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Chapter 581 A Hundred Years of Solitude ([-])
Park Anhao's diary, July 2013, 7 You said, how can you be happy?

If you read CLAMP's comic "Clover" alone, you can find happiness if you find a four-leaf clover.Keep it a secret though, where the clover's white flowers bloom and how many leaves it has.

This passage appears three times in the whole clover, and three times it is very lonely black background with the bleak projection of the clover and the narration that reads very melancholy:

I want to make you happy but I can't stay by your side.

Park Anhao's diary July 2013, 7 This July
July Flowing Fire
Liulan in August
september scenery
Under the same sky, some people cried, some laughed, some were depressed, and some were happy. My world once had a never-ending heavy snowfall, and my mood and sadness sank along with it.

The only physical education teacher in our garden said a very vulgar sentence to me today: what you light is cigarettes, and what you smoke is loneliness.The reason why I say this is vulgar is because N+1 people have said so.

I was thinking about what kind of words can be a perfect match with it, so I remembered this sentence——

What can be let go is the past, what cannot be let go is the memory.

I could let go of the past, why can't I let go of the memory?Since you've been struggling, you can't let go, right?Sometimes fake literature and art are really anxious.

That's why I hate talking about worrying about writing new words.

Halfway through July, I went back halfway.

There is a very traditional custom in my hometown in July - worshiping ancestors.This is handed down from grandpa's grandpa or earlier.So attach great importance to it.

I liked this season the most when I was a child. Speaking of it, maybe you will laugh at me for not knowing why.But, what I said is true.When I was a child, I liked to eat the sugar cakes that were placed during the sacrifices. They were sweet, but not the sweetness of sugar particles, and they were always delicious.whee.But it doesn't taste like that anymore.

When I was a child, I also heard a rumor that on the eve of ancestor worship, children can see the dead ancestors standing behind the gate.I believe it, but never tried it.I told Xia Weiliang about this, she was surprised at that time.I said, of course I didn't.Xia Weiliang said, yes, it would be terrible if he really saw something incredible.

right.Maybe I think so too.

However, subconsciously, I seem to have done this when I was a child who didn't know much about the world, but I don't remember the specifics.

Sure enough, when he grows up, his state of mind is different from that of a child. Even if he still retains the power of innocence, it is really just that, not [-]% innocence.

Park Anhao's Diary July 2013, 7 Lucky Numbers
What is your lucky number?

Mine is 7.

why?
Because I like 7 very much.An intuitive liking.There is no reason.I didn't think about their horoscope calculations all day long.Just love it.

As for whether it will bring luck, this kind of thing should be kept in perfect expectation.

Like positive psychological cues.

Today is a lucky day, and today is a lucky day.

Haha.

Park Anhao’s diary July 2013, 7 You are not really indifferent, you are just afraid of being hurt

My title today is like defending myself.

Because when I was studying, everyone said that I was a cold and heartless person, so boring.

This is what everyone said.

The only person who doesn't see me that way is Xiaochun.She's always been close to me, even if I treat her like anyone else.Xiaochun said, Anhao, I know you are not what they say, your indifference is just the protective color you wear, Anhao is actually very afraid of being hurt.

It's really embarrassing to be seen through.Especially people like me who don't want to tell people what's in their hearts.

But here I must admit,
This is real.

(End of this chapter)