Disabled president does not get divorced

Chapter 37

"Ayan is right. Although I keep telling myself that I have let go, I can deceive others, but I cannot deceive myself. What happened back then is like a needle stuck in my heart, and I can't get rid of it no matter what. I thought I was healed if it didn’t hurt or bleed anymore. However, it was just deliberately forgotten. In fact, it has always been there. Therefore, whenever someone mentions anyone or anything related to that year, I find myself avoiding it unconsciously."

"It turns out that I can't let go of what happened back then."

Zhuang Ling smiled desolately, closed his eyes suddenly, and turned away, "Mu Jingfeng, I'm not a saint. Naturally I will hate, I will naturally resent, how can I just let it go."

Mu Jingfeng stared blankly at the sorrow on Zhuang Ling's face, unable to hide his despair and hatred, he lowered his eyes abruptly, suppressing the soreness in his eyes, and slowly caressed Zhuang Ling's tearful eyes with a hoarse voice , "Until this moment, I didn't know how deeply I hurt you. Can I, can I..."

Zhuang Ling shook his head slowly, very slowly, but also firmly, "No."

"I'm already Leng Yichen's wife." Zhuang Ling tried his best to tell the truth in a calm tone, but his voice was still sobbing and choking, but there was no sadness.

Withdrawing from Mu Jingfeng's embrace step by step, this is the last time to hug him, from now on they will have no relationship, no, no, any relationship.

"But, I don't care." Mu Jingfeng took a step forward, stretched out his hand, and regardless of Zhuang Ling's refusal, he hugged Zhuang Ling tightly into his arms again, exhausting all the strength in his body, very hard, very hard. in the arms.Leave no gaps.

Zhuang Ling closed her eyes suddenly, as if she wanted to shed all the unfinished tears from three years ago at once, "But, I care."

"Ling?"

Zhuang Ling opened Mu Jingfeng's hand finger by finger, a gleam flashed in his eyes, he stretched out his hand to wipe away the tears on his face bit by bit, and met Mu Jingfeng's eyes word by word, " I care, I want to be his wife."

For a moment, Mu Jingfeng thought that he was hallucinating, took a step back in disbelief, rubbed his lips, but couldn't utter a word.

When he was full of longing to move forward, someone suddenly told him that it was hell, how did it feel?
"It wasn't until Ah Yan told me what happened back then that I didn't know that it was because of my father. It turns out that all of this is forgivable. The only thing to blame is that I am the daughter of your enemy."

"Ling, it's not what you think."

Mu Jingfeng's voice was a little hoarse, and he replied after a while, "Since you are excused, please, give me another chance, I am willing to give up everything, and only want to be with you. "

"It's too late," Zhuang Ling shook his head, "It's too late."

"As long as you are willing, why is it too late?" Mu Jingfeng almost shouted this sentence.

"My heart has already lived in him, and there is only one him."

For a moment, Mu Jingfeng seemed to see a figure flashing past Zhuang Ling's eyes, and his heart ached beyond words.Unable to look into her eyes anymore, she turned around and punched the tree trunk hard, raising the maple leaves all over the sky, scattered scattered around.

The maple leaves flying all over the sky seemed to turn into red rain all over the sky, the bone-piercing pain, the bone-piercing coldness...

Threads of blood slipped drop by drop from between the fingers, and fell on the same bright red maple leaf. The dazzling bright red couldn't match the pain in my heart.That is misery, regret, and despair.

Looking at Mu Jingfeng in pain, Zhuang Ling stood where he was and didn't step forward.

"Why? If you want to take revenge on me, then you have already done it, and now I am in such pain, Ling, please, don't say such heartless words, okay?"

"Mu Jingfeng, I want to be his wife." Looking up, Zhuang Ling repeated what he said just now, his eyes were as firm as before, even more so.

"It's because he helped you when you needed it the most, and because of your guilt, so, do you want to be his wife?" Mu Jingfeng looked back at Zhuang Ling in a daze, sneered, very self-deprecating, extremely Lonely and extremely desolate sneer, "So, what about me? What is our four-year relationship? What am I?"

He grabbed Zhuang Ling's shoulders violently, and shook them mercilessly. It seemed that only in this way could he regain Zhuang Ling's bewitched mind, "What about our dreams, what about our feelings, have you forgotten all of them?"

"If you wanted to see me regret it, then you did it. If you give me another chance, I will never do such a wrong thing again, never again." The low voice was a prayer that had never been done before.As long as everything can go back to the way it was before, he is willing to pay any price.

The bones in Zhuang Ling's whole body were about to be shaken to pieces, and the tears she stopped slowly fell again, but she couldn't feel the slightest pain, "It's because the relationship in those four years was too deep, so obviously being with him, I still can't love her with all my heart. It's not fair to him, it's so unfair."

Zhuang Ling choked, closed his eyes in relief, and continued, "So, after knowing the truth, I am truly relieved. I want to give him a complete me, not a person who still remembers me from time to time. In the past, I thought of other men's women. So, just now I clearly saw that it was you, but I stayed, and I want to make a break with the past."

"For three years, you have been a thorn in my heart that cannot be removed. That's good, I know what happened back then, and I know what my father owed your father. Therefore, I have no reason to hate you anymore."

"It's time to completely pull out this thorn in my heart..."

"Since love is no longer there, let hate be like the fallen leaves in autumn and go with the wind."

Mu Jingfeng looked at Zhuang Ling in disbelief, his pupils contracted suddenly, the hand shaking Zhuang Ling's shoulders slowly released tremblingly, and he staggered back a step, and then another step.

Zhuang Ling's calm words were like a sharp knife, piercing into the heart mercilessly.Even the blade and the handle were submerged into the heart, and the wound could not be seen, but the pain really penetrated into the bone marrow.The whole body trembled uncontrollably, the affection in his eyes surged away, and gradually melted into bottomless despair.

"If it's just because Leng Yichen is your husband, if you just want to find a shelter from the wind, if you only say you're taking revenge on me, then, Ling, don't be so cruel." Heart, making the last struggle.

"He is different from you." Zhuang Ling didn't feel like brushing away the traces of tears that remained on his face, "The first time we met after returning to China, his injury, and his loneliness made me sad because of those traces of tears. Reluctant to let me stay by his side."

"But, the moment I decided to stay, everything changed." Zhuang Ling smiled, faintly.

Zhuang Ling spoke quietly, Mu Jingfeng looked at her blankly, his face gradually turned pale, but he remained silent.

"I thought that I rejected all the men in Paris for three years because I couldn't forget you. I thought that it would be impossible to fall in love with another person in my life, but Leng Yichen was really an accident that I never thought of in my life. He let me know that everything was not because I couldn't forget you, but because I lost confidence in love. And he made me believe that there is still affection in this world."

"His affection moved me, and his loneliness made me feel bad. Gradually, I found myself falling into his deep affection step by step, unable to extricate myself."

"Staying by his side is really just because of guilt? I asked myself more than once, but my heart told me, no."

Mu Jingfeng couldn't stop trembling all over, suddenly amplified his voice and growled at Zhuang Ling, "Please, please don't say it, Ling, please don't say it."

Zhuang Ling sighed, "I once asked him, what exactly does he love about me? He answered me because I am me."

"Now you ask me why I want to be his wife, then I will answer you, just because he is Leng Yichen, my body and my heart tell me that I want to be his wife."

Mu Jingfeng's face suddenly turned pale, and his body was crumbling in the autumn sun, almost falling over.But Zhuang Ling's voice still came clearly.It was as clear as a knife, cutting his heart inch by inch, and he seemed to hear the sound of blood flowing quietly.

"Feng, my love for you is like the sand on my fingertips, passing away bit by bit in three years."

"When I love you, I love you with my heart. But if I don't love you, I really don't love you anymore."

Mu Jingfeng backed away step by step, as if countless needles were pricking his heart, once and for all, there was no blood but the pain penetrated into the bone.Only at this moment did he know what the real pain, heart, heart, and door are.

"The reason why I say this today is because I really want to let go. After knowing the truth, I forgive you. Really, I don't hate you at all."

Tears slipped from the corners of his eyes.

His, hers.

Who said that when a man cries, he really cares.

The woman cried because she really gave up.

A mist began to appear in front of his eyes, and there was a dead silence without a sound in his heart.

He watched helplessly as the figure of the man gradually disappeared into the mist.

I didn't reach out, because I knew that even if I stretched out my hand, that person would not look back...

never look back...

A tear falls from the corner of my eye, silently
(End of this chapter)