The maid is the queen

Chapter 58 Relying on Him

I tilted my head and chuckled, am I jealous?I just want to ask him if he likes it can be many, many, divided into many shares, and given to many women.

"Don't be unhappy, little thing." He kissed my face with every kind of joy: "I will let you know that you are the happiest woman in the world?"

"What is happiness?" I asked again.

"It's about living a good life, eating well, being loved by someone, pampered by others, and everyone who sees you should be courteous, and live a life of prosperity by stepping on the top of the clouds."

I sighed, the definition of our so-called happiness is different.

But this time, I didn't say it out, the child will make all my thoughts change and compromise.

He caressed my face: "little thing, what are you thinking?"

I said lightly: "I was thinking, in the days when I stepped on the top of the clouds, if I fell off, it must be very painful."

He smiled more and more proudly, holding my face, like kissing a puppy, kissing everywhere: "little thing, you are so cute, you have to love me well, I won't let you fall, I will Let you be the most noble concubine, no one can match you."

I caressed my stomach: "I want to be with the child." I don't care what status he gives.

He smiled: "Of course, you little bastard is very ruthless, I have suffered from you."

At this moment, he is very happy, smiling very kindly, like a simple big boy, not him with the majesty of a king.

I watched him smile, and there were many sighs in my heart.

Maybe it will be very difficult and difficult for a person to stand upright and look up at the wind and snow. Leaning back is a warm embrace, and there will be no cold and no difficulty in walking.

So tired, so bitter, so lonely, I can't prove anything, but I can still go on alone, child, every mother loves her child.

"Your Majesty, Li Yushi is asking to see you." Eunuch Zhang outside said softly.

The smile on his face froze, and he said coldly, "No."

"Your Majesty, Li Yushi has been begging for a day, and now the wind and snow are very heavy outside, I'm afraid..."

"Your Majesty." The voice of another father-in-law was changed: "Concubine Li..."

I didn't say much later, but he sat up straight from the bed impatiently, and turned his head to gently rub my hair: "Sleep again, you big lazy cat likes to sleep the most, come with me later Have dinner."

I nodded and saw him go out displeased with his brows furrowed

When he came back, his incomparably handsome face was covered with some frost. When he stepped into the inner hall and saw me, his face changed into a smile: "I said it will be soon, and I will be back in a while."

The dinner was quite delicate and rich, and I put a bowl of nourishing food in front of me.

I am also open to anyone who comes, now that my health is too poor, it is better to be healthy when I am pregnant with a child, I can eat whatever I give, and he is a little dumbfounded: "You are so small, you can really eat."

I smiled lightly and didn't speak, I still ate quietly.

I'm not a talkative person, nor a person who doesn't like to talk, but in front of him, I can't relax my heart and talk to him unscrupulously.

No matter how easy-going he is, he is still the emperor. He can say one sentence that is irrelevant to you, and the next sentence can directly tell you to leave. I have already seen his kung fu of turning faces and ignoring people. The best way is to be quiet.

"Why don't you talk?" He stopped his chopsticks and seemed a little disappointed.

"I'm full." I put down my chopsticks and looked at him a little restrained, even a little defensive and cautious.

He glanced at me, then gulped down the soup, I stood a little uneasy, waiting for when he would give me an order to let me go back, stay in this gorgeous and noble Zhenghua Palace, there is always no one

But it didn't work, so I waited.

He went out when he was full and didn't say where he was going, I just stood there for a long time before the maid came in and said: "Yun Fengyi, the emperor is going to Zhang Meiren's place today, Fengyi, please come with your servants."

It didn’t go back to the Begonia Courtyard where I lived, but took it to the inside of Zhenghua Palace. Zhenghua Palace has many rooms. When you open a door, there is also a beautiful and exquisite bedroom inside, with soft white A few pots of orchids in full bloom were carried under the gauze, and the faint fragrance filled the room, quite elegant and comfortable.

"Feng Yi is resting here today, and the servant is waiting outside the door to listen to Feng Yi's orders." She poured tea and put it on the table, then bowed and left, closing the door.

Opening the curtain, there is a big bed inside, with several pots of pink flowers on it, a few books on the table, pens, inks, papers and inkstones are also complete, very clean and elegant.

Beaded flowers, jade combs, and bronze mirrors are placed on the dressing table, and white paper is pasted on the wooden hollow windows imitating the south of the Yangtze River. When they are pushed open gently, the veil on the windows flies away, and there is a dim whiteness in front of the eyes. .

The icy breath hits my face, I like the cold wind blowing like this, it can make my mind clearer and I know my position better.

But I can’t do this anymore when I have a child. I close the window and light a candle. The orchids under the lamp are exhaling a delicate fragrance. It’s so beautiful. , I have a child.

It may really change my life, but I still have a lot of joy, I think, I will slowly find a way to get along with him.

I know that I am not very good at pleasing him, but to survive in the palace and to have something that belongs to me, I have to learn these things. I will let go, but I am still stupid, and I can't learn it all at once.

When the weather is cold, no matter how warm the bed is, I always feel cold all over my body. The more I sleep, the colder I get, and my hands and feet hurt from the cold. This is a problem I have had since childhood. I curl myself into a ball sleep.

In the middle of the night, I felt as warm as a fire around me, so I snuggled up to it.

Two warm feet entangled my feet, grabbed my hands and leaned on the warmth, and said in a hoarse voice, "Why are my hands and feet still so cold?"

Muttering half tiredly and half comfortably, unconsciously said: "You are here again."

He smiled lowly: "What's the matter again, I'm worried that you will be cold."

He hugged my waist, snuggled me warmly, and let me sleep comfortably until dawn.

Until the father-in-law's voice whispered outside: "Your Majesty, the time has come."

This cry woke me up, I was snuggled into his arms, my whole body was so warm that I didn't want to move lazily, I could clearly feel the warmth from his skin, the faint elegance on his body The smell of fragrance, but the mind, is still blurred.

Hearing his father-in-law's voice, he gently pulled my hand down from his waist, reflected a warm kiss on my forehead, and whispered softly: "Little thing."

I got up lightly, picked up a soft pillow and stuffed it in my arms for me to hug, then tucked in the quilt, stepped outside lightly and said in a low voice: "Be quiet, tell the maid not to wake her up."

The father-in-law chuckled and said in a low voice: "The emperor is really kind to Fengyi."

"Don't talk too much, I am naturally good to her, she is not someone, she is Yun Zhiqiu." He was in a very good mood, and smiled softly and said: "Let her sleep for a while, if she wakes up, there is no need Ask her what to eat, and bring some up, this woman eats like a wolf and a tiger."

After a while, the sound of grooming outside stopped, and the door opened and then closed gently.

I hugged the soft pillow tightly, with his body temperature and his faint fragrance on it.

Don't worry, let go of all prejudices, he is really good to me.

It's so warm, how many winter mornings, I always wake up with cold hands and feet, such warmth makes me very nostalgic.

But I don't know how long this warmth can last for me.

Niang said that before learning to own, one must learn how to think about losing.

When I woke up, it was just like what he said, the maid no longer asked me what to eat, but brought a table full of food for me to eat, I was not picky, I ate some of everything

It was still early but I didn't know what to do, so I simply put on thick clothes and wanted to see if my senior brother could play the piano, and suddenly I really wanted to listen to Qiuyue Ye's music.

That song is gorgeous and peaceful with a hint of sweetness and joy, but behind the gorgeousness, there is a melancholy and quietness. I think I need to listen to it. I want to tell myself that I should let go of something in order to be able to listen to it. Get something, that's my baby.

No matter what to put down, I want kids.

The snow stopped unexpectedly today, and the weak sunlight shone on the white snow of Kaikai, making me feel colder and colder. I would rather the sun shrink back and continue to snow.

It's a pity that when we got to the pavilion, we still didn't see the senior brother.

Brother's greatest wish is to be a luthier in the palace. He doesn't want any fame or fortune. What he likes is the violin. His pure love and this kind of clean attachment make me admire the most.

Walking and walking, I don't know why I came to the Haitang courtyard again. The palace gate was wide open, and the thin sunlight shone on the snow on the Haitang, like frozen time.

After thinking about it, I decided to go in. He didn’t let me go back to the Begonia Courtyard. That doesn’t mean he let me live in Zhenghua Palace forever. That’s impossible, and it’s never been done before. No concubine can stay with the king forever.

The door of the main residence was finally opened, but no one came in or out. I pushed open the hut of the right residence, and the most conspicuous thing on the ground was the white fox scarf, which was blown softly by the wind.

I want to be proud and lonely all the time, keep the peace in my heart, and have my own beliefs. Although I can't be with Xia Juntang, I am still me.

I hate him, I don't love him, I'm not the same as the women in the harem, I want to please him.But one piece of news was enough to destroy the belief and persistence in my heart, and the maid following me wittily wiped the table and stool.

I said softly, "Put those things away and put them in the utility room."

"Yes, Fengyi." The maid hurriedly carried away the things on the ground.

Out of sight, I told myself this is the best.

Just sat down, but heard the groans coming from the opposite Zuoju, the groans became more urgent, sad and sharp.

I hurriedly stood up and ran out, and saw Lin Shangyi from Zuoju hugging her stomach with one hand and the railing with the other to support her body, calling out to Zhengju in pain: "Liangyuan, Liangyuan."

"What's the matter?" I ran over, seeing her pale and pale face with fear, I was also a little frightened and at a loss.

(End of this chapter)