good luck

Chapter 43

On the third Monday in May, Zhang Jingya's grandmother passed away.

When cleaning in the morning, I suddenly fell off the ladder and suffered intracranial hemorrhage.Wang Yuli's eyes were red as she spoke.You can also kowtow in front of her spirit later.You were taken care of by her a lot when you were a child.Pu Anhao's heart was empty. Yesterday she gave her a bag of bear biscuits to eat. The two of them were chatting on the steps with a smile.Is the world really going to be so cold?
Is Zhang Jingya back?Pu Anhao held back tears and asked her mother.

I heard that I will not tell her for the time being, for fear of affecting her performance in the senior high school entrance examination.You know she's always been closest to her grandma.So don't mention it either.Wang Yuli turned her back, her voice trembling.Grandma Zhang passed away. Apart from her family, Pu Anhao's family was probably the saddest.Just like what Wang Yuli said, Pu Anhao was really taken care of by her when she was a child. She treated Pu Anhao like her own granddaughter. When she went out to play, she held Zhang Jingya with her left hand, and Pu Anhao was on her right.Never treat Pu Anhao as an outsider.As long as she bought Zhang Jingya a new dress, then Park Anhao must have the same one.One year during the busy farming season, Wang Yuli fell ill and had to stay in bed. Grandma Zhang came to her house every day to cook and help dry the rice.Everyone said that the two families were closer than relatives.For Zhang Yu, Pu Xun and Wang Yuli are like her own children. Her own children are not around, and most of the farm work in the field is done by Pu Xun and Wang Yuli.Pu Anhao later left Lianhuadu and went to work in a big city. He often heard people around him say that if you want to communicate with others, you have to remember to reciprocate. Relationships in reinforced concrete are the most difficult to maintain.Every time, she would think of Lianhuadu's simple and honest smiles with their faces facing the loess and their backs facing the sky.All their lives, they have been adhering to the simple thought of comparing their hearts with their hearts and thinking of others first.Give your best to others without expecting anything in return.All they do is follow their inner voice, what is called conscience.

In this huge world, the relationship between people is actually very subtle. It seems that everyone is an independent existence. Sometimes they don’t even know how to get close to each other, but in the end they form an inseparable whole. No one knows it.When you realize that a habit becomes a habit, when you realize that a friend becomes a friend, everything has already penetrated into the bone marrow and cannot be separated.After a long time, Park Xun suddenly said at the dinner table that he would never hear Aunt Zhang's hearty laughter again, and no one would treat you as well as she did.The atmosphere at the dinner table was suddenly plunged into haze.Some people have been unable to forget, and some things have been powerless.I heard someone say that in this world, there is only the unexpected and the impossible.But what about death?Just ask, how to teach the dead to regenerate.Even if there is a causal cycle in the next life, can you guarantee that everything will remain the same at that time?
On the day of Zhang Yu's funeral, Pu Anhao also went to the mountain with the guard of honor.Along the way, the sounds of music, crying, and firecrackers filled my ears, and the air was full of dust.Pu Anhao's tears kept falling, and after wiping them dry, they immediately wet his eyes again. The tears were like spring water gushing out, quietly and silently.Zhang Mi was buried in Lianshan, sharing the same grave with her wife.This is what she asked for before she was alive. She is such a lively person, so she won't be lonely.The loess submerged the black coffin bit by bit until the blackness was gone.Pu Anhao couldn't help covering her eyes anymore and burst into tears. She would never see her who was so kind to him again.Never speak to her again.Such a person has never existed since.

May the generous and merciful Mother Earth rest in peace with your soul forever.

Zhang Jingya, if you were here, you would also be in such a sad mood, and even more sad.Zhang Jingya, I also kowtowed to grandma for you, she will bless you, have a safe life and a great success in the high school entrance examination.Park Anhao thought sadly in front of the grave.

Park Anhao's diary May 2005, 5 Lost forever
Never thought that life is so fragile, human beings are so small and weak.Life and death are not up to you to decide.Wow, such a nice person.The body has always been very healthy.But why...

Don't you say that a good person lives a safe life?why?

I used to think that being separated from Zhang Jingya and Xiaochun was the saddest thing in the world.Today I realized that the eternal separation between man and nature is the saddest and most powerless thing in the world.Because you will never have a chance to see her again, and you can't say a word to her again, even though she was still touching her head and smiling at you so kindly yesterday.

Now she is dead.Nothing is possible anymore.

Living people have myriad possibilities.

(End of this chapter)