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Chapter 135: Living With Love Without Love (Part [-])

Sometimes, when Su Xiaoxiao wakes up suddenly in the middle of the night, she suddenly remembers; she has never had a decent birthday.The ideal birthday is a big birthday cake, candlelight flickering, dear parents sing birthday songs with themselves, then make a wish, and then blow out the candles together.When cutting the cake, she would argue nonsensically about the example of "dividing the cake" mentioned in the mathematics book, and then a few people would happily eat the cake, and Su Xiaoxiao would use her fingers covered in cream to Go to wipe the face of mom and dad, play, laugh, and then go to take a bath reluctantly but contentedly in the voice of mom.

Before going to bed, I couldn't help but say, wow, I'm one year older again.

My mother is the most careful person who worries about herself. After Su Xiaoxiao falls asleep, she will quietly come to the room to check if she is really asleep and see if she has pushed off the quilt.And maybe stamp a loving kiss on her forehead.

These are the plots that Su Xiaoxiao had imagined silently in the quiet of the night.

In the first year of junior high school, her deskmate was a considerate girl.Gentle personality, speak slowly.She always likes to talk to Su Xiaoxiao, one day she said to Su Xiaoxiao: Some things just think about it in a dream.It is good to keep sad emotions in the dream.Su Xiaoxiao looked at her for a long time and didn't know why she suddenly had such emotion, but she didn't want to ask any more questions, so she just looked at her and didn't speak, thinking in her heart that since it wouldn't happen in real life, then she I don't even bother to think about it.

Su Xiaoxiao is such an overly strong person, with a heart as hard as steel and concrete.

Maybe it wasn't strong, she couldn't tell herself.She just doesn't have any mood to care about others and the life around her, and she doesn't have any consciousness to care about herself.

Anyway, that's how she lives every day, every day.Repeatedly.

When I first entered junior high school, many students in the class talked about love.At that time, the teacher often said: "Students, don't fall in love early, don't fall in love early."Su Xiaoxiao sat under the podium, watching the teacher's expressive expression, and she was spitting all over the place; but she was just doing her own thing.Puppy love, but also because of love.However, it is impossible for her Su Xiaoxiao to fall in love with anyone, she will not fall in love with anyone, and no one will love her.She was convinced.

How does it feel to witness the sweet love of others by yourself?

Su Xiaoxiao's deskmate is dating the boy in front of her. No matter class or get out of class, no matter lunch or dinner, no matter it is windy or rainy, they are always tired of being together.Her tablemate always had a smile on her face, and that boy also had a look of happiness.

Speaking of happiness, Su Xiaoxiao doesn't know what happiness is.

Laugh from the heart.This is the performance of happiness.The two people next to her were like this.Every gesture is filled with happiness-happiness.

Su Xiaoxiao doesn't have these, it's impossible to have them.

So she is not envious at all.So when the deskmate asked her if she planned to have a date in junior high school, she refused without even thinking about it.She never needs anyone.

Even if no one loves her, even if there is no one in her heart, she still lives chicly. Who said that one cannot live without love?In this world, you can live without love.

(End of this chapter)