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Chapter 805: Blue Sea, Blue Sky, Heart Every Night 5
I often fear that I am too real and run counter to those around me.

Live carefully, store your bad emotions well, and you will always have a beautiful smile whether you are happy or not.

Smiling has become a habit, there is no need to force it, as long as it is needed in any occasion, there will always be a faint smile on Su Xiaoxiao's face.Her smile is always so real and natural, no one thinks there is anything wrong.Of course Su Xiaoxiao is a happy person.very happy.

Almost everyone thinks so.

Every time she looks in the mirror, she smiles on purpose.She wanted to confirm, to confirm with her own soul, that she, Su Xiaoxiao was really a happy person.Her smile, as everyone says, really comes from her heart.But looking in the mirror for a long time, she will feel very sick.It seems that the self in the mirror is a doll without any expression, and can do nothing but smile.

This smile is actually as fake as it is fake.But no matter how false, in this long future, I still need its accompanying company.

In real life, everyone lives with a mask.Pretending not to care, pretending to be very strong.At that time, you were obviously feeling overwhelmed and uncomfortable, but you still smiled calmly in front of people, in fact, you didn't want people to see your fragile side.

In the countless nights when you fell asleep alone, you have asked yourself: Why do I have to pretend like this, and who am I pretending to be?I miss the old self more and more, do what I want to do, no matter what others do, no matter what the next step is.Life is so hard, it's not easy for anyone.We pretenders are tough because we want to make ourselves braver.

At least, Su Xiaoxiao is like this.

But, not quite.

She doesn't want to go back to her life like a little sister, no one loves her, she doesn't love anyone, even she hates herself.

There is Lu Jinnian by my side now, even if it's not real.Even if it's just an empty shell without a soul, she is happy, at least he is here, and she will work hard to get his heart back.

Although she is a very insecure person, she never depends on anyone.A girl is always as strong as half a boy, obviously she looks so delicate and gentle.

Su Xiaoxiao, you seem to know everything, and you are always so strong.Every time Lu Jinnian saw Su Xiaoxiao busy in the kitchen in an orderly manner, he would feel such a sigh.Although I live alone, the house is always so clean.When the water dispenser ran out of water, one person always replaced it with a new bottled water.If the water pipe is broken, I will find tools to fix it myself.You can change the light bulb yourself.It is also completely effortless to reinstall the system by one person.

Su Xiaoxiao, you really don't plan to think about Zhou Xinshen?I think he's not bad.Lu Jinnian always felt that it would be better if someone took care of her.

Since he is so good, then give it to you.I just need the one named Lu Jinnian.Su Xiaoxiao didn't shy away from anything at all, anyway, Lu Jinnian was always looking for trouble.

Some time ago, the characteristics of women in the new era circulated on the Internet: they can go to the hall, go to the kitchen, write codes, check for abnormalities, kill Trojan horses, and overturn the fence.Lu Jinnian gave Su Xiaoxiao a screenshot of what he said.

Su Xiaoxiao kept laughing and laughing on the Internet.Yes, she, Su Xiaoxiao, is such a person.This is her portrayal, no matter how many things she can handle in an orderly manner by herself.

(End of this chapter)