forget me wedding

Chapter 2

Jue'er and Yufeng's small home is beautifully decorated, and what attracts me the most is the big puppet in the living room.

"Sit." Yu Feng greeted me, and after placing me on the big sofa in the living room, he got into the kitchen.

With her stomach full, Jue'er took out a bottle of Coke from the refrigerator, put it gently in front of me, and asked, "Do you want to drink it? Will it be too cold?"

"I want some hot soup first." I said rubbing my hands together.

She paused for a moment before she could hear what my hoarse voice was saying.She yelled in the direction of the kitchen: "Yu Feng—let me have a bowl of soup first, Kouer is cold."

"Okay—" Yu Feng responded.

Smiling, we were quiet again.

I leaned back and tucked my hair behind my ears, but my eyes fell on Jue'er's stomach unconsciously.

She lowered her head shyly, and said, "Do you remember the time before? The sisters always joked that you will have a litter of children in the future, because everyone envies your beauty."

I smiled and put my hand on my forehead.yes!that time……

Yu Feng came out of the kitchen behind Jue Er with a smile, and that smile was the same as mine.He held a spoon in his hand, but he asked us in a gentlemanly manner: "You two ladies, there is nothing to eat, how about a bowl of tomato and egg soup?"

"Are you okay?" Jue Er asked me gently.

I stretched out my hand and made a "please" gesture, and Yu Feng immediately went back to the kitchen.

Another moment of silence.

I coughed, trying to break the awkwardness between us.Jue'er took a deep breath and asked with a smile, "What does your boyfriend look like?"

Does she really want to know or is it because it's too quiet between us and she just brings up a topic?Who cares, just answer the question!

"He's dark, tall and thin, and wears a pair of glasses." I answered her simply.

"How are you?"

"Okay!"

"How did you meet?" She opened her eyes excitedly.

I raised my eyebrows and stared at her without speaking.I believe my expression will definitely make her think of something, because her expression just now reminds me of the innocent me before.

She smiled uneasily and said, "It's not easy to say."

"Don't want to hear it?" I asked her with interest.

"No! It's not... It's just that it's better not to tell if it will make you unhappy."

"Unhappy? No! I'm very happy. I won't be the one who is unhappy after the story is over."

She looked at me, her eyes were unrealistically large, and the small pear nest hung stiffly at the corner of her mouth.

"I'll see if the soup is ready," she said.

"I'm not very hungry."

"It's not good! You haven't eaten much. I'll go and have a look, and I'll be here soon." Her tone was full of concern, as if she really cared about me.

Why don't you accept her hypocritical concern!I took a cigarette out of my bag and lit it, watching her and her big belly go to the kitchen.

How strange!Why is it like this now?The person who avoided the topic turned out to be her who was brave at the beginning. Am I really strong, or is it because she finally understands her mistake?

I picked up the ashtray on the table and spun around the hall.

There is a small bar in the corner of the hall. There are many wines on the cabinets of the bar. Among them, a bottle of 82-year-old small grape red caught my attention.I walked over, gently picked up the wine bottle, put it under my nose and took a sip. The bottle hadn't been opened yet, so I only smelled ash.

"Would you like a drink?" At some point, Yu Feng was already standing behind me.

"There's a lot of dust on it," I said.

"It's been a long time since I found out that Jue'er has a child! I quit drinking, but if you want to drink, I'll give up my life to accompany the gentleman today, making an exception!" He smiled foolishly, holding his apron Wipe your hands.

I put down the drink, tapped the ashtray, and put the ashtray on the bar, but my eyes fell on the wedding photo hanging on the white wall and the big white bear doll under the wedding photo.

Yufeng noticed my gaze and immediately said, "Is it pretty? Uh—I mean the doll, is it pretty? It's for you."

I lightly hit the puppet's face with my fist, but didn't answer his words.Ragdoll?I already have a lot of better dolls, but what if I have more?When you are sad, you can't hide in the doll's belly and cry happily.

"Are you still punching now?" Yu Feng's voice suddenly dropped.

What, does he remember?Really caring!
"I haven't played for a long time. It's only for fitness occasionally. I don't have the same arrogance as before." I looked at him with a smile, and suddenly, I made a beautiful boxing movement at him, which surprised him.

He immediately laughed and pulled me to the floor-to-ceiling glass windows in the hall. The dark sky outside the window made the glass a huge mirror.Yu Feng imitated me in doing the action just now, and he looked a bit clumsy in his tall stature.He sighed: "It's better for you to look good! How can you say that you also won the gold medal in the girls' group at that time, although there were only two girls in the girls' group at that time, but really, you are very good-but look, nine years No, you still haven't grown taller, you're still just standing in my armpit."

He stood up straight, gestured back and forth between the top of my head and his armpit with his hands, and then smiled silly to himself.

We in the mirror seem to have returned to that innocent age. At that time, we were innocent and carefree, just like this time. Just standing in front of the mirror can satisfy us.I was much shorter than him. At that time, I liked to argue with him about my height. In order to shorten the distance between us, he gave up his favorite basketball, and I also put on high heels no less than ten centimeters.

The thing I hate most is standing barefoot with him.

"Ku'er, Yu Feng!" Jue'er's voice came softly from behind us.

I turned my head and saw Jue'er holding her waist with one hand, and holding a plate of vegetables in the other, trembling, making people feel pitiful.

I originally wanted to go forward to take her food, but Yu Feng stepped forward one step ahead of me and supported her.

"Why, I'll just come." Yu Feng gave her a look without anger, and said, "Sit with Kouer for a while, and I'll serve the food."

Jue'er returned him a knowing smile.After a while, Yu Feng has already served the dishes on the table in a hurry.

"Is there something missing?" Yu Feng scratched his hair while murmuring.

"There are no bowls and chopsticks." Jue'er reminded gently.

Yu Feng patted his forehead, and suddenly realized: "Yes! Why did I forget, yes, yes, yes! There are also bowls and chopsticks, I will get them, thank you, my wife, for reminding me!"

Seeing him rushing into the kitchen to get the bowls and chopsticks again, Jue'er couldn't help but cursed with a smile: "No brains."

In a blink of an eye, Yu Feng came out, finally sat down, divided the dishes, and announced happily: "We're starting!"

When he smiled, he still had a beautiful dimple on his face.

I lowered my head and ate alone a little lonely.

"Is it delicious?" Jue'er and Yu Feng asked at the same time.

My heart trembled a bit, a bit sour feeling squeezed my heart, I just nodded silently.However, this already made them very happy, especially Yu Feng, who smiled like a child.

Next, we began to eat quietly, and no one said anything, as if they didn't want to spoil this rare good atmosphere.

Occasionally, Yufeng would pick up vegetables for Jue'er, and Jue'er always gave him a knowing smile in return.For some reason, I always felt that there were several times when Yufeng's hand was trying to turn to my side, but after a few seconds of pause in the air, it was caught in Jue'er's bowl again.

When it was almost time to eat, I put down the bowl and chopsticks and asked, "Can I have something to drink?"

"Would you like some Champagne?" Yufeng asked me excitedly, and before I could answer, he ran to get some wine.

Jue'er put her hand on the back of mine, and advised me with concern: "Stop drinking, don't you smoke and drink too much? Don't make your throat too tired."

I coldly withdrew my hand and rejected her concern. I don't want her sympathy, so I must drink this wine.

Yu Feng put the wine in front of me, poured me a glass, and poured himself a glass.

I took a sip and leaned back, but my eyes just happened to fall on the little grape red in the corner again, I smiled and didn't say anything.When my eyes started to walk slowly over this white building, I thought, I should give a good compliment to their wedding photos - just out of politeness, but in fact, their wedding photos are really good-looking , very formal and traditional.

That wedding photo weighed heavily on my heart.

"The wedding photos are beautiful." I said.

"Really?" Jue'er happily turned her head to look at the wedding photos, and began to chatter again: "It was taken by Xiaofu's cousin, who opened a bridal shop, and said that as long as we sisters go to , all free of charge. Have you seen the teddy bear under the wedding photo? It’s cute, right? Take it away when you go back later! It’s for you..."

"How?" I interrupted her.

"When Yufeng and I went shopping for wedding supplies together before we got married, we saw it in the window of a very beautiful shop, and we fell in love with this bear by accident. At that time, our first thought was to give it to For you, because you have always liked these dolls, small handicrafts and so on, we believe that there will be a day when they can be delivered to you by hand."

"It's too big for me to hold."

"It's so light, I can even hug it."

"No! It's heavy!" I insisted.

In fact, I didn't hug that guy, but I felt so tight inside that it wasn't just a rag doll.

"Okay!" Jue'er sighed, and said, "If you change your mind, you can come and take it away at any time."

I smiled and nodded at her.

"Tell me about your boyfriend." Yu Feng said suddenly.

Jue'er also seemed very interested. She changed her sitting position, leaned against the armrest of the sofa, and then her petite body retracted into the sofa—I don't know if the sofa is too big or she is too petite.

Looking at Jue'er's big eyes, I have no desire to speak at all.

"Is your boyfriend nice to you?" Jue Er asked again.

"Of course, he is my boyfriend." After I finished speaking, I gave Yu Feng a meaningful look.

He lowered his head.

Jue'er was also quiet.After a long time, she asked as if looking for a topic: "When will you get married?"

"There can be no wedding." I answered her in the affirmative.

The smile froze on Jue'er's face, she looked at me blankly, her voice was pitifully low; "Why..."

Why?I really want to figure out why - because I don't have the capital of youth, and it's also because I don't have that life!But it's kind of funny to say that, I'm only 29 years old, is 29 old?Isn't it too late to get married at this age?
I still looked at Jue'er with a smile, but I angered Yu Feng who kept his head down. He clenched his fists and stood up suddenly, asking me seriously: "What are you trying to say? Don't just laugh!"

"What can I do but laugh?" I still smiled and asked.

He finally broke out, his attitude returned to the past, and he yelled at me mercilessly: "What? Are you still resenting us? Are you here to collect debts?"

"Stop torturing us..." Jue'er had a pitiful expression.

torture?What a ridiculous word.How did I torture them?It was their consistent attitude to torture me at the time that I hated.The dark days are in their hands, adding yard by yard in my life, and now they're talking about me?snort!What a ridiculous "torture"!
I curled the corner of my mouth mockingly, but Jue'er couldn't help crying, turned her head away, so that I and her man couldn't see her tears - can you not see it?cannot!So Yufeng asked me coldly: "What do you want?"

What do you want?What can I do?
In the face of his anger, I laughed it off.I was the one who didn't dare to face this pain at the beginning, and they were the ones who controlled my fate, but now, I found that I was like enjoying a play, teasing them with the attitude of a game.

I have a little joy.

Passing the tissue to Jue'er, I said, "Don't cry, I'm not here to see your tears, your tears will make me heavy."

Yu Feng took it for her.

Jue'er wiped away her tears, smiled helplessly with her red nose, her voice was unreally calm, "You still hate us, don't you?"

"That's right!"

"Why? It's been so long..." She suddenly looked directly into my eyes.

I didn't avoid her eyes, I could read the message in her eyes - she was laughing at my persistence, she thought it was unnecessary for me to hate them so hard for so long.

"I don't know why I came back." I said calmly, "For so long, I avoided myself, my family, my friends and you. I was living a snail's life until one day I suddenly found the place where I lived One thing is missing, I came back, I just came back to find something."

"did you find it?"

"No! I didn't find it." I spread my hands helplessly.

Jue'er's eyes turned red again, she quickly took out a tissue to cover her nose, trying to force back the tears.

Sighing, I took out the cigarette from the bag again.I lit one, took a sip, thought about it, and turned it off.

"How are you doing?" Jue Er asked again.

"not good!"

"Since it's not good, why don't you come back?" She raised her voice, but tears fell.

"Why do you want to come back? Come back to see how happy you are and how miserable I am?"

"No, no..." She cried pitifully, covering her face with her palms, and the crying faded in her weak and boneless palms.

Yu Feng rubbed his hands at a loss, I knew he wanted to comfort his woman, but I—his former woman was watching, so he became nervous and uneasy.

After thinking about it, I lit another cigarette for myself. Although I was already very calm and didn’t need to use cigarettes to cover up, but cigarettes can help me clear my mind better. It can be regarded as my lighting for them. think about it.

"I miss you so much, miss you so much..." Jue'er raised her tearful eyes and looked at me seriously—are those tears salty?

I responded to her lightly: "You are living happily, and there is no place for me to live. For so long, whenever I think of you, it seems that the air is gone. I am suffocating, but I can't escape your shadow. "

"Don't go anymore, okay?"

"No! I'm still going."

"Why?" She looked at me incomprehensibly, biting her lower lip.

The cigarette ash in my hand fell on the coffee table at this time, I took out a piece of facial tissue from my bag, and gently wiped off the burnt ashes.

I looked at Yu Feng, and his eyes were the same as Jue Er's, which made me a little shaken.Can I tell them what happened to me in the past nine years?If I had chosen to stay, if I hadn't let go, what would the situation be like today?I'm not regretting my original choice, I don't regret it!I think no matter what efforts I make, they will still be together, and my future is doomed to be gloomy.They had already decided at that time that they would not care about my pain if they wanted to hurt me, so why should I choose again?Destined to be hurt.

Jue'er's tears are like pearls, she looks so pretty even when she cries.She choked up and asked, "Why, why are you still leaving?"

"Why?" I asked myself mockingly, and then they asked, "Want to hear it?"

They nodded.

I put out the butt of the cigarette in my hand, as if giving myself another chance, I lit another cigarette.

"Wipe away your tears," I said to Jue'er, "Just listen to me quietly, don't cry, don't disturb me, you just need to listen."

She nodded earnestly.

So I started talking--

"When I left you, I didn't bring much luggage, only two or three sets of clothes and a diary that I couldn't bear to throw away. I wore the lightest clothes on me, but the pair of shoes under my feet were heavy, because they were given by Yu Feng. Mine, also because every step I took was a step away from home, until I boarded the train going away alone.

I knew where the car was going, but I didn't know what to do with the rest of the day, or if I could survive on my own.

At that time, I was very confused, and I didn't understand why I was still alive.In that strange city, I wandered and decided to give up on myself—to put it bluntly, I was just looking for a place to commit suicide.But I don't want to simply die, since everyone is torturing me, then I can't die so quickly, I have to torture myself.

At that time, I was breathing lifelessly and colorlessly, and I believed that I was dead.

The city I live in is not far from you, Yufeng, only 420 and [-] kilometers away, even if you go to university later, the distance between us is only a day’s drive... But you never came to see me, I know , my departure is a relief to you.

Do you know how I lived during those days - I didn't make any friends, I hid alone in the rented hut, soaked myself in alcohol every day, smoked to numb my nerves, and when I woke up, I immediately I started tormenting myself again... I had to do it, because otherwise I would just cry and hurt my body in the worst way; sometimes I would stop and cry and write in my diary, writing what I couldn't send Letters, one after another.

Then one time, I walked out of the apartment in a drunken stupor, wandered on the road, and finally collapsed on the side of the road. A kind man picked me up and gave me another new life. He was me. Current boyfriend - Shiqi.

It was Shiqi who made me live again, it was he who made me light a fire to illuminate the dark corner of my heart, and it was he who gave me the courage to live again.

He taught me to love myself, to resist, to defend myself and to say 'no! '.

If you think that this is how I get happiness, you are wrong.Shi Qi is a person with a heavy burden of thought, he is a defect, so we love very hard - my hard work is because I still hate you, so I can't give Shi Qi a complete love; Shi Qi Qi's hard work is because he can't face up to my past, so he can't give me a normal love.

What is my past?Just a bunch of ignorant people making one mistake after another.

I am very tired and often cry wronged, just because I love him and hate you at the same time.

Shi Qi and I talked about death the most.

One day, either I leave him first, or he leaves me first, and we have no future, no wedding, because——

I found out that I was pregnant and the father of the child was not Shiqi.

The father of the child is a hypocrite. He kicked me into the abyss of despair for a woman who has been worthy of my sister for more than ten years but easily betrayed me. Not worthy to be the father of my child, not worthy!
You will never think of that pain, because you are happy and happy, and you don't have to worry about my problems at all.

You are also going to be parents, but can you understand how I felt at that time?cannot!Because your child is happy, he doesn't have to worry about his mother wandering the streets, and he doesn't have to worry about whether he will live or die; your child is destined to live, he will grow up with everyone's blessing, and he will have many toys , he will ride on his father's shoulders; he can happily carry his schoolbag to school, and when he is a little older, he will have his own playmates and friends; When he can make decisions for himself, he can find the one he loves and the one who loves him in the vast sea of ​​people... But my child is doomed to die young!Lying on a cold tray, I was deprived of the right to survive before I could open my eyes and see the world.

The doctor told me that the baby was four months old and it would be dangerous to remove it.Of course, I also hope that the child can be saved, but I was only 20 years old at the time, so young that I was afraid.

When I lost him, I had no relatives, no friends, only Shiqi.His hand held me tightly, not letting me give up my life.

Yes, I was also prepared to give up on myself when the child was forcibly taken out of me.I screamed in despair and helplessness, I clearly felt the pain, felt how the fragile life resisted and struggled in my body, he was unwilling to leave my body, but I had no choice, I can only use my blood and Shiqi's tears as his funeral—other than that, I can't afford anything.

The surgery was not very successful and the doctors told me that I would never have children again, and that was the worst price I ever paid.

The warmth from Shiqi's palm slowed me down from the most painful moment, but the hatred for you made me survive even stronger.

I said to myself, I must take all these pains back from you twice!

Jue'er, you are pure, you are beautiful, you once looked down on me like that.You said that a good girl should guard her body like a jade, so you purely destroyed my love.You feel that you are not wrong, because you have retained your perfect self from the beginning to the end, and you did not use any despicable means to get Yufeng.

I'm dirty, yes, I'm not pure, I'm exactly the kind of person you look down on.But why don't you look down on your husband?Because the leading actor is him!You blindly think that I am terrible, what about him?He is the first man in my life!
I can no longer have a perfect relationship because I always think that the ultimate form of love is marriage, but you say, what can a woman with a broken heart and can't have children?You tell me, you tell me...

You are princes and princesses, and I am just a small supporting role, a small character that every author writes and passes away after a few strokes-so I am not as good as you, so I can go to college and live a carefree life Living in college, then graduating, finding a job, getting married...the only thing you worry about is which mask you should put on to treat me when you meet me one day.

In the past nine years, I have done many jobs. All my achievements today are made by myself. There is no encouragement from you. In fact, I don’t need your encouragement; Just step in, you must think I'm dead just like that, right?
And I have suffered and tired, only Shi Qi accompanied me all the way.He is not a rich man, so he can only endure hardships with me; he is not a romantic person, so I always feel wronged and sad alone.But I love him, even though we live in two different worlds, I still love him.

Gradually, I felt my old age, and I began to know how to deal with the backlog of resentment, so I can sit here peacefully with you today.Honey, don't blame me for being too stingy. After so long, I found another person I love, but I still insist on hating you so much.

I believe I have enough reasons to hate you, and enough vicious words to break everything between us.But I don't have enough time, and I don't have enough energy.

It is impossible to have another child. Whenever I think of this, my heart is cut like a knife.I was deprived of my rights as a mother, and it started when I was 20 years old; there will be no more weddings, because I can't forget what you promised me at the beginning, I can't hold Shiqi's hand, my heart But filled with the shadows you gave me, I walked into the auditorium.As far as you are concerned, the promise does not regret the reason why you made it in the first place, it was just a momentary promise made by you.

Jue'er, do you remember what you promised me back then?You said that you would never get involved between us again, you said that the one you loved was not Yu Feng at all, but you still betrayed your promise to me in the end, and you have done it to the fullest until now, marrying him and having a child; Yu Feng, you also said that there is only one person in your world who you really love, who you love with your heart, and who you love forever. Thinking of her on the bed, I am just a shadow, the person you love is not me at all, I am so stupid!

Do not deny these faults that I have spoken to you, and do not deny My words.I'm not wrong, you naturally evaluate me from another angle.You are also in pain, because there is a me stuck between you, the left side is friendship, and the right side is love, you can’t find a balance point, the more you can’t be together, the more you love each other madly.

I'm gone, I'm quitting, I'm no longer living the life of turning a blind eye, no longer fighting against the fate in the dark.However, no matter where I go to the ends of the earth, the hatred for you never stops following me, I almost collapsed, going crazy...

Been wandering for nine years, you know what I have?I have everything, but I can't find a reason to soothe the pain you gave me.

To me, you have not only robbed a small relationship in my young life, you have also robbed my children, my rights as a mother, and my wedding... Oh, Jueer, don't cry , The one who should cry is me.You're lucky already, what's there to cry about?Is it because I'm poor?Do you want to pity me?Or do you want to use tears to redeem my understanding?The mistake is already wrong, there is no going back, and there is no way to change it.

If you had enough time in your life, what would you do?What are you going to do if you have less than a year left?And if I tell you that I have less than 300 days left in my life, can I tell anyone openly—I hate you!ok, right?

My time is running out, tell me, what can I do if I only have one year to live?Go travel?No!I'm afraid of wandering; stay here?No!This place is not as strange as I imagined, and it is no longer the city I remember.Maybe I don't need to think too much, I decided to continue to hate, and it doesn't matter which piece of land I live on. "

I stopped talking, took a sip of the wine, leaned back to the sofa behind me, and put the burnt cigarette butt in the trash can beside the sofa.

Yu Feng's head was very low. Suddenly, he sighed. Is it for me and his child who died before birth or for the child's mother?

There was already a pile of used facial tissues stacked in front of Jue'er. Although I didn't speak anymore, she still couldn't stop her tears.

Silence invaded between us again, driving away the air we could breathe one by one, I was a little chilled, and quickly tightened my little coat.

After a long time, the man finally spoke, but his voice was choked with sobs: "Why didn't you tell me then?"

"So what can I say? Can you be responsible for the life of 20 years old? Can you let this child be born to see the sun? Can you give me a home? Can you give up Jue'er and bring back your lost heart? You can't!" I screamed, tears finally welling up in my eyes.

"Do you really think you are wronged?" He raised his head and asked me loudly.

"Isn't it?" I asked him back: "When you and Jue'er are happily lamenting how romantic your love is, do you know what I am doing? I am worrying about my young 20-year-old life What should the child do!"

Yu Feng stood up heavily, and the voice was thrown down so heavily, mercilessly: "You should have told me, that child is not only yours, I also have a share! Don't think that you cry a lot, just It must be the most wronged!"

I touched my face, and it turned out that my tears had overflowed.But I didn't want to use my tears to disguise my pity, I don't want others to give me hypocritical sympathy, so I took out a tissue and wiped away my tears.

Jue'er pulled Yu Feng, Yu Feng felt that she lost her composure, so she had to sit down gently, and sighed again: "I'm sorry!"

"Don't say 'I'm sorry' to me, you are the person who said this to me the most in this life." I answered him with a wry smile.

Yu Feng picked up the wine glass and shook it, the usual silence made him a little old.He swallowed the wine, looked at the empty glass, and said, "You can never guess what will happen in the future, and you can't bear to erase all the pain you have suffered in the past. Everyone is the same, remember your own Suffering, unwilling to reveal the scars on my own wounds; thinking of suffering for my beloved, but unable to mend the wounds of others. So I blindly decided to tear my wounds bigger and bigger, until one day I found that the wounds It’s gone beyond recognition.”

Jue'er and I were stunned—what the hell is this man talking about?Is he talking about me?Is he judging my past hurts?

Seeing that I didn't speak, Yu Feng went on to say excitedly: "We thought that your life would be very hard, but we don't know what to do to get your forgiveness. After the damage is done, don't think that we will be so smooth. We are together, it is not easy for us to be together today, do you know how many ups and downs we have gone through? Don’t think that we are not suffering!"

"You guys are suffering," I retorted, "Your suffering is all because I am what you call the ups and downs. After I left, you decided to be together and you got a bad name, until everyone was blessed You, but you can't pass my level, because you will always feel guilty, because you can't feel at ease!"

Yu Feng looked at me coldly, and said disdainfully: "No! More than that, you will never know the pain in our hearts."

My eyes also turned cold, looking at this man, I really wish I had the ability to freeze him with my eyes.

I don't want to admit the pain in my heart that he said, because from the beginning, I was the victim, and they manipulated everything about me. Will they suffer?
Standing up slowly, I pulled the handbag, carried it on my back, and then said to them in a cold tone: "Thank you for the hospitality tonight, I'm leaving."

"Don't go!" Jue Er stretched out her hand to hold me, but the distance between us was too far to hold me.

Yu Feng stopped talking, but instead I talked to Jue Er.

"Ku'er, in fact, everyone has their own wounds. Your wounds are on the outside, and everyone can see them; your wounds are on the inside, and if you don't tell them, no one will love you." Jue'er said faintly Smiling, she gradually returned to her usual attitude.

I am quiet.

She lowered her head, touched her big belly with her hand, looked at her husband again, and said with a smile: "Forget about the past! The past is over, we hurt you, but God has already punished us for you, and we have paid for it. The price is also very painful, really."

"What price did you pay?" I continued to ask.

What price can they pay?I do not believe.

Jue Er wanted to retaliate, but Yu Feng interrupted our conversation. He yelled at me: "You hate! Hate! Hate until the end of the world, hate until the end of your so-called life!"

I was completely irritated, shook my head hard, and left them.

I never expected to get back to square one with them.What is the origin?It is an old machine rewinding the video tape of life; the origin is the strangeness; the origin is the mother’s womb; the origin is the past life; the origin is a petrified corpse; the origin is just a small dust...

I understand deeply and clearly - we can't go back.

(End of this chapter)