my black moonlight girlfriend

Chapter 355
Instead of being like now, she feeds him a mouthful, and he barely eats it.

At the same time, she remembered that although he had been by her side these two days, he had never hugged her, not even when he was sleeping. In the past, when would he not treat her like a cuddling bear and wrap his limbs around her?
She looked at him with a smile on her face, but her heart gradually cooled down.

While eating, he was busy with his mobile phone, and kept replying to Sangzi and Xiaolanzi in their steel and plastic group. Sangzi's VR book will be launched in the next year, and he is indeed very busy. Those two guys have nothing to eat now.

Suddenly feeling someone staring at him, he looked up and saw Xin Wan staring blankly at him with a smile on his face.

He pushed the phone and apologized, "I'm sorry, Wanwan, it's really...they have a lot of questions, and they are waiting for me to answer."

Xin Wan smiled all the time, gently and reservedly, and shook her head, "It's okay." Why do you have to apologize?You see, people are very sensitive at such times, and a small thing can be associated with a lot.She would think of him who was arrogant and domineering in his youth, who made mistakes and proudly held his head up and dismissed him. How could he be like now, always "sorry" and "sorry"?
If you really want to say sorry, it should be her, right?It was she who troubled him, and it was she who forced him to stay with her at home because of her own reasons, which delayed his work.

"Crying bag." She held the water glass with both hands, and the temperature of the hot water scalded her palms through the wall of the white porcelain cup, "You go to the company to get busy, I don't mind."

He simply didn't even look at his phone, and concentrated on eating with her, "It's okay, we've finished talking, here, I'll serve you a bowl of soup, I've said it all, you need to make up for it."

He got up and served her soup.

The fish soup my aunt stewed was white and thick, but she had no appetite.

He has set up a VR lab at home, which is next to the B1 screening hall. Sometimes he will take home to do things that the company has not finished.

In the afternoon, he went to B1 and called her to watch a movie in the projection hall, while he worked in the laboratory by himself, "Call me if you need anything."

She doesn't want to look.

"I won't watch it. I feel dizzy after watching the screen for a long time. I'll go back to my room and sleep. You are busy with your work, so don't worry about me."

But he said, "Then I'll go back to the room too, let's go, I'll accompany you."

"..." She really didn't like such deliberate company.

When two people stay together, the most important thing is to be comfortable. You don't need to force yourself, let alone cater to others. Any deliberate effort will actually make you feel uncomfortable.

But she couldn't hold him back.

He took her hand back upstairs.

She was lying under the quilt, listening to the sound of his laptop keyboard, she didn't feel noisy, but she couldn't fall asleep.

Turning over, his keyboard sound stopped instantly, and his soft voice sounded, "Is it disturbing you?"

"No, it's okay, you're busy..." She felt a little unspeakable suffocation.This sense of suffocation comes from the fact that he cares so much about her emotions, as if she is a fragile glass person, he must always watch over her, apologize to her if he is not thoughtful for a while, and take care of her everywhere She, let her, for fear of treating her slowly.

No one doesn't like that the person next to your pillow cares about you. It's a good thing to care about yourself, but there is a limit to everything. Once this limit is exceeded, not only will there be discomfort, but it will make people feel abnormal.

She closed her eyes, not even daring to turn over, for fear that he would feel that she had disturbed her again.

Fortunately, amidst the sound of his keyboard, she still slowly fell asleep after all.

I don't know how many hours I slept. When I woke up, I could faintly hear his voice outside the corridor. I listened intently, as if he was on the phone.

She didn't have the habit of eavesdropping on people's phone calls, but now she couldn't help getting up and going to the door to eavesdrop.

He was talking to Sangzi, "Yes, I haven't done a good job in this part of the modeling. You can work overtime at night. You and Lanzi will share the work these days. I can't get away for the time being. If you have anything to do, call me by phone. Me, call, send a message, or we can have a video conference, um, Wanwan needs someone to accompany her now, I have to try to accompany her as much as possible. What? Oh, it’s nothing serious, there is no need to visit, I will take care of it Well her..."

Xin Wan sat back on the bed.

After a while, he came in. Seeing her sitting, he took care of her again, "Are you awake? If you don't wake up again, I'm going to wake you up. It's time for dinner."

So, life now is three meals a day, sleep, two people together.

It's what I hoped at first, but it's different from what I hoped at first...

She began to feel that the two of them were awkward together at night.

"Crying bag." She called him.

"Ok?"

"Do Sangzi and Xiaolanzi know about me?" She asked, remembering the phone call he made in the afternoon.

"I don't know." He was busy on his notebook, "I didn't intend to tell outsiders about such a thing." He remembered something and turned around, "Do you want them to come and see you?"

She shook her head, vigorously.Her thoughts are the same as his, the less people know about such things, the better, but, he really thinks that this is "such a thing"...

Such a thing is embarrassing...

Leaning against the head of the bed, she slowly slid into the quilt.

He came over, sat by the bed and asked her, "Shall I talk to you?"

She still shook her head, "No need, I'm sleepy, you go and do your work."

"I'm not busy, let's chat. You've been sleeping all day, and you'll be silly if you sleep any longer." He looked at her face, "Let's see, her face looks better than this morning, do you want to go out to relax tomorrow? ? We drove out to get some fresh air, and we were bored at home for days, almost moldy."

"Yeah." She agreed sullenly.He has a restless temper. When he was a child, his mother said that he had ADHD. It was difficult for him to keep him at home and guard her every day. Of course, he said that he wanted to go out to breathe fresh air at the moment because of her consideration. I understand, but, in fact, she doesn't want to go out. She likes to be quiet and can bear loneliness.

She didn't want to go out to relax, she wanted him to hug her.

She didn't know why she had this idea, it was not a good idea.At least, in the years when she was not married to him, she never thought of needing a hug, no matter what happened to her, she never thought about it.

"Crying bag." She said softly.

"Huh?" He took her hand.

"Do you think people with completely different personalities are suitable to live together?" She didn't think about this question when she got married. She agreed to marry at that time, and she got married.

He is by no means Meng Sangzi, she must have meant something when she said that, presumably she was referring to the two of them, rubbed the back of her hand, and whispered reproachfully, "What are you thinking? You like to be quiet, and I like to make trouble." Isn't it? How do you know that everyone who makes trouble doesn't really yearn for a piece of pure land to rest in? Wanwan, I'm not expressing dissatisfaction. We grew up together and separated for ten years. It seems that we are the people who know each other best , but in fact, do they both have some blind spots that the other party doesn't understand?"

Xin Wan was silent.

"But it's okay, we still have a lifetime to get to know each other slowly," he continued.

"En." Xin Wan said in a low voice, choked up a bit.

Maybe, she was overthinking?Or, is this lifetime promise his responsibility?
"Do you want to watch a lighter drama? Or a variety show?" He asked again.

"Variety show, right?" Watching a drama takes a lot of energy and requires concentration.

"Okay." He chose a funny variety show, and the two leaned against the bedside to watch it together.

There are quite a lot of laughs in the variety show, he laughed several times, she was not the kind of person who laughed out loud, a slight smile was considered a tribute.

But he couldn't finish watching an episode of the variety show. He watched and watched, but there was no sound.

Xin Wan glanced sideways and saw that he was asleep.

He is indeed tired...

Gently turn off the projection screen and turn off the lights.

But this movement woke him up, "Huh? I fell asleep..."

"It's okay, I'm sleepy too, let's go to sleep." In the dark, she said.

"Fine." He slid under the covers.

She was lying on her back, and he was on his side, facing her.

She could feel his breath.

A sudden impulse rose in her heart, she turned over, turned her back to him, and leaned into his arms unconsciously.

She had already touched him, but she clearly felt him step back...

She froze.

So, it's not her illusion, is it?He just doesn't want to hug her...

She suffered from insomnia that night, and never had insomnia be as uncomfortable as this time.

Can't sleep, but pretending to be asleep and not moving is really painful. Every time I turn over, I am careful, lest I touch him, but, is it better to force myself to be with someone and always be careful than when I dislike someone? What is more painful?

she does not know.

She only hoped that morning would come soon, and that this stiff sleeping position would be over soon.

When the morning came, half of her body was already numb, but he didn't move, and she continued to maintain a stiff posture until the mobile phone on his bedside table vibrated, which woke him up and reached out to answer the phone.

"Huh? Lanzi, what's the matter?" His voice was a little hoarse when he first woke up, "Okay, I know, you and Sangzi can make the decision, and you can contact me if you have anything to do. Well, just woke up, what? What did you send me?" ?Okay, let me see. Fuck you!"

I don't know what the two talked about, they used to scold each other.

"Wan? Are you awake?" He asked after hanging up the phone.

"Well, I'm awake." She lay down slowly, the left side of her body was extremely numb.

"Let me see your face." He leaned closer, "It's better than last night."

"You too." She looked up at him, and on his face above her, the rash was almost invisible, and his face was only slightly swollen.

"Okay, then let's go out to play today." He sat up, "I'll get up first!"

She actually wanted to hold him back and tell him not to go out to play, but before she knew how to organize his words, he went into the bathroom.

She slowly rubbed her numb arms and shoulders, and got up after recovering.

I kind of want to use the bathroom, but he hasn't come out yet, it feels like he's been in for a while, why hasn't he come out yet?

She approached the bathroom, but she could vaguely hear a sound inside, and it seemed to be a strange sound?

She frowned and leaned closer to listen.

He made a depressing sound inside, somewhat similar to...

Her hand on the door gradually clenched into a fist.

The sound of water from the shower can be heard inside.

Her heart was twisted into a ball of numbness, and she walked away quickly.

He was still fully dressed when he came out of the bathroom, and he was quite surprised to see that she was already awake, "I thought you would sleep a little longer, I'll go and change."

He went to the cloakroom and she went to the bathroom.

The shower had just been turned off, and there was still a faint heat in the bathroom, but in the fumigation of the heat, there was a familiar smell mixed in. She took a deep breath, and some of it must be some kind of smell.

She looked at the laundry basket, in which lay the underwear he had just changed.

She picked it up and looked, it was like a bolt from the blue.

She dropped her trousers and covered her mouth to keep herself from crying.

For a wife, this should be one of the biggest insults, right?
In fact, why bother?
She would rather he said it out loud to her, telling her directly: I mind those photos, mind your past, even if I know you are innocent, know you were bullied, know you were not completely bullied, but I I just care, I can't get over this hurdle, let's separate!
If he said that, she would feel better, simply and neatly, and make a clean break. Even if it hurts, it is worse than short-term pain. Cutting people with a knife is even more torture.

She looked at her face in the mirror, and the injuries didn't heal as much as he said, because of the swelling, one side of the face was big and the other was small, so ugly that she didn't even want to take a second look.

The bruised and purple patch on her cheek, like an ugly mark, remembered her past, and it hasn't dissipated at all. Some things will probably never dissipate.

There was a bruise and a scar on his forehead, the doctor said, whether it would disfigure him or not is another matter.

She never cared about her appearance. Since she was a child, many people praised her for being beautiful, but she didn't take it seriously, especially because she saw herself too much, and she didn't think her face was special. But now, she I care so much, it turns out that being ugly is like this...

And it wasn't just her face that was ugly.

He is such a beautiful person, he is a perfectionist Virgo and a clean freak, how can he face her?How to hug her?Why come to kiss her and want her like before?

It's just that she is not decisive enough...

She washed her face, ignored the pain, and wiped her face vigorously with a facial tissue. She scratched the original scab again, and she stopped when it hurt.

The long hair is half wet.

"Wanwan? Wanwan?" He knocked on the door outside, "Are you ready? Why is it taking so long?"

She wiped her face clean, and the white soft towel took away every drop of water on her face, and it was also stained with bright red blood stains, not much, a little bit, but it was shocking.

"Here we come." She put down the towel calmly and said in a hoarse voice.

Opening the door, he was waiting outside. He saw the blood scabs on her face at first glance, and frowned, "You washed your face yourself? The doctor said it's best not to get wet, why don't you wait for me to wash it for you? "

Since she was injured, he often wiped her face.

She is tired for him.

　4 large chapters in one.See you tomorrow.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)