I hide my concubine in a golden house

Chapter 58
However, Quan Yu continued: "After so many years of bloodbaths in the palace, no one knows my life experience, but as long as I can remember, many people have regarded me as a thorn in their side."

"Do you... hate them?" He hated so much that he didn't even want to call him father from the beginning to the end.

Quan Juan didn't speak, and the hand that supported his forehead fell on his eyes, covering them, probably thinking.

In fact, it shouldn't be considered hate.

He has experienced disappointment and loneliness from the very beginning, and he has long been used to the days when his father is not his father, and his mother is not his mother.

His world is only his own, he has never placed hope on anyone, and will not be disappointed.

"Hate is a heavy word. I can't talk about it, and I don't feel anything. To be honest, I didn't understand why the king didn't like me at first. I just knew that no matter what I did, no matter how good I did, I couldn't please him. I won the first place in riding and archery in articles, and he never praised me, and no one praised me."

Su Tian supported his shoulders, her voice choked up: "You are amazing, I know it." She doesn't need others to praise her son-in-law, she can do it herself.

"Huh?" Quan Juan returned to his senses slightly, his eyes a little dazed: "What did you just say?"

"I said." Su Tian whispered in his ear, "You are amazing."

"No one wants me to be great." Quan Yu smiled, but the smile disappeared before it reached his eyes. He cast his eyes on Su Tian's pale cheeks, looked into her eyes, and spoke in a very flat tone, as if He didn't care at all: "What they want to see is nothing more than a piece of trash."

"Ah, let's not care about other people's opinions, they are not important, those are not important..."

"Your Highness, you don't need to comfort me, I don't care about that anymore." Quan Juan smiled suddenly, lowering his eyes: "Everyone wanted me to die, but they let me live, and since I became sensible, I will never die again." Going to fight for the first place, I am alone, step by step to get to today safely..."

Quan Yu's voice gradually faded away, but Su Tian felt a prickling pain deep in her heart, as if being repeatedly poked by a needle.

No wonder Quan Juan is always reticent. It turns out that he has been used to being alone since he was a child.

"Why are you crying, Your Highness?" Quan Juan suddenly felt wet on his arms, only to realize that she was crying silently who hadn't spoken any more.

He raised Su Tian's chin flusteredly: "Why are you crying?"

Su Tian sniffed and rubbed her blurry eyes: "Who is crying, a bug flew into his eyes just now."

Quan Jue raised his hand to wipe away the tears from the corners of her eyes: "...I saw it, the bug has already flown away."

Su Tian didn't speak.

"I said this just to tell His Highness a truth, some truths, and I will only say this once." Quan Yi looked down at Su Tian in front of him, and said slowly: "I don't know that the letter His Highness saw said What, it’s just that Beiming and I have always been at odds, and I don’t even know if I’m from Beiming. If I’m really the posthumous son of the Utah Department, the king is my father-killing enemy, so why should I conspire with them? , Waiting for them to raise troops and let His Highness kill me to sacrifice the flag?"

She understands, she understands everything.

She was relieved when Quan Yi asked her why Concubine Shu fell out of favor.

The estrangement between Quan Juan and the monarch of Beiming is too deep, so how can he help him cooperate internally and externally?

Su Tian twisted her fingers, her heart was blocked by Quan Juan's last words: "I will not kill you, Quan Juan, never."

How could she kill Quan Yu? She never thought about this question.

Quan Jue raised his hand and touched her head.

Su Tian's tears rolled down her cheeks: "It won't happen in the future."

Su Tian felt that she was quite an asshole, how could she doubt Quan Juan?

It was her fault, she should have trusted Quan Juan, but she didn't.

Quan Jue's breath stagnates: "I don't blame you."

He's used to it.

"I'm sorry." Su Tian only felt her nose sore, as if tears were about to fall in a second, she rushed to hug Quan Yu, her voice was crying: "I promise, I won't make the same mistake again."

Last time, Quan Yu only said that his life experience was unclear, but he didn't say a word about what he had experienced.

"It's a thing of the past, there is no need."

He didn't say it because he really didn't think it was necessary.

Su Tian's eyes were red.

"If Your Highness knows, will you believe me?" Quan Juan raised her drooping chin, and engraved her slightly red eyes in her eyes.

"I... I don't know." Su Tian hesitated.

Even if she knew this in advance, would she really not doubt Quan Juan at all?Su Tian didn't dare to make a guarantee.

Quan Juan seemed to have expected this result, let go of her chin, and said indifferently: "So, is there any difference between saying something or not saying it?"

"But..." Su Tian clenched her fingers, and carefully raised her hand to touch her chin, which seemed to still be warm from Quan Ping's fingers: "Forget it, wait for you to talk about the rest, Brother Ping, if you If you don’t want me to know, then keep it a secret, and don’t let me know for the rest of your life.”

Quan Jue glanced at her from top to bottom, "Feel wronged?"

Su Tian nodded invisibly: "Yes."

"If you were me, would you trust me unconditionally?" Su Tian asked out loud.

"Why not?" Quan Yu said, "I happen to have the thinking ability of a normal person."

"I'm sorry." Su Tian pursed her lips tightly, wanting to cry in pain: "Did I make a ridiculous mistake?"

"It's okay, I don't blame you." Quan Jue poked her cheek and smiled indifferently: "No one has cried for me, you are the first."

He never got warm.

The only person who gave him warmth doubted him.

Quan Juan was not sad, there was once a person who said that he "liked" him, and he liked him very little. Later, after a quarrel, he turned around and never saw him again. This is human nature, and he is used to it.

Su Tian pursed her lips, and the smile on Quan Yu's face seemed to be the biggest accusation against her, making her feel ashamed: "You can be angry."

"Don't think about it, it's getting late now, Your Highness should go back and rest early."

The air froze oppressively.

After a long while, Su Tian pursed her lips and said, "I... I see, you should also take a good rest, I won't bother you again during this time."

Su Tian walked obediently this time, she felt that she had no face to see Quan Juan again for the time being.

At the door, I ran into Qiu Qu.

Seeing that there was no one around, Su Tian stopped him directly: "Qiu Qu, have you been with Quan Yi for a long time? Find a place where we can talk."

"Your Highness, this..." Qiu Qu looked hesitant.

"Talk about your master." Su Tian said.

"Yes." Qiu Qu replied with lowered eyes and eyebrows.

I don't know how long I've been walking out of Bafeng Palace, when a cold wind suddenly blows on a good day, large black clouds are blown to the top of the palace by the wind, it's cold and cold, and the rain is coming as expected.

Su Tian raised her hand to stroke the hair that fell on her cheeks, and stepped on the bluestone slab that was wet by raindrops, walking forward aimlessly.

(End of this chapter)