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826 The Dust Settles 10
Some people are engraved on the soul, a body has only one soul, therefore, there is only you in my heart from beginning to end.

"What? Do you regret it now?" An Hao began to feel that Shi Yu might not be trustworthy at all.

"Anhao, one of the things I feel most guilty about is leaving you." If I tell you now that I was too young and ignorant of the world, I will definitely be hated by you.At that time, I also said that the past will not be mentioned again.But everything is derived from that time,

"Hmph, are you really ashamed of me for this one thing? No, I should say, do you really feel that this one thing in your life is wrong?" For some reason, Anhao suddenly Think of Xia Weiliang.

"Yes. In this life, I only feel that this matter is my fault. I shouldn't have left without saying goodbye at that time." Although Shi Yu was a little surprised by Park Anhao's words, he didn't think too much about it.In his heart, there is no one more important than Pu Anhao.

"What about Xia Weiliang?" Pu Anhao thought that he would never be able to say these three words.It was like she felt that she would never be able to tell Xia Weiliang the name of Shi Yu.These two people are very important people in her life, and she doesn't want to hurt anyone.

silence.Shigure didn't say a word because he was too surprised.Did Anhao know that she and Xia Weiliang were lovers?Did she know it all along, so why did she keep it from herself?

"You knew already?"

Anhao's refusal to answer is a tacit consent.

"When did it happen?" Shi Yu asked.Now that he knew it, why didn't Xia Weiliang mention it?Could it be that she is resenting him and wants him to never be with An Hao?
Is Xia Weiliang really such a person?
"Wei Liang doesn't know." Pu Anhao didn't want Shi Yu to misunderstand that it was Xia Weiliang who told her about them.

Shi Yu subconsciously breathed a sigh of relief, knowing that Xia Weiliang is not such a serious person.

"You look happy?" Park Anhao still noticed Shi Yu's slight expression.

"No. I can explain Anhao's matter about Xia Weiliang. But before that, I have to clarify what I haven't finished." Shi Yu didn't intend to talk about Xia Weiliang with Pu Anhao this time, because he It's true that she hasn't figured out how to explain it to make her believe in herself again.No, perhaps the most important point is that An Hao's character is bound to loathe herself.Because Xia Weiliang is very important to her.

For the sake of his friends, Pu Anhao would not consider his own mood at all.

"The more I get along with you, the more I am attracted to you. I have never seen a girl as tough as you. No matter what you face, you are so positive. You always seem to have endless energy. Obviously It’s just such a small body. Although I argued with you at that time, saying that you are a reading machine, in fact, there are very few people who can really do it like you. At least I have never seen it. I always feel that you are There is a courage to break jade and stone... There are many, many, everything about you fascinates me." Sometimes people fall in love with a city because of one person, and it was then that Shi Yu felt that Lianhuadu suddenly became cute .He no longer disliked its remoteness, and no longer despised the villagers with narrow vision; gradually, he allowed himself to truly integrate into this small town.Many times, he would mistakenly think that he is actually a member of Lianhuadu, with Anhao.

"Forget it. I'm not interested in your words anymore. Until now, I feel like a clown. Whatever you say is better, I will play the role. I really don't know how I believed you like that. I It must have been broken by the door." Anhao's mind is a little confused now, and she thought everything was alright.Who knows that now the huge waves are set off again.

Emotions make people blind and confused.

When Pu Anhao remembered that he went to Shiyu's house to cook for him a few days ago, and the two of them happily played chess together; he felt mixed feelings in his heart, until now, he still looks more like a chess piece.

What a nuisance.

Perhaps the friendship with Shi Yu has come to an end long ago, but he has been in a dream and is unwilling to wake up. Those before today are just dreams.Now it's time for the dream to wake up, it's time to wake up long ago.It was her own obsession and unwillingness to wake up.

"Hey, Shigu, I think that if you really want to be good for me, you shouldn't tell me what you have been trying to hide. I have already decided to forgive you, but what should I say now. From the beginning you Just approached me with the mood of watching a joke, and then self-defeating. Now I come back to explain. In fact, none of these make any sense. Because your repetition makes me unable to define whether all this is true or not. But I don’t care .Anyway, it's over. Maybe from the moment you left Xia Weiliang, we can't go back to the past. Do you think I will blame you for being with Xia Weiliang? You think too much, Xia Weiliang Liang is my best friend, of course I hope she can be happy." "Shiyu, do you know where you are wrong? Since you chose Xia Weiliang, you shouldn't leave her casually. What do you think she is, you If you want to take it, you can take it away, if you don’t want it, just throw it away? There is nothing between us, we must call it something, that is, a middle school classmate, a former friend. Otherwise, what do you think there is?"

After saying all these words, Pu Anhao only felt empty in his heart.Originally, she didn't want to say these things to her, but she couldn't hold back when Xia Weiliang was mentioned.

She has now let go of Shi Yu's leaving without saying goodbye.Time is really the best healer, whether she is willing or not, she is always indifferent in the end.

But those emotional memories are not so easy to let go.Especially when she learned that Shi Yu and Xia Weiliang broke up mainly because Shi Yu said that he couldn't let go of himself.

This made An Hao unacceptable.

So far, the person who may not be able to forgive is no longer Shigure.No longer the old Mr. Xanthium, she just couldn't forgive herself.

"Well. I've said so much just to say, put aside the past, let's start again. No matter what kind of method it is." Shi Yu knew that if he continued to speak, he would only add fuel to the fire.So to make a long story short.

"Speaking is always better than singing." "Shiyu, we don't need to start over in any way. You answer my question, if you know what to do, then let it be." An Hao only thought Thinking about how to face Xia Weiliang, if Xia Weiliang knew about this for so long, what would she think of herself?

"You said."

"How do you want me to explain it to Xia Weiliang?" Will she believe it?

"..." Park Anhao is a loyal supporter of friendship.Anyone who hurts her friend is her enemy.She would rather get hurt than hurt her important friends.Shiyu is very clear. "Well, I just want to ask you, did you forgive me?"

"That's not the point. We're still friends whether you forgive me or not, although I don't want to admit this fact. However, Shigure, I still remember how kind you were to me. Maybe it's fake, but after all, I really take it seriously. Then It's not your fault, it's all my fault."

When you choose to believe in someone, when you love someone, you are handing over a sharp sword to him with your own hands, and all you can do is accept it with a smile.

"Well, I swear, those are all true." Maybe I had doubts or maybe I was inclined, but everything after that is true, being good to you is true, loving you is also true.

Maybe I have deceived many people, but only one, I have never deceived you.

I know that An Hao actually forgave me a long time ago.Even if I don't tell the whole story anymore.

However, I didn't know that Anhao already knew the fact that I had been in a relationship with Xia Weiliang.I think if it is necessary to say that there is something that is hidden from Anhao, I think it must be this matter that I don't want Anhao to know.This is a huge failure in my life.

Perhaps, this is also God's punishment for me.

Punishment for playing with emotions.I hurt Xia Weiliang, and I also indirectly hurt An Hao.

And these are mistakes that cannot be undone.

If I hadn't met Xia Weiliang, I wouldn't have made such a low-level mistake, but if I hadn't met Xia Weiliang, I wouldn't have found a safe place.This is another key.Life is like a chain, which cannot be solved.

Originally, I wanted to tell Anhao that Xia Weiliang already had her own heart, and told her not to worry anymore.However, if Anhao really said that, she would definitely think that she was evading responsibility.So maybe Xia Weiliang's matter really needs three people to talk face to face to bridge the gap between each other.

But is it too cruel and immoral to find Xia Weiliang again for Pu Anhao's sake?I actually don't know what to do, but I can only swallow the bitter fruit I have suffered.

All right, please wait a little longer.

——Shiyu Diary

I actually forgave him a long time ago, no matter what, she is my Mr. Cocklebur.I always remember that time you took my hand and said, well, it’s okay, you still have me, I will be by your side, always by your side.No matter what kind of person you are, no matter what others think of you, you are Park Anhao, you are just Park Anhao.Cry when you want to cry, and I will lean on my shoulders; laugh when you want to laugh, and I will watch you laugh together; lose your temper if you want, and I am your punching bag; If you don't speak, I will accompany you in silence.

Shiyu at that time was really the timely rain of my life, no matter when, as long as I am unhappy, you are always there.

You are a happy man and you want me to be happy.I know those are true, you are not lying to me.

Today you said so bluntly that you didn't think that way at first, I was really surprised and angry.No one likes being cheated on, especially if the other party is one of their best friends.

But I also know how much courage it took you to choose to confess, so I won't blame you.

As for Wei Liang's matter, I may have to trouble you, but I still can't open my mouth.Weiliang must be my mood.So, really, really want to force others to be difficult, please be a bell-breaker.

When it rains.Thank you for always being so good to me.

——Park Anhao's Diary
(End of this chapter)