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Chapter 169 I am an evildoer and you are a fairy ([-])
Walking with the person I like wearing stars and wearing moons on the camphor wood avenue filled with summer fragrance, I feel really happy beyond words.

It seems a bit too blunt to say I am happy, joy, joy, happiness, happiness, these words are too clichéd.Language is sometimes so pale!
When walking together, I really hope that time will stop and freeze the beauty at this moment.

Pu Anhao vaguely recalled the gray time in high school, she was on the Internet, and she said to strangers, I am so irritable.She also wrote in her blog, how about I go with you.She said so many strange things.Even the thing she has always avoided most, that is, to confide her emotions to the people around her, she also did it: she said to her deskmate, I am so annoying.

Her deskmate said, what's bothering you.

Park Anhao is not angry either.She didn't come here for comfort.

Her mood was not irritable at all, she couldn't find words to describe her mood.It can only be described as vulgar and irritating.But who knows, how few people in this world know what the speaker really wants to say.Perhaps too busy.The world is complicated, everyone is busy, busy with life, busy with death, busy with love, busy with work, busy with caring for yourself, who has the time to care about what you want to say.

"Just say what you want to say! Why do you have to say the whole thing and what you want to say? It's so long-winded! You are crazy!" This is a comment from a netizen on Pu Anhao's blog.

yes.Neuropathy.

In the eyes of ordinary people, the worst thing is probably to be understood in this way. Park Anhao always thought this way before.

After meeting Lu Jinnian and dating each other, Pu Anhao felt that the worst thing was to be forgotten. She was more afraid of being forgotten than being hated.Especially your most important person.

For example, Lu Jinnian.

There are so many people who like you, as many as stars in the sky.

However, you have always said that you are belittling yourself, and you will always look like you lack self-confidence, but I am the one who should really feel inferior. I always don't know if I have achieved your ideal.

You always say you're a blank slate idiot with nothing to ask for in a relationship.However, it is precisely because of this that I am even more terrified.

I'm afraid I can't do well.

Anhao, you said that I am a monster, of course I understand, you mean my face.This face is liked by many people.Speaking of this, I think of the relationship I had a long time ago, so mentioning it, Anhao, will you be angry?I don't have any old feelings, I just express my feelings.A girl said that a handsome boy like me should be with a beautiful girl like her, and walking in the crowd like this is also very radiant.At that time, I didn't understand these things at all, and if I didn't say yes or no, I acquiesced.It ended up being together like that.Later, it was discovered that she had an ambiguous relationship with other good-looking boys, so they broke up hastily.At that time, I thought, it turns out that being together is actually very simple. A good-looking face and an exquisite body can be the reason.

But the heart, the most important thing, is still neglected.Until I meet Anhao, you are a spotless child.Pure without impurities.At that time you said evildoer, I naturally remembered that you are a fairy lost in the world.Even if you are confused and occasionally overwhelmed in the turmoil of the secular world, your heart is still pure as before.

I am an evildoer, and you are the Bodhi in my heart.In this life, I am willing to take refuge in you.

——Lu Jinnian · 2009

(End of this chapter)