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Chapter 32 The Journey to Untie the Bell (6)
Xiao Yu's mother is buried in the Fu'an cemetery. The last time Li Sichuan came, she accompanied Xiao Yu when she was newly married. She hasn't been here for so many years, so I can't remember exactly where it is.Fortunately, his occupation is quite related to the location. He looked around, searched the location in the memory bank, and found Ms. Jinying's cemetery not long after.Xiao Yu's face on the tombstone still smiled at him so gently.

Li Sichuan took out the bunch of jasmine flowers he bought first from the paper box and put it in front of the tombstone, thought for a while, and said in his heart: "Mom, I will come to see you for Xiaoyu and Yingying."

Xiao Yu said last night that her mother gave her everything.her life, her fortune.What she didn't say was that because of Ms. Jinying's early death, she also created her withdrawn and aloof arrogance, that is, her whole temperament, character and world view.If she had grown up in a complete and happy family like Li Sichuan, it would be impossible for her to be the enigmatic Huo Xiaoyu now, with a bit of detached supernaturalness and indifference from another world, which made her beauty surpass the smoke and fire of the world , like a female ghost or fox girl who walked out of Liaozhai, bewildered Li Sichuan, a scholar.

He opened the white wrapping paper outside the bouquet, picked up the bouquet and carefully inserted it into the stone vase in front of the tomb, and then took one from the ginger flower bouquet and one from the lily-of-the-valley bouquet and inserted it into the jasmine bouquet. Mind.

Xiaoyu once said that the name Yujin was given by her mother. Apart from being a green cherry blossom, Yujin is also a pink flower of the ginger family.When there are no pink tulips and green tulips, Jiang Hua will replace her.

Xiao Yu also said that her mother likes white fragrant flowers the most, jasmine, gardenia, and hosta are all her favorites. In her memory, her mother has planted these fragrant flowers at home all year round.Therefore, when Li Sichuan was picking flowers for his deceased mother-in-law, he saw jasmine for the first time and chose it.However, ginger flowers and lily of the valley were added later, and I still got a reminder from the girl in the flower house. She said, "Are you going to take the flowers back to the north? Ms. Yu will be happy to see jasmine flowers in the New Year." For this sentence, she made two more deals.

Li Sichuan is not a romantic person, he never sent flowers to Xiao Yu when he was courting her, even when he chased the girls who grew up with him throughout his youth, he never gave any girls flowers.Now that Xiao Yu got him a bouquet of flowers, he still took a ride to visit his mother-in-law.But he didn't intend to tell Xiao Yu about this.When he returned home, holding Jiang Hua and Ling Lan to see his two women, he would not mention his trip to Jinjiang at all.

He closed the box and was about to leave when he saw a middle-aged man in black clothes coming towards him.Not many people came to worship their relatives during the New Year, and he was the only one in the entire cemetery. At first, he thought it would be Yu Xiushan.It wouldn't be surprising if he showed up here.After all, the whole hotel is his ear god.But when he turned his head to look again, he realized it wasn't Yu Xiushan.Yu Xiushan does not have such broad shoulders.

He froze for a moment, went up to meet him and shouted, "Uncle, why are you here?"

Jin Yan, who hadn't seen him for a long time, patted him on the shoulder, took out a bunch of incense from his pocket, lit it with a lighter, and inserted it into the incense burner in front of the tombstone. After a short silence, he said, "I heard you came Once you come here, I will come. You come back, and you don’t come to see Xiao Yu’s natal family, it’s too unruly.”

It is said that?Who are you listening to?The waiter in the hotel, the girl in the flower gallery, the driver, Li Sichuan really has no privacy here.

When Jin Yan lit incense and mourned in silence, Li Sichuan also followed in silence, and when he heard him blame him, he kept apologizing and said, "Damn, I just wanted to come to worship my mother-in-law, and I forgot my uncle."

He really forgot Xiao Yu as uncle.He came here to seek the truth of the matter, he asked Yu Xiushan, Yu Xiang, and even Le Er, but he forgot to ask the Jin family.If there is a truth, they are the ones who have it and will not hide it.The insider was here, but he had completely forgotten about it.

Jin Yan was obviously very dissatisfied with his forgetfulness, snorted, brushed the stone steps in front of the tomb, and sat down.

Li Sichuan sat down with him, saw Jin Yan take out a pack of cigarettes, hurriedly took his lighter, and respectfully lit a cigarette for him.Jin Yan took a deep breath of the cigarette, exhaled it, and asked in a calm voice, "Why did you come back alone?"

Li Sichuan said: "It happens to be a holiday during the New Year."

"What about Xiaoyu's mother and daughter?" Jin Yan asked again.

"She didn't want to see her father, so she asked me to come for her." Li Sichuan lied many times before he felt that it didn't make sense.

Sure enough, Jin Yan didn't believe it, "There is no such reason. She doesn't want to see her father, but you do."

"She begged me to come, and I didn't want to come either." Li Sichuan said stubbornly.

"Aren't you divorced? She will beg you to come and see her father?"

Li Sichuan couldn't pretend anymore, "Uncle, why do you know everything?"

"She called me and told me about your divorce, so I wouldn't know?" Jin Yan frowned and said impatiently, "I asked her why she was living well and she didn't want to say anything. , 'I'm at ease now'. Did you have some flirtatious things outside that made her uneasy?"

Li Sichuan said with a sad face: "Uncle, do you believe it? If so, I will come here alone to sweep her grave? I begged her not to do this, I almost knelt down to beg her, but she wouldn't listen. She This person is the same, how can I beat her? You see, it has been a year, and I am still trying to find a way to get it back. I really can't think of a way, so I came back and asked her father to find out. "

"Ask what?" Jin Yan became interested, "I don't think you are like Yu Xiushan, who would not do such immoral things. I believe Xiaoyu's vision, and my own The eyes can't make mistakes. What's more, she gave birth to a daughter with you, she herself has no father, how can she be willing to let her daughter live the same life as she did when she was a child?"

Li Sichuan nodded desperately as if he had found a bosom friend.He also said: "Uncle, have you found that Xiao Yu is actually living for her mother? Because her family was not complete when she was a child, she did not allow herself to live a complete life. The more complete her life, the more guilty she felt. .She lives with trepidation, for fear that if she is not careful, she will cross a certain limit."

Li Sichuan only discovered Xiao Yu's guilt hidden deep in his mind last night, so he no longer blamed Xiao Yu for being cruel to him.He thought it was right for him to come back this time. Only by going deep into her birthplace can he put himself in her shoes and think about the problem from her perspective.He came to the cemetery early in the morning, also wanting to figure out some questions through meditation.Just like what he said to Xiaoyu: At the molecular level and neuron level, from the perspective of neurotransmitter brain regions, understand yourself and others.Emotions are objective, and exogenous emotional factors will affect people's moral judgments to confirm that moral judgments are not the product of pure rationality.

This is a question he has been thinking about recently. He couldn't figure out the reason from the psychological point of view, so he had to try to prove the rationality of her weird behavior from another angle.He is indeed like Xiaoyu said, he is a scholar at heart, and the spiritual world is not something he can accept if he is willing to accept it. During the 30 years of cognitive process, his thinking has long been replaced by neurons of rational thinking.

But Xiao Yu is the most emotional person.

It is precisely because of their complete differences that they are attracted to each other. Even if they are divorced, the inner attraction cannot be cut off.

Jin Yan didn't speak for a long time, finished smoking a cigarette, and lit another.It was Li Sichuan who recovered from his own thoughts first, and asked, "Uncle, did Xiao Yu's mother die naturally? Could it be that the car accident was the result of human interference?"

"I also had such suspicions," Jin Yan said with a puff of smoke slowly, "I went to the traffic brigade to check the car accident records, and I also checked the whereabouts of some people, but nothing suspicious was found."

"Then why did Xiao Yu have such a strong reaction to this car accident? She kept dreaming in her dreams, which was so frequent that it disturbed her life as an adult." Li Sichuan said: "I always wonder if she was there at that time, Seeing her mother's tragic scene made her unable to get rid of the nightmare."

After smoking the second cigarette, Jin Yan lit another one, thought for a while, and then said: "We have some bad habits here. People, especially the elderly, have a habit of asking the gods for answers when something happens. My My mother, Xiaoyu’s grandmother, was a high-level witch Zhu in the countryside. After Xiaoyu’s mother passed away, I didn’t want her to live with her stepmother, so I took her home to raise her. Since then Since then, I have been living in the smoke of coiled incense. When I found out, Xiaoyu was already a little nervous. When she opened her eyes and looked at the void, you would believe that she could see something. I stopped immediately This kind of situation continued to happen, and sent her back to Yu's house, forcing Yu Xiushan to make an oath that she would not treat her badly. Soon after Xiao Yu went back, she had symptoms of sleepwalking. Yu Xiushan invited a doctor and couldn't cure her. She came to beg me again, so I had no choice but to take her home again. I don’t know what medicine my mother gave her, or cast some kind of curse. Xiaoyu’s sleepwalking at night stopped, and her scary eyes recovered. After that, she looked like a Normal girl."

Hearing his words made Li Sichuan's hair stand on end, and his back broke out in a cold sweat.

He thought of the old woman in dark clothes at his and Xiao Yu's wedding, she was thin, black and short, inconspicuous.If he didn't introduce it, he would never have imagined that this would be the source of life for such beautiful Xiaoyu and Ms. Jinying.

"I won't be surprised by Xiaoyu's strange behavior in the future, so she said she was going to get married, and I immediately prepared the household registration booklet for her. She is willing to step into a normal life, and I want to pray If you look at the gods, there will be no way to stop them. Besides, you are indeed a good young man worthy of entrusting your feelings."

What he said was entrusting his feelings, not entrusting his life as most people would use.It can be seen that in their eyes, they don't think they will last forever.Li Sichuan thought that everyone's marriage should be blessed, but obviously, at his wedding, the people from his wife's natal family did not want to bless so long.

"In the late 80s and early 90s, there were some so-called child prodigies in the north who could guess objects from space and recognize characters with their minds. Could Xiao Yu be such a child prodigy?" Li Sichuan asked with a bit of disgust.

Jin Yan put away the cigarette case and lighter, turned to look at him, and asked, "What do you think?"

"I think it's terrible. In my opinion, such things always feel a little unclean. But Xiao Yu is such a clean freak. Towels and bath towels are only white, and there is no flowered tile in the bathroom. It's like a snow cave." .”

(End of this chapter)