all the mornings

Chapter 26 Dream (3)
What can best explain that the first dream is about the previous life is the detailed mirror image: "'I' clearly see the white skirt like a petunias, wrapping me in it." This mirror image shows that this is the memory of the previous life.This is a completely reversed mirror image, which is a symbol of a previous life.

These are two completely different dreams, and it is only because there are too many identical elements in these two dreams that you mistake them for a shift in the dream.

After reading this email, Li Sichuan pondered for a long time before writing a reply to the professor.

He asked: Why do some people have dreams about past lives?Why are these two dreams so similar?Did the first dream influence the narration of the second dream, or did witnessing the second dream cause the first dream?The biggest question is: Why is the white skirt like a morning glory a mirror image of the previous life?

He thought about it again, and added another sentence: What does the little girl sitting in the car in the first dream explain?
He read it carefully, made sure he had written down everything he wanted to ask, and clicked send.

Unexpectedly, the professor was online this time, and he immediately replied, "Li, who is this dreamer from you?"

Li Sichuan had no choice but to reply, "It's my wife."

The professor asked, "You took my course because of your wife?"

"Yes, Professor."

"Poor child. How is she now?"

"Why do you ask that?" Li Sichuan asked back.

"People who have such a dream must be very disturbed mentally. More than half of them will suffer from depression in different shades, and some will do things that others cannot understand. Then your wife, her current situation is how is it like?"

Li Sichuan could only say: "Professor, please help me, because I want to help her. She excludes me from her living space and spiritual world, and does not want me to enter."

"Li, I think it's not that she doesn't want to, but that she doesn't have the ability. For patients with depression, their relatives and friends have no other choice but to be patient and understanding."

"Then can I just watch her sink into the darkness of the past?" Li Sichuan asked desperately.

"You are already working hard, and I want to find out the answers to your two questions. I am also interested in this case. We will contact you anytime."

The professor cunningly went offline, leaving Li Sichuan wondering.His question was not answered by his professor, and he was even more confused than when he wrote the letter.

But there is no doubt that if Xiaoyu's heart knot is not untied, she will not be happy. Li Sichuan can only stand aside and look at her, as if she was watching her previous life, how she was swept away like a flower.

Many times, people dream that they have seen God, there is light, there is a passage, and God welcomes them with open arms at the end of the passage filled with light.But in fact, it is just the shadow of the hospital's shadowless lamp and medical staff.

Many times, when people go to church and stand under the dome, they will involuntarily bend their knees and bow to God, which is usually regarded as the energy of God.But Li Sichuan, as an architect, knows that this is actually a straight upward extension of space constructed by Gothic church buildings, which makes people feel dizzy in that environment, and then does not Accompanied by a slight tinnitus, all this enriches people's imagination.Under multiple effects, it will make a non-religious person kneel involuntarily in the temple of God, thinking that it is the power of God.

This is the magic of architecture.All this made Li Sichuan feel proud when he was engaged in this profession, which is also a kind of psychological suggestion.

Li Sichuan once witnessed the birth of a miracle.

In a psychology class, his professor talked about the powerful power of psychological suggestion.

He did an experiment by heating a coin on an alcohol stove. After 2 minutes, he called a volunteer, held the coin with tweezers, and placed it on the back of the volunteer's hand.The student screamed from the heat and slammed his wrist violently, throwing the burning coin on the ground.At this time, a scalded erythema the size of a coin appeared on the back of his hand.

The whole class was in an uproar, but the professor calmly said, "Who is going to pick up that coin?"

No one among the students was willing to go, so Li Sichuan volunteered to pick it up. When he touched the coin, he was surprised to find that the coin thrown to the ground by the volunteers had no heat at all.In just half a minute, it is impossible to cool down so thoroughly.He looked at the professor suspiciously, and the professor showed a cunning smile, "This is a coin at room temperature, and the heated one was replaced by me."

He pointed to the podium, on which there was a blackened coin.

Li Sichuan stepped forward and gently poked it with his nails, through which he could feel the heat of the coin, and on the wooden podium under the coin, there was a scalded circular mark.

The volunteer went to the hospital afterwards and was diagnosed with third-degree burns.

Since then, Li Sichuan believed that powerful psychological hints do have extraordinary energy.Xiao Yu has been repeatedly hinted at by such dreams since she was a child, and it is strange that she is not deeply involved in it.After the divorce, Li Sichuan could calmly analyze Xiaoyu's emotions without feeling humiliated or resentful.With distance, we can see more clearly.

It's just why only Xiao Yu has the memories of her previous life, which reappear in dreams again and again?What does this dream mean to Xiaoyu?Why did her subconscious mind repeatedly ask her to remember a fragment of her previous life?Why is it just a part of the transition between the past life and the present life?Apparently this is a record of a person dying, not an outing.If this is really Xiaoyu's past life, why did she hint to herself to have such a dream?Is this dream very important to her?
And why doesn't he even remember what he did three or four years ago?

He remembered what Yingying said: I saw it.I saw my mother had a baby.

He shivered.

It is said that simple-minded children will see things that adults cannot see, but can a smart child like Yingying really foresee what will happen in the future?If Yingying's root of wisdom comes from Xiaoyu, does that mean that five-year-old Xiaoyu also saw something?She tried and failed to prevent her mother's death and blamed herself for it.So in the dream, she blocked again and again.

If the latter assumption is valid, what is the answer to the first question?
Li Sichuan and Xiaoyu were married for four years and divorced for more than a year.During these five years, he studied in the United States in the last year. In the first four years, marriage, pregnancy, childbirth, and feeding took up all of his and Xiaoyu's time, and the days spent with his parents and family were few and far between.There was a holiday for New Year's Day, so he went back to Beijing for a week to stay with his parents.

When talking about his love life, Mrs. Li couldn't help sighing and asking him what his plans were.Thinking of Yingying again, she blamed her son for not showing her granddaughter.Li Sichuan coaxed Mrs. Li into laughing and scolding with his usual rhetoric, but there was nothing he could do about him.Li Sichuan forwarded dozens of pictures of the baby in the email that Xiaoyu sent him to Mrs. Li, letting her look at them to relieve her hunger.

Mrs. Li really has nothing to say about this former daughter-in-law.To say that she is not good is ignorant; but to say that she is good is not the truth.She doesn't eat, chat, watch TV, or play mahjong with her parents-in-law and mother-in-law affectionately. She just sits on the side with a smile, watching Li Sichuan and her parents play sarcasm, and laugh when she hears something interesting, but won't join in.Ask her what she will answer, and if you don't ask her, she doesn't have to say a word.

During their marriage, not long after the baby was born, Mr. Li and Mrs. Li went south to visit their son, daughter-in-law and granddaughter. Seeing her polite but distanced attitude, Mrs. Li asked her son Xiaoyu behind her back what kind of temper she was. .Li Sichuan said, "That's her character. Except for a tired person like me, who in the world can subdue a person as weird as her? Do you think she is not virtuous? From the day the baby was born, she never changed her diaper in the middle of the night. It's all her own, and I won't let me interfere. When I was a child, you threw me into the kindergarten and took me home once a week. How much wronged and punished I have suffered. "

Mrs. Li was furious and said, "I had to work back then."

Li Sichuan said: "Xiao Yu also works. She starts her own company to make design products, watches the master make samples, holds new product launches and visits branch stores in various provinces and cities, and also worries about whether someone will rob her. Every time I was so worried about her business trip that I wished I could be her bodyguard and follow her 24 hours a day."

Mrs. Li had nothing to say about this.

Li Sichuan added: "Some women are not good daughters-in-law by secular standards, but they are absolutely good daughter-in-laws. I just need my son to like me. You and your father are both retired. Go travel around the world. I will help you plan the route. How about going to Italy for the first stop, and then go to Greece? You don’t need to save money, you can go wherever you want, stay in a five-star hotel and eat at a three-star hotel, and go see the ceiling paintings of the Vatican and the Basilica of Our Lady of the Flowers for me.”

Mrs. Li said, "Why don't you go if you want to go so much?"

Li Sichuan spread his hands and said, "I have to guard the two of them. When Xiaoyu has time, I will go with them when I resign. It can't be ridiculous to do things at any age."

Only then did Mrs. Li look at her son differently and said, "This is the first time I've heard such reasonable words from you. If it's due to your marriage that you can teach you to be so sensible, then Xiaoyu is also a competent daughter-in-law." .”

Li Sichuan said with a smile, "You are also a sensible mother-in-law."

Li Sichuan really sent his parents to Europe, and the old couple became addicted to swimming, and when they came back from Europe, they didn't stay for half a year, and then went to Africa.By the time they were at the Cape of Good Hope to see the meeting point of the Atlantic Ocean and the Pacific Ocean, Li Sichuan and Xiao Yu had already divorced.It was a long time before they heard about it, but at this point they didn't care about it and just said "we know" without another word.

Li Sichuan was overwhelmed with gratitude for his parents' attitude.Later, when he was studying in the United States, he invited his parents to visit North America, and he could drive them there.Parents happily went, accompanied by Li Sichuan, had a great time visiting the west coast, and when they returned, they said that they would go to the east coast next time.During the whole process, they didn't mention a word about their son's divorce.

At this reunion, Mrs. Li finally asked, and Li Sichuan said that he was thinking of a way.Mrs. Li shouted: "What can I do? I didn't ask you this, what I asked was that it's over with Xiaoyu? You lost her, you are stupid. You can't find another woman like this. The second thing is that the rare thing is the integrity of the character."

Xiaoyu's praise from his mother is actually a decent character?Li Sichuan felt like asking the heavens without words.Mrs. Li said: "Her face is upright, and her pupils are in the middle of her eyes."

Li Sichuan laughed, and said, "Mr. Xiangmian, you?"

Mrs. Li continued on her own, "Xiao Yu's face doesn't have a hint of seductiveness, it's a dignified and graceful face. Nowadays, girls are all like goblins. Where can I find such a decent woman?"

Li Sichuan said: "Then shall I chase her back?"

Mr. Li put down his reading glasses and the photo of his granddaughter on the computer, then turned to his son and said, "What's the point? Don't you take any action? If you wait any longer, the day lily will be cold. You have to hurry up and do everything. The old man said it well." , '1 years is too long, seize the day'."

Li Sichuan asked seriously: "What do you think is the best place in Xiaoyu?"

Mr. Li glanced at his wife and said, "She is just like your mother, she has never seen any other man except her husband."

Mrs. Li gave him a white look, "I've seen it a lot, but I didn't let you know."

Mr. Li laughed, "I know, what you're looking at is how other men are born with incomplete facial features, how can they compare to my old Li, who is so outstanding."

Li Sichuan couldn't help laughing when he saw their elders playing with flower guns.But it is also affirmed that they have no irreconcilable contradictions in the eyes of bystanders.Xiaoyu didn't empathize, she just couldn't restrain her inner demons.

What Li Sichuan has always been afraid of is that in the emotional world between the two of them, he has always liked her, but she doesn't love him, or at least, loves him not as much as he loves her.It was she who proposed marriage, and it was she who proposed divorce, so that in his opinion, marriage or divorce was just her expedient measure.He was used by her. When he was angry, he agreed to divorce.

Li Sichuan wants equal love.

The thought of "I love her so much, why is her love for me so sloppy" has been tormenting him. He has paid too much and has not received the corresponding return.He wanted to save their marriage, he wanted to find out Xiao Yu's demons, and in the final analysis, he also wanted to get back together with Xiao Yu.He has paid, and there will always be rewards.If Xiao Yu had a good life, then he could give up, but it wasn't that Xiao Yu didn't love her, but there was something else in his heart that blocked his love.This is what makes him both helpless and hidden hope.He always thought, "If I can pull out the messy things in her heart, she will have enough space to release her love."

To this end, he sat on the balcony of his parents' house, watched Orion rise in the starry sky, and thought of a way.

The trouble should end it.Since Xiaoyu's heart disease is caused by the death of her mother, Ms. Jinying, and the cause of this incident is Yu Xiushan, then he is the one to untie the bell.

In the last two days of the holiday, Li Sichuan bought a plane ticket and flew directly from Beijing to Jinjiang—he was going to find Yu Xiushan.

(End of this chapter)