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Chapter 56 Secret ([-])

Park Anhao's diary, September 2006, 9 Life after school starts
It has been half a month since high school started.In this way, he became a high school student.In this way, I came to the palace of dreams.I said to Zhu Jin, I really want to stand on our twelfth floor and shout out.Zhu Jin asked me what I wanted to shout.I was stunned.Yes, what I want to say.But I really want to shout loudly, I haven't figured out what to shout.That is to say, Zilin, here I come!Zhu Jin looked at me and smiled brightly.

I met Zhu Geun again, so good.

We all achieved our dreams, which is great.

In fact, I also want to be alone and live my high school life well.A person can also be amazing time.I used to tell Xiaochun like that.I say the same thing in my blog.There are also QQ signatures.And my notebook.Even the title page of my textbook.Almost got that line written all over my face.But I always feel that there must be such words written on my face that people don't want to get close to.Without Hibiscus, I would be really alone at school.

Do you want to be friends with everyone?Hibiscus asked me this evening.

In no mood.I just said that without thinking.But, do I really dislike friends?I like my friends very much, such as Xiaochun, Shiyu, and Zhang Jingya.I love it so much that my heart aches just thinking about them.But here, everyone seems to dislike me.Actually, I don't really care.Anyway, it's not the first time I've been disliked by others.When I was in junior high school, didn’t Wumei really dislike me?However, what I feel here is the discomfort and pain like a thorn in my back anytime and anywhere.Everyone is the same.Am I excluded by everyone?I have no idea.

How can I become friends with everyone under such circumstances.You have to work hard to get what you deserve, and don't even think about what you don't deserve.If I ask someone to befriend me, I can't do it.I won't do it either.

Regarding Zhang Jingya's presence in Zilin.I specifically called home today and asked my mother.Mom's answer is that I don't know.Even my mother didn't know, so it's normal for me to be surprised.Since the death of Zhang Miyu, her old house has been idle, and the whole family has moved to a new house in a big city.This is news from Lianhuadu.Accuracy cannot be verified.I asked my mother why they moved; my mother said that who doesn't yearn for life in a big city, just because the conditions are good enough, and is there any worries.Having said that, I still don't quite get it.If you move, you move, so there is no need to break contact.

Among so many clubs, I joined the animation club, and it was because Zhu Jin wanted me to go.I am such a person, I usually have my own opinions and look like I am the only one, but as long as it is a request from someone I care about, whether I like it or not, I will devote myself wholeheartedly.Is it a love house or a bird?

Actually, I just don't want Zhu Jin to be unhappy.If she is happy, I am also happy.It's that simple.

Diary of Park Anhao September 2006, 9 Disillusioned
I didn't see Zhang Jingya again today.This is already the second membership meeting since joining the club, but every time I see the gaudy president, the vice president is absent every time.For so long, I haven't met her once at school.Zhu Jin said that it seemed that something happened at home and she took a long vacation.Although we haven't been in touch since graduation, true friends won't be lost because of this time.So I copied her contact information from the member directory.

At noon, I struggled for a long time, and at the instigation of Zhu Jin, I dialed Jingya's number.As a result, a cold female voice came, and the phone you dialed has been turned off.All enthusiasm vanished in an instant.Zhu Jin asked me to call later, but it was the same.I regretted it so much at that moment.

In the afternoon, when I went to the classroom, a girl passed by me and gave me a strange look.I haven't touched her again!Are people in this class that difficult to get along with? !

My mother asked me if I was not used to studying at school and did I have a good time.Of course all I can say is good.If she finds out, she must be worried.

Dear God, can you tell me why?

(End of this chapter)