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Chapter 13 A Lotus (5)

I am Xiaochun.I am 14 years old this year.In the first year of junior high school in Lianhua Middle School.Same as Anhao.

I was six years old when I met Anhao.

She didn't know me, didn't even glance at me.She has been to school with a girl holding a doll since first grade.She's only with that girl.Other than that, she's all alone.I remember it was a beautiful girl with the same doll head as me, but her eyes were bigger than mine by then, and she wore beautiful clothes every day.But I still prefer Anhao who has a boy's head cut, she seldom smiles.Her smile is like a white lotus flower.Like vanishing flowers blooming on the water.

When I was in elementary school, I went to and from school alone.Unlike my tablemate, her mother came to pick her up from school every day.It's not like An Hao, who went home with that girl.And An Hao's mother would bring her lunch every day at noon, and they would deliver it during the lunch break.I don't have a mother.She died shortly after I was born.Grandma said that I grew up eating Baijiafan.I have a good father, but he went out to work when I was five years old.I come back every year during Chinese New Year.

Recalling my elementary school time, I was basically observing Pu Anhao's life.Really, I know everything about her at school.I also pretended to be unintentional and intentionally asked about the classmates in their class. Once, I bribed her deskmate with an eraser and a white rabbit toffee, so I got the news that she likes to draw.So for several days I was thinking about what she would draw, whether it was a beautiful girl or a blue sky and white clouds.Maybe all of her paintings are lotus flowers, because all of Pu Anhao's shirt collars have a red lotus flower on them.

The sixth grade school organizes a graduation photo shoot.Class [-] took the first shot. On that day, Pu Anhao was wearing a navy uniform, white short-sleeved shirt, dark blue tie, and dark blue short skirt.And white leather sandals.She stood in the second row, pursing her lips and smiling.That was the first time I saw her smile in the crowd. Although it was so shallow, it was shining enough to light up all my sad times.Later she told me that the pair of shoes she wore on the day of the graduation photo were bought by her mother from Xiatian specially, and they were covered with pink kitty cats.But I know what she likes more are the lotus flowers of various colors embroidered on her clothes by her mother.

I know we will meet again for sure.In Lotus Middle School.At that time, I will still be the same as that time, caring about everything about her where she doesn't know.I am so looking forward to being able to get closer and closer to her.Maybe there really are gods in the world, otherwise, why would I be in the same class as her when I first entered school?I think I should talk to her.

After a holiday, her hair has grown out and is tied in two braids.She smiles less than she did in elementary school.I always suspect that after the girl changed schools, she became more lonely.Because the current An Hao is the same as when I was in elementary school.She walked to school alone, and after the teacher announced that school was over, she walked quickly with her schoolbag on her back.

But I just couldn't make up my mind to take this brave first step.I can't find a reason, I can't find anything to say.Although I have imagined all kinds of strike-ups many times:
——Hi, I'm Xiaochun, sitting fourth in the first group.We are still in the same class.

Although these are true, but always feel a little weird.no.

--well.Let's go together after school today.

We haven't gotten to this point yet.no.

—Ah, your hair is so long.

...how boring am I?Absolutely not!

—Student, borrow a pen.I forgot to bring it.

When someone is blind, such a big stationery box is lying on the table!Die in seconds.

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(End of this chapter)