good luck

Chapter 591 Author's Notes (V)
One weekend a month ago, a friend came to visit.

We haven't seen each other for a long time, she is still the same as before, very thin, with a childish face.We were best friends in middle school.At least that's how I've always claimed to be - she's my best friend.

I never dared to lie that I was her best friend.

Yes, I dare not at all.

But this is the first time I say this.I've never said that to anyone.

Can you guess why?

Ordinary people will definitely not be able to guess, and non-ordinary people probably won't be able to guess either.Because none of you are me... just take it as Xiaoxue told a little joke here.

Maybe it's because I know the result in my heart.

It's like you love someone very deeply in your heart; but you know very well that you are not his only one.

Although it is friendship, but it is almost the same mood.

I don't know why I suddenly have to say these old things here.Maybe it was because I saw such good friends as Pu Anhao and Xia Weiliang when I was editing the essay, and I felt something in my heart.As my teacher once said, when I was studying, I always put a lot of thought on friendship. The teacher said that sometimes she didn’t know what was going on in my head. She said that in the face of reality, in fact, this Not the most important.At that time, there were often exams, so in the teacher's opinion, the most important thing was not worth the exam.

This is our reality.

As everyone is saying, true love is sometimes no match for money and power.

It's also a reality that there's nothing we can do about it.Everyone has the right to choose.

Go back to the previous topic, about this friend.Of course we are still very good friends.Same then, always the same.

Really.

Once I was in a very bad mood, and I cried alone at home, feeling that the world is impermanent.I don't know why I feel that way, it's an inexplicable melancholy.Maybe it was because I was too young at that time, and I felt that the sky was falling and the earth was falling, and it was impossible for the sun to rise again.

I dug out the gifts and letters from the past, so just like the song sang, the past happened one after another, sad one after another, at that time, I thought that I seemed to have been unhappy all the time.

When I was young, I was always hypocritical accidentally, and I didn't know it.I also feel that this is the case, and I am really not happy at all.At that time, I thought that I wrote essays only because I was unhappy, because writing essays calmed my mind and made me feel happy.

Later, as I grew older, I finally realized that in the beginning, it was because I really liked writing, so I got deep into it without knowing it, and couldn't give up.It has become a part of my life, an inseparable existence.

Maybe you can't understand it, it doesn't matter, there are too many things in this world, the gains and losses are well known, and it's not enough for outsiders to understand.

That day, I was looking for information related to the cemetery on the Internet, but when I searched, it turned out that many photos of the deceased were found... and those mourning scenes.The gray, heavy and oppressive atmosphere, and seeing it at night, made me feel very depressed.I thought right now, our whole life has just passed by like this.Whoever said that life is really long, in fact, it is just a flick of a finger, and it disappears in a blink of an eye.

(End of this chapter)