"Congratulations madam, it's a happy pulse!"

Although she had prepared herself before going out to the medical clinic, but when the doctor said it so firmly, she still felt like a bolt from the blue.

She was pregnant!

How did she get pregnant?
How can you get pregnant once?
What's even more sad is that she still doesn't know who the father of the child is?

A child of unknown origin?

A heart floating in mid-air, she doesn't know what to do?
She didn't even dare to think, what would Su Mochen's reaction be if he knew about this?
Will kill her?
According to their ancient moral concepts, a person like her is called a "slut". Her behavior will be hated by all people and gods, cast aside by the whole world, and she will be sentenced to death like immersion in a pig cage.

She is not afraid of death, she has never been afraid!
What she was afraid of was that person's contempt!
He will definitely loathe her and despise her!
She doesn't want him to look at her like that!

In fact, she wanted this child!

In this time and space, she is really lonely, and she wants a child to comfort her lonely soul.

Besides, it was also a piece of her heart and a life.

However, she knew that she was neither qualified nor able to keep it.

She can't keep it.

Looking at the busy figures coming and going on the road, she smiled sadly.

She even wondered, if he took the initiative to admit his mistake to Su Mochen, would he agree to keep this child?

The answer is clear, definitely not!

Even a man can't, let alone such a cold and proud person.

His attitude can be seen from the matter of Xilingxue.

He will never allow such a thing to happen.

What should I do?
Could it really just knock it out like this?
she no...

From time to time, all kinds of people passed by, and all kinds of noisy sales passed through the eardrums.

She walked in a daze, with nothing in her eyes...

"Fortune-telling, word-testing, dream-interpretation, asking for a lottery..." A white-robed Taoist priest came towards us holding a cloth banner.

The Taoist priest is an old man in his 80s and [-]s, with white hair and a childlike face, with a fairy demeanor. When he saw Qiancheng, his eyes flashed, and he stopped in front of her.

"Girl, with a gloomy complexion and dull eyes, there must be something difficult to resolve in your heart, why don't you let the poor Taoist guide the girl?"

Qiancheng regained consciousness in a trance.

Fortune teller?

She is a new woman in the 21st century who never believes in these illusory things.

"Thank you, no need!" Qiancheng said indifferently, ready to walk past him.

But he was stopped by the Taoist again.

"Why doesn't the girl count? Doesn't the girl want to know her own destiny? Or does the girl want to escape and dare not face up to her own destiny?"

Qiancheng was stunned, she didn't think too much about it.

Is she trying to escape?
Seeing her stop, the Taoist said again: "Let the poor Taoist talk about the girl's thoughts. If something is right, the girl will decide whether it is not too late. And if it is not right, the poor Taoist will not take any money."

Qiancheng raised his eyes to look at him, saw that his expression was determined, and he looked a bit like a master of Taoism, so he was half-believing, "Then tell me, why am I worrying about it now?"

"It must be an extremely contradictory thing. A girl has to make a decision, but she can't make up her mind. And if this decision is left, I am sorry for myself, and if I am right, I am sorry for others..."

Qiancheng bowed his head and thought for a while, although he said it in a vague way, it seemed to make sense.

"Then what can I do to make it easier for both parties?"

The old man smiled and stroked his beard, "Is there a way to achieve both in this world? The so-called best of both worlds is nothing more than people who weigh the pros and cons and choose the method that has more advantages than disadvantages."

"That means a decision must be made..." Qian Cheng said quietly.

"Of course! Girls can also weigh the pros and cons. Some things can be regained after they are lost, and some things will never come back once they are missed!"

Some things can be found again after being lost, some things will never come back once you miss them for a lifetime!
Qiancheng chewed on his words over and over again.

If the child is gone, there will be another one in the future, but once the child is left behind, the relationship between her and Su Mochen will be completely over, isn't that right?

"Sometimes, things are actually very simple, but the world makes it complicated."

very simple?
Just a packet of saffron?
But how could she be so cruel?So selfish?
As if he could really see through her thoughts, the old man laughed again: "The poor Taoist just said that a girl has to weigh the pros and cons, and of course also consider the consequences, for example, in the end, can the girl really protect what she wants to maintain? Can the girl really give up what she wants to give up?"

maintained?Abandoned?
Qiancheng thought about it for a long time, and seemed to understand a little bit.

"Thank you, I know how to do it!" Qiancheng took out a silver ingot from his sleeve, but was blocked by the old man, "Buddha has a predestined person, a girl can understand a little bit, and she can be regarded as a person with wisdom roots. Today, the poor will not take a penny La!"

After finishing speaking, without waiting for Qiancheng's reaction, Haha laughed loudly, turned and left.

Qiancheng was stunned for a moment, then went back to the clinic and bought a pack of saffron.

Yes, she decided, she couldn't have the baby.

Even if she stays now, she won't be able to maintain it in the end.

After buying the medicine, she just walked out of the clinic when she saw Chunlan who was looking for her all over the street.

"Oh, Master Qian, I finally found you! Master Qian, have you forgotten that the empress invited you into the palace to watch a play today? The concubine and the others have already gone, so Master Qian should not delay the hour!"

Only then did Qiancheng remember this.

The queen invited a member of a new opera troupe to sing in the palace, and let all the palaces go to watch. Originally, Qiancheng was abolished by the emperor, so it should not be invited, but for some reason, her name is also there.

She doesn't want any more trouble.

Holding the medicine bag in her sleeve tightly, she said to Chunlan: "Then let's go!"

This chapter seems to pave the way for the transition, but it is actually important, and you will understand later~
Thank you [Kong Baixue] for the monthly pass, okay~~
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