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Chapter 284
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发表时间：2008年11月22日 00:27
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In fact, I have never been good at writing long articles, so my blog and space log are basically very short.The longest one I wrote was probably the reply to Pu Anhao.

Today on this winter night, thoughts are a little overflowing.

I wanted to write something similar to the year-end summary, but I suddenly remembered that I had never written any year-end summary when I grew up.The only thing that has to be counted is that the teacher asked me to write the wish for the new semester when I was young.But that doesn't seem to be a summary, it's a plan.

That's why I only wrote so many words, and I knew that my original idea was dead.

Park Anhao said that if there is someone in this world who loves you so much that you are not afraid of getting hurt and loves you so much that it doesn't matter even if you get hurt, it would be a happy thing, but at the same time it is also the heaviest burden, because you cannot live up to it.

Of course she didn't say this to me, and I don't know who she said it to.I saw it on her Weibo.So here comes the cheeky quote.

So far I don’t know if I have met such a person, in fact, I think I have, but because I’m not sure enough, so I don’t think I have such a lofty awareness so far.

After saying this, a person appeared in front of my eyes. (In the middle of the night, I was scaring myself again...)
But it really looks like a person.

——Su Xiaoxiao.

Yes, I actually thought of Su Xiaoxiao.Am I trying to express that she likes me?
Don't be like this.If praying can really make people's wishes come true, I would like to pray that Su Xiaoxiao never falls in love with me.

I have never had such a strong desire that a certain person should not fall in love with me.there has never been.

As Zhou Xinshen saw, I have always had no fixed definition of love, and I don't think about what true love looks like. What I care about is friendship and myself.I have been such a selfish person for a long time.

But until now I met Park Anhao, I seem to begin to understand the true meaning of love.Sometimes love is sacrificing the ego, and you enjoy it.

However, when everyone has not seen this side of me, I am still a sentimental person.I don't want to quibble.Because I really have always been that way.And if I start to change now, it is only because I met Park Anhao.

But what about Su Xiaoxiao, does she want to change because of me?If I could give her everything she wanted, then I wouldn't worry as much as I do now, and the crux of the matter is that I can't give anything.Can't love her and can't treat her as well as she expects.

All I can do is treat her as a transfer student like when she came to our class a long time ago.

If I have to say that my attitude towards her has changed, it is because I feel guilty in my heart. If I hadn't blurted out the need to be responsible back then, everything would definitely not have evolved into the current situation.

As I write this, I think of what Park Anhao once asked: Do you believe in fate?

There is also the sentence that Park Anhao said: Many things have been foreshadowed foreshadowing in the very beginning.

(End of this chapter)