all the mornings

Chapter 46 The Night Comes (5)
It was the last light of the setting sun reflected by the sea water, and it shone on her face.Like Galadriel in the Golden Forest, everything from her face to her long hair to her dress will glow.And this beam of light awakened part of her sleeping memory, reminding her of a scene in a long time and space, her face was frozen in that epiphany, forgetting the disaster she faced in this time and space.

And Li Sichuan also remembered something, he knew what she saw.One of his hearts was beating wildly, trying to tear open his chest and struggle to get out.He already felt the pain of his flesh being torn apart.

The scene in front of him is what Xiao Yu repeatedly saw in the nightmare.

She was walking on the road and her little daughter was in the car.The car was sliding, rolling her into the air.The silver-white skirt fluttered in the air like a morning glory.

Xiao Yu knew it all along, and she repeated her fear in her dream.Her dream was not a memory of her previous life, it was the assumption of his psychology professor, her dream was just a prophecy of her current life.She saw the end of her life in a dream and has been disturbed by this prophecy all her life.All of her powers, the psychic abilities that brought her fame as a child, were a preview of this moment.The grand finale is being staged, and the opening will end.When the curtain ends, the curtain calls.

When this scene officially started, she knew that the ending had already been spoiled.She watched the dream scene unfold before her eyes, but forgot that she was in it, and catastrophe was approaching.

Li Sichuan once said: Sometimes when we are new to a place, it feels like an old one.In a dream, thoughts break through the barriers of the body and combine with fragments of a little bit of memory in a certain period of time that we don't know, which happens to be confirmed in a certain environment or event.

Xiao Yu was confirming his statement that she was cast by the nightmare and couldn't move.Everyone will have such a moment in their dreams, knowing that disaster is coming, but unable to move.But the dream has no sound, no color, no way to call for help, no way to escape.

Li Sichuan knew that it was too late for him to push Xiao Yu away, but he must wake her up from her dream.

He clenched his fists and ran wildly, his palm was stung by something, without thinking about it, he subconsciously threw the thing in his hand towards Xiao Yu.The thing hit her head heavily or lightly, first or later, causing her head to lean to one side heavily, and the high heels she was stepping on lost her balance—she fell to the side.

The car ran over her shoes, over the saddle vines, and rolled the scarf into the wheels.A long wind blows from the sea, and the long, wide and wide scarf unfurls like a flag, and two pink petunias fly in the air.

The long wind stopped, the scarf fell again, the wheels got entangled, and the car stopped and coasted.

The sun completely sank into the sea, the light on the sea disappeared, and the eyes suddenly went dark.

It was only then that Li Sichuan remembered that the thing he threw at Xiao Yu was a shell he picked up for his daughter—it was the shell that hit Xiao Yu that woke her up and saved her life.In the dark, Yingying saved Xiaoyu.

Li Sichuan was running out of breath, ran to Xiao Yu, and asked eagerly: "Xiao Yu, Xiao Yu, did you hit him? Xiao Yu, talk, Xiao Yu."

Xiao Yu closed her eyes without speaking, and passed out in a coma.He put her on the beach and jumped at the car again.Opening the door, Yingying also fainted on the driver's seat.Li Sichuan shouted again: "Baby! Baby!"

Baby closed his eyes and fell into a deep sleep.

Li Sichuan picked up the baby and laid it down, checked the dashboard of the car, everything was normal, but for some reason, it would slide by itself suddenly, it was as if the scene just now had never happened.

It was already dark, he turned on the headlights, jumped out of the car and took a closer look at Xiao Yu's situation.Look at her face and her body, squeeze her bones, there is no blood, no fractures, no bruises.He listened to her heartbeat, felt her pulse, and measured her breathing. Everything was normal.Xiao Yu didn't seem to be hurt at all, she just fell asleep after being tired.

Li Sichuan carried Xiaoyu into the back seat, sat for a while, took out his mobile phone and called Yu Xiushan, saying that he was lost and asked for help.

Yu Xiushan asked on the phone: "Where are you?"

Li Sichuan sent the GPS location on the phone.

"Don't you have GPS positioning? How can you get lost, just follow along."

"The car broke down."

"Understood, come right away."

Li Sichuan breathed a sigh of relief, and collapsed beside Xiao Yu, as if someone had sucked away all his internal energy.

The GPS has a fix and the car isn't broken, he just doesn't have the strength to drive it back.He's just terrified and needs someone to be there for him, someone to share his fears with.

"Mom." Xiao Yu was speaking in the dark.

Startled, Li Sichuan propped up half of his body and asked, "Xiao Yu?" The headlights were on, allowing him to see Xiao Yu's face clearly.Xiao Yu was dreaming, and in the dream she was calling her mother.There is nothing more heartbreaking than this, Li Sichuan's heart is crying for Xiaoyu.

Xiao Yu gave an "um", eyes still closed, and said, "Mom, I'm sorry."

Li Sichuan thought for a while, took her hand in his, and acted as her psychiatrist again.

He said: "I'm not sorry, everything is fine with you, so mom can rest assured."

Xiao Yu continued: "Mom, forgive me."

"Forgive you for what?" Li Sichuan asked, a little worried.

"Mom, I remembered, you were driving the other day, and I broke the car. It was Dad's car, and Dad always drove that car to meet the woman outside. I don't think Dad can't go out without a car." It’s gone.” Xiaoyu’s voice turned into a low whisper, and she said in a tone of two people whispering: “Mom, let’s not tell dad, the car broke down, dad can’t go out, stay at home with mom and Xiaoyu. Mom, can you tell me?" Her language changed to Hokkien, which she was used to from novels, and Li Sichuan listened carefully for fear of getting it wrong.

He hugged her tightly to his chest, patting her gently.Pat her like she's patting baby to put her to sleep.Legend has it that a pat like that represents the first sound a baby hears inside the womb, the sound of a heartbeat.They have listened to the sound for nine months in the mother's body, and it is the most reassuring and calming sound for them.Mothers have patted their babies this way for millions of years, rocking them to sleep.Li Sichuan hoped that his pat could also make Xiao Yu feel safe in her dream.

Sure enough, children are the guardians of the family, and their innate mission is to maintain the integrity of their family.He has always doubted Xiaoyu's role in this matter, he asked everyone, Yu Xiushan, Jin Yan, Yu Xiushan's second wife.He asked those who could know the truth back then, but no one knew what was going on.And Xiaoyu's sense of guilt is so deep and powerful, it seems that in the depths of her dreams, there is always a voice reminding her.He had long felt abnormal, but he didn't dare to think in this direction.

It turned out to be like this... That's why she never allowed herself to be happy.She blinded herself and erased this part of her memory.But memory always wakes up from deep sleep, just like an underground demon, if she doesn't let it wake up, it will eat her dreams.It devoured all the pleasure she could perceive.

A matricide is not to be found in dreams, or outside of dreams.

Xiao Yu closed the door of this palace in her memory palace and never opened it.She has this ability, that is the palace she built, she knows in which corner and in which room there is a past that makes her afraid and disturbed, and she never goes there.But Nightmare will not let her go, the more she refuses to open it, the more ready to move, and in the middle of the night when the master's willpower is weak, he will break through the door and come out.

Xiaoyu suffered from sleepwalking when she was a teenager, and when she was young, she relied on her physical strength rather than her will to stay awake, and she was fighting against this part of her nightmare.Li Sichuan thought heartbroken, "In the past few years, I should have loved her more."

But he loved her so much that his heart ached, but he left her.

"How can you break the car when you're so small?" he asked.The sense of guilt can cause people to have the illusion of taking faults that do not belong to them, especially people like Xiao Yu who travel back and forth between reality and dreams, are more prone to such dislocations.But the details can't go wrong, and only the parties involved know the details.

"I was watching while the driver uncle was repairing the car. He said that if the pipe was blocked, the car would break down and he needed to repair it."

"and after?"

"Dad came back that day and said that the B-ultrasound results of the woman outside came out, and the doctor said it was a son. He wanted to take it back and asked his mother to admit the child. Mom scolded him and quarreled with Dad. The quarrel was so fierce. I think it was the one outside. Women are not good, they always make Dad leave the house, and if Dad’s car breaks down, he can’t go to her. I pulled down the hair rope and tied seven or eight knots on the pipe, so that the The pipes are clogged, the car breaks down, and Dad can't go out."

Startled, Li Sichuan sat up a little bit, looking at the woman in his arms.

Xiao Yu didn't know when she woke up.She bent over his chest and looked up at him with tears in her eyes.

"Xiao Yu, are you awake?" Li Sichuan asked tentatively, "When did you wake up?"

(End of this chapter)