The 999th day after breaking up with the president

Chapter 802 Extra: I think I will be happy

If someone asks, what is it like to suffer from depression?

Pan Yuyan thought that she might not be able to answer others at all, because she had moderate depression, which wasn't severe yet, so it wasn't too serious, but this level was enough to wipe out her enthusiasm for life, making her feel that living a torment...

Her family lived on the 24th floor, which was very high. At night, when she stood on the balcony and looked down at the scenery below, a voice always appeared in her mind.

"Jump down, if you jump down, you will be free!"

The feet moved forward bit by bit, and the urge to release became stronger and stronger...

Let's go, take a step...

"Yuyan, why are you still awake so late?"

Mother's voice sounded from behind.

Her footsteps stopped abruptly, and when she turned around, she heard her mother cursing. Her mother's family environment was not good, and she was beaten and scolded by her elders since she was a child, so she only knew how to educate her children by making noise and cursing.

It's just that different people should treat it differently.

She would only feel ashamed when being beaten and scolded by her mother, so she often told her mother to stop scolding her. She felt very uncomfortable and even wanted to die, but her mother always said that she was hypocritical.

Yes.

Depression is really hard to talk about, because after you say it, no one can put yourself in your place to understand your negative thoughts, they will only think that you are psychologically fragile and hypocritical...

No one felt that the disease really needed treatment, no one felt that the negative emotions needed to be channeled, and they even felt that it was a shame to speak out about the depressed emotions.

The same goes for mothers.

At this time, her mother kept talking about her using depression as an excuse to win the sympathy of her family.

Pan Yuyan had more negative thoughts in her mind, she lowered her eyes: "I'll go back and rest right away."

"Damn girl, you know how to find trouble every day, and you don't know how to think about it for your mother..."

The voice of complaints continued. Pan Yuyan closed the door and took antidepressant medicine. Only then did her negative emotions ease and she calmed down a little. Unfortunately, this calm did not last long. When she went to school the next day, the people around her Seeing her talking a lot.

She was a little strange, after the school's list came down, she found out that she had won No.2 in the competition.

It was a national mathematics competition, and there were many people who came to participate, all of whom were geniuses from all over the world. It was not easy for her to get No.2 in it.

But when she saw the notice posted by the school, she still froze in place.

Because her parents asked her to get No.1 no matter what she did, if she couldn't get it, they would beat her to death...

"Pan Yuyan, right?"

Pan Yuyan turned her head and saw a classmate who was trembling, she turned her head and asked, "What's wrong?"

"Do you want to go to the cafeteria to see, your boyfriend..."

A bad premonition suddenly rose in Pan Yuyan's heart, and she walked quickly towards the cafeteria, only to see her boyfriend hold the hand of a strange female classmate and kiss her tentatively.

Her heart suddenly went blank, and her repressed thoughts suddenly spread at this moment, and the darkness almost swallowed her: "What are you doing?"

When she yelled this sentence, the man just kissed the woman's lips. It was a very shallow word, and he left immediately when he touched it. A man's voice came from behind.

Pan Yuyan didn't want to hear anyone talking at all, she just wanted to leave, she just wanted to go home.

Correct.

Only home can provide her with some warmth. When she got home, she found that her father had also returned, and her father was sitting in the living room, staring straight at her.

Her footsteps were heavy: "Dad, I'm sleepy, I want to go back and rest first..."

Her father didn't listen to her desperate request. He picked up the rolling pin on the table and strode towards Pan Yuyan. Pan Yuyan wanted to escape, but her long-term experience of being beaten told her that if she escaped, she would only suffer worse.

So instead of running away, she obediently stood where she was, letting him hit her.

Dad never knew what it means to be merciful when he hit someone. The rolling pin almost killed her half. She gritted her teeth tightly, and the sweat from the severe pain wet the broken hair on her forehead.

Muffled hums sounded one after another.

The feeling of suffocation is getting stronger and stronger.

Her boyfriend was her first love, but he betrayed her.

Parents are the closest people to her in this world, but the way they treat her is worse than enemies, beating and scolding, she can't bear it at all...

Why not be loyal to her?
Why can't you comfort her?

Why can't you give her a little bit of love?
No one could give her an answer. After suffering such a meal, Pan Yuyan lay in bed for half a month without getting up, and finally recovered a little. She climbed to the top floor, stood on the railing, and looked down.

The pedestrians coming and going underneath looked like ants.

If you jump from here, what if you hit a passerby?
But if she doesn't dance, she really can't hold on.

"That girl in front, what do you want to do?"

"It's nothing." Pan Yuyan said in a panic, "I just want to look down."

"Really?" The man walked to her side: "I had a friend before, she had depression, and every time she wanted to jump off the building, she would tell us that there was nothing I wanted to jump down to see."

Pan Yuyan distanced herself from the man: "I don't."

"Really?" The man seemed to be aware of her rejection, and didn't get too close to her, but said: "I was thinking, if you really want to die, you might as well give your life to me."

Pan Yuyan asked, "What do you mean?"

"I'm working on a project." The man turned his head and smiled at her: "Those who study AI are worried that they can't find anyone as a sample. If you don't mind, maybe you can help me."

"I..." Pan Yuyan lowered her head, she was not interested in doing those things.

"My friend knows a very good psychological expert. If you are willing to cooperate with me, I think I can introduce her to you." The man asked, "Are you willing? Anyway, you don't want to live now, even if you are handed over Me, no matter what I do with your body, it's not a loss to you, is it?"

"How do you know I can't think about it?" Pan Yuyan asked.

The man said: "My friend who suffers from depression, his tone of voice and the way he looks at people are similar to yours."

"In other words, you are not really lying to me, but you really have such a friend?" Pan Yuyan asked.

The man nods.

Pan Yuyan relaxed a little: "Then what's your name?"

"Boss, they all call me that." The boss led the way: "Come with me."

The place where the boss works is a research institute. There are many computers in the research institute. At this time, various data are being processed on the computer screen, which makes her dizzy.

Fortunately, she is smart, after studying for two months, her work is finally on the right track, and the boss also fulfilled his promise to her by inviting a psychiatrist. Under the treatment of both work and the psychiatrist, her mood also improved Gradually get better.

Gradually, you can feel the emotions of ordinary people.

Then resumed exercising, the tormenting negative thoughts finally disappeared, and on the day she fully recovered, the boss's project also came to an end.

That night, the boss asked her to go out for dinner, and she came here at the invitation. He is usually a man with short sleeves and big pants, and he doesn't care about his appearance, but he is wearing a suit and tie. When he saw her coming over, he knelt on one knee: "Xiao Pan, can Will you marry me?"

The marriage proposal came so quickly, Pan Yuyan didn't react for a while.

"Actually, I have known you for a long time. When you went to the hospital to see depression, I felt different about you at that time. I have been paying attention to your news since then."

"Later I found out that you are a very well-behaved, kind, sincere but kind person, and I like you more and more, but you had a boyfriend at the time, and I didn't want to destroy your relationship."

"But the two of you broke up. I finally had a chance to be by your side for so long. This time, I know that if I don't confess my love in time, I might lose you forever."

"So I want to ask, are you willing to give me a chance?"

"Hmm..." Pan Yuyan hesitated, but seeing the sincere eyes of the man in front of her, she finally nodded fiercely: "Yes!"

It is rare to meet a gentle person in life.

The boss is the only one she has met since she grew up. He will consider her feelings, care about her, comfort her, appreciate her, and praise her...

She also has a crush on him, but he is afraid that she won't like her.

Also has not spoken.

fine……

He likes her too!
"Thank you!" The boss said, took out the ring from the ring, and put it on Pan Yuyan's ring finger: "Give me a chance to treat you well."

"I should be the one thanking you for appearing in my life." Pan Yuyan threw herself into the arms of the boss.

Before meeting him, her life was gloomy.

She even thought she would not be happy.

But the appearance of the boss brought her hope, happiness, and happiness.

She is grateful.

In a person's life, there are bound to be many sufferings and troughs. When experiencing these things, it is inevitable to have low thoughts.

But the more it is at this time, the more we must persist.

Because there are as many pains and joys in a person's life.

After the painful journey, the rest will be sweet.

May you and I persevere until we can usher in the sweet day.

　It's the finale.

　　I wrote this episode because a friend of a young reader, whose parents are very strict, suffered from depression and committed suicide.

　　It hurts to hear that........

　　Well, I also came from your age. I know that sometimes it is very painful and uncomfortable, but I still hope that everyone can treat it with optimism.

　　There are no obstacles in life.

　　When we pass that hurdle, grow up, and have the ability to take charge of our own lives, we will find that life is actually very good.

　　Because of independence, because of freedom, because there will be many like-minded friends who will treat you well and care about you...

　　Really.

　　If you don’t persevere, face the test that life gives you, and give up life resolutely, then you will definitely not be able to feel the beauty that life brings to you!

　　Well, when you feel depressed in the future, find entertainment to relax.

　　Stick to it, and you'll be fine.

　　PS: Of course, learning is also very important. I hope everyone can adjust their mood, study hard, and make progress every day!
　　
　
(End of this chapter)