God please lie down

Chapter 54

After Xiao Muchen sent Guicheng away, he drove straight to the cemetery outside the city, and bought a bouquet of chrysanthemums when passing by a flower shop.

After parking the car outside the cemetery, Xiao Muchen tidied up his clothes.

Walking inside step by step, the expression on his face was a little sad.

Walking to the deepest part of the cemetery, he placed the flowers in front of the tombstone and bowed deeply.

"Grandma, I'm here to see you."

The photo on the tombstone, the kind appearance in memory, has become black and white.

"Grandma, actually I came to see you today, and I have something to discuss with you."

"I want to continue to fulfill my dream, but I don't know if I can do it."

"You have always been the one who supports me the most in the family. No matter how self-willed I am, you always look at me with a smile and tell me not to be afraid."

"When you left, I hated myself for not being with you in time and not being able to see you for the last time."

"But the last sentence you left to my parents was that you never blamed me and asked me to do what I wanted."

"Every time I stand on that stage, a lot of images always flash in my head. I will be afraid and timid. It's like a lingering nightmare. I haven't found a way to restrain it. .”

"I don't even know what I need to face when I go back."

"But for the sake of my obsession, and for the sake of my brothers who once fought side by side with me, I will not give up."

Gui Cheng's words made Xiao Muchen think about something, no matter how many high-sounding excuses he made, even he couldn't convince himself.

Xiao Muchen stood in front of the tombstone for a long time, said a lot, and expressed all the thoughts in his heart one by one.

He thought about it all night and realized that he would never stay in the same place for too long. He didn't do live broadcast these days, so he calmed down and thought about his current situation carefully.

Aside from the flashy hustle and bustle, he still likes that arena.

Even if there is no way to face himself, he wants to try.

If this can bring him a different feeling, that would be even better.

Xiao Muchen stayed in the cemetery for more than two hours, and when he came out, his clothes were already wet with dew.

But he didn't care, he knew that grandma was the one who loved him the most.

Anything is fine, as long as it is what he likes.

It was precisely because of this that he felt so much guilt in his heart.

When leaving, the moment he turned around, Xiao Muchen turned his head and took a deep look.

He will come to this place often in the future, otherwise grandma will be lonely by herself.

I don't know what he thought of, Xiao Muchen changed to Han University on the way home.

It's just a glance from a distance, Xi Nuan went home to rest and hasn't come back yet, his interest in this place has been halved immediately.

Seeing people coming and going outside the school, there are many delicious food, but he just can't cheer up.

He took out his mobile phone and saw the familiar number, but he couldn't dial it.

He felt a little awkward in his heart, and he really couldn't do something that teased someone and was irresponsible.

Once he decided to go back to that arena, it was clear that he would be traveling around and taking on a lot of previous responsibilities.

Going against the weight, don't know how far it will go.

But he had to try once, even if he failed, he would feel better in his heart.

(End of this chapter)