designed to marry

Chapter 50

When I started to remember, I only knew that my mother was already the beer girl in the bar.

She would come home very late every night, she smelled of alcohol all over her body, and she was a little bumpy when she walked.I took a towel to wipe my mother's face and brought her water to drink, but she would knock the water glass out of my hand, and my mother started crying when she yelled.I didn't quite understand the meaning of my mother's words, and I cried with her.

I know that my family is different from other children. I have never had a father since I was a child, and my mother never even taught me how to write or pronounce these two characters.When I was in school, others laughed at me as a child in a single-parent family, saying that my mother must have conceived out of wedlock, and it was likely that a man who had climbed into a wealthy family was not allowed to enter the house.

I ran home crying and asked my mother what it means to be pregnant before marriage, what does it mean to be rich, and who is my father.At that time, my mother's eyes were cruel and hurt that I had never seen before, and I never mentioned the word "father" again.

My mother used to be a rich lady, and she never experienced the hardships of the world. She would be tired after a day of work, but she compromised again and again to make a living.I remember that there was a time when my mother was in poor physical condition, she would often mutter to herself, and sometimes she would suddenly look at me fiercely, asking why she had me, why she didn’t knock me out, and even pounced on me to whip me .I just felt scared and couldn't do anything. I could only endure the pain and cry silently, but my mother seemed to be unable to hear.

At that time, I miss my father very much, but I don't have a father.If there is a father, will my father come to save me?If there is a father, can the father love the mother well?Later, my mother passed away suddenly, and she left me before I understood anything.She was lying in a hospital bed and the doctor said my mother was dead and would never wake up again.I cried and yelled, but my mother ignored me all the time, and she couldn't even scold or beat me.

I was sent to the orphanage by her colleagues, but the children in the orphanage looked down on me and said I was dumb.I'm not, I can talk, but I don't know why I just don't want to speak.One day, the nun who took care of me told me that my father was looking for me, and I looked at the strange man in front of me desperately. How could he be my father with such bright clothes?
I don't like this so-called father, because I accidentally found my mother's diary when I was sorting out my mother's belongings.It said that Dad was a bad person, and he took advantage of others' danger to take away Mom's innocence.Mom hated him, so I hated him too.

I was taken back to the Lin family by him, a strange big house, a strange aunt and an older brother.Aunt Sun Yun rushed forward when she saw me, chattering endlessly, but my father blocked me.As for my brother, he looked at me with even more contempt, no different from those children in the orphanage.

When my father was not at home, Aunt Sun Yun treated me very differently. She often ordered me to do this and that, and she often mentioned my mother in her words, all of which were ugly words.The servants of the Lin family have never been friendly to me, they would secretly laugh at my identity as an illegitimate daughter.

Only then did I gradually understand that I was also redundant in this family.

I met Yan Xiyu at the Lin family. She is the same age as me, but she is already my brother's girlfriend, so she often comes to the house to play.I know her mother is a big star, and her second marriage is to Xu Shaokang, the richest man in city A.

Yan Xiyu is a very nice person, she is not as hypocritical as the rest of the Lin family, and she seems to be able to see that my status in the Lin family is very low.I feel that I am very different from her. She looks like a rich lady who is held in the palm of her hand and cared for, while I am just an orphan girl without a mother.

When she comes to the Lin family, she will come to my room to look for me, and she will stay for a long time, chatting with me, telling me about some interesting daily things, I also heard that she has an excellent best friend named Yu Jin.Every time my brother came back and found her in my room, he always yelled at her angrily.I think my brother is very annoying. Sister Xiyu is so gentle and delicate, how can he be willing to treat her like this?

Sister Xiyu started to take me out to play. I used to live in City Z, which was a very, very small county, and I had no chance to see any big cities. Everything in City A is new to me.She also brought me to know Yu Jin. Yu Jin's carefree personality makes it easy for people to be infected by her and become friends.

I didn't even know there were so many things girls could do at home parties.Eating, shopping, singing karaoke, hairdressing, and manicure are the two of them who brought me to know this big city.

I still remember when the three of us went shopping together, the clothes the two of them bought were very expensive, staggeringly expensive.My mother has never bought me such expensive clothes. My clothes are basically bought in a small rental shop that sells clothes.

Yu Jin said: "Xiaoxi, you are different now, you are the second miss of the Lin family, it's time to buy some good clothes."

I don't know what's different about the second miss of the Lin family, it probably means being rich.I bought clothes worth hundreds of dollars for the first time in my life. I was so excited that I wore them and refused to take them off. They both looked at me and smiled helplessly.

With the two of them accompanying me, I feel that life in the Lin family is not so difficult.But I slowly discovered that Yu Jin's father's name is actually Yu Guoping, and she is the daughter of the Yu Group.

Everything is different.

I went to play at her house and met her mother, Li Xin.Li Xin seemed to be very kind, and asked me what I like to eat, and wanted to buy vegetables for me.She is not the same as Sun Yun's sanctimonious.But I know that she was a third party before.

I have never met Yu Guoping. Magazines always say that he is a Gu family and loves his daughter very much, but I think maybe it is just for outsiders to see. How many such wealthy families are happy?Isn't Lin Yaojian and Sun Yun a typical example of commercial marriage?

I began to gradually integrate into the world of Yan Xiyu and Yu Jin, and I got to know Xu Weimu.He is a bit special, although he always quarrels with Yu Jin, he has an unusual concern for her.I understand this kind of feeling, beyond ordinary friendship.

And I tested Yu Jin, and she admitted that she also had different feelings about Xu Weimu.If there is no external force to stop them, then it will be a matter of time for the two of them to be together.

So I moved my mind and went to find Xu Weimu.I'll confess to him first and see how he reacts.Sure enough, he turned me down.He was so determined that I had no choice but to threaten him and tell him the truth.

As expected, he was shocked and had to believe what I said, and he agreed to stay with me.It was our first date at Yiqing Restaurant, and I was satisfied to see the broken expression on Yu Jin's face, and I was a little pleased.He wanted to chase him out, but I stopped him.

But I didn't expect that Lin Yaojian suddenly proposed to send me to city B to study for graduate school, and Xu Weimu took the opportunity to break up with me.I didn't know until I arrived in City B that it was Lin Zhi's arrangement.And Xu Weimu promised me that he would not be with Yu Jin.

In City B, I still returned to a lonely state, not wanting to make friends with others, and now the last thing I need is money.No matter what I want, as long as I talk to Lin Yaojian, he will send me the money immediately.But I don't know why, but I don't feel happy at all.

In this way, I lost contact with people in City A for two years, including Yu Jin and Yan Xiyu, they must be blaming me.No matter how good Yan Xiyu treats me, it can't match Yu Jin's status in her heart.

Two years later, Xu Weimu told me that he and Yu Jin were together.At this moment, a man named Ke Shunyan approached me suddenly, he said he could help me return to City A, but I had to help him break the relationship between Yu Jin and Xu Weimu.

I don't know what they all like about Yu Jin, but I found out later, because she is very real, without any affectation.

I don't have any plans at all, I just want to let out a sigh of relief, and want to make Yu Guoping, including Lin Yaojian, feel guilty for the rest of his life.But before I could even move, Lin Zhi and Xu Weimu disrupted my pace.

Mother is only in love with Yu Guoping unrequitedly, and Li Xin is not a mistress. In fact, all of this is Lin Yaojian's responsibility.It was he who took advantage of others and killed my mother for the rest of her life.

I knelt on the ground and flipped through my mother's diary, wanting my mother to tell me an answer and what to do, but she wouldn't answer me.

I went to City Z and met Yu Guoping and Lin Yaojian in my mother's cemetery, these two men who had been involved with my mother.I didn't speak, just quietly put the white lily I brought in front of my mother's tombstone.

They both looked at me, seeming to hesitate to speak.I looked at the photo of my mother, with bitterness in the corner of my mouth.

I feel that I don't have the face to see Yu Jin again. I have always regarded her as my imaginary enemy, which ruined her happiness even more.Fortunately, there is still time.Fortunately, Xu Weimu did not give up.

Yu Jin doesn't want to see me again, I can understand.She didn't blame me for not hating me, so I should be satisfied.

They are very happy, and I should also be ready for a new future.

(End of this chapter)