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Chapter 495 I Think I'm In Love With You
【58】I sit on the ruins of the good life I once had, almost crushed by pain.I'm overwhelmed with fear, dazed with pain, but I don't hate you.Every day I say to myself, "I have to keep love in my heart today, or how am I going to live this day?"

A long time ago, I told Zhao Xianning that there will never be the worst thing in the world, and there will always be worse things.

Zhao Xianning was still laughing at me at that time, she said, my dear alfalfa, isn't it just that when you are unlucky, you will get stuffed between your teeth when you drink cold boiled water.What do you have to do with such an easy-to-understand sentence?
This is the ugly and helpless part of life, and no one can do anything about it.

Since what happened last time, the four of us seldom get together to eat, shop and chat.I was the first to move out of the dorm.The three of them still occasionally live in the dormitory, and occasionally come to me for a meal.It's just that they always come separately.

Zhao Xianning and Ye Xiaolu came together once, just wandering around, and left within half an hour.

And Juli started a long cold war with Ye Xiaolu after what happened last time.Of course, this is what Zhao Xianning told me.And I can only watch and do nothing.I don't know how to adjust it.

So I naively thought about giving it to time.Time will sort it out.

I later wondered if it wasn't for that graduation party, would it still be the same between us.Are those secrets that should not be known and should not be exposed to others really still buried in everyone's heart as before?

It is a pity that time cannot be turned back. What has happened cannot be undone.

Things have come to this, all I can do is accept, accept without complaint.

Anyway, there is no chance between me and Wang Siqi, anyway, I am just an ex, why should I care who his first love was before.I comfort myself like this every day.As the time progressed, I became more and more aware of the fact that what I cared about wasn't that he had an ex that I didn't know existed, nor that I wasn't his first love.What I care about is this ex, this first love is Ye Xiaolu, and they all keep it from me.Wang Siqi didn't say anything, neither did Ye Xiaolu.

This makes me unacceptable.

Ye Xiaolu blamed me.Ye Xiaolu doesn't like me.This is something I didn't expect.

This kind of thing is impossible.How good we were.We are so good.Is it all fake?I do not believe.

Absolutely do not believe it.

Finally, I have to completely leave the place where I have studied for four years.Too many memories cannot be erased.On the night of the final farewell, Juli asked me if I really shouldn't ask Ye Xiaolu for an explanation.If you want to die, you have to die to understand.Besides, they are all like that, so why have the face to accuse you.

I said, I don't blame her either.It's hard to say that.

you know?Chrysanthemum asked me.

Didn't you say that at the banquet that day?You are all here.I was surprised by Kikuri's disbelieving expression.

I'm not talking about it.Juli realized that Clover didn't know yet, so she gradually shrank her voice.

what is that.I felt more and more uneasy, as if there was something else I didn't know.And they all know.

No... nothing.Juli was in a rare panic.

Chrysanthemum, you've all graduated, so there's nothing else you can't talk about.Say it.I took Juli's arm and acted like a child.This is the most unbearable situation for Juli, and she will definitely surrender.I expected so.

(End of this chapter)