daily quirks

Chapter 74 Wings
A good friend of mine, Han Han, ran away from home.

My friend’s growth trajectory is similar to everyone’s. It is nothing more than a family who gave birth to a child who was well protected. He grew up in his 20s and has never been out of the province. He has a stable job and a harmonious family. That’s about it.

When I received Hanhan's text message, I thought she was joking, because she told me, my dear, I ran away from home.

I thought the little girl was joking again, so I replied with a smile, why, ran away from your mother's house to your grandma's house?
But Hanhan's reply to a text message surprised me.

Hanhan didn't post anything, just asked me to watch WeChat.I opened WeChat and found that Hanhan didn't send me anything else, but just sent me a location, which was a northern city thousands of kilometers away.

I replied to her, don't scare me, it's not fun, don't scare me with false positioning.

Hanhan told me, I didn't lie to you, I'm here now, if you don't believe me, I can play a video for you to see the world of ice and snow behind me.

That night, Hanhan and I talked a lot, many, many things, and it was the first time I heard her say it.This child, who had been a good girl at home for more than 20 years, unexpectedly ran away from home overnight, and went to a city where she was unfamiliar, and started again.

"Xiao Da, do you know? I've never been on a plane before. It's very comfortable when the plane is flying. I feel like I'm going to fly. When I saw the ground getting farther and farther away, I realized that I had indeed escaped. "

"I never thought about disobeying my parents before. I just thought about making my parents happy. Anyway, I don't know what to do, so just do what my parents want."

"I followed their wishes. I went to high school, went to university, graduated and entered the company they arranged, and did the job they asked for. They were happy. I thought this was what I wanted, but the result was not. so."

"I don't like this job at all, I don't like this major, I don't like such a rigid and stable job, I even hate getting paid for doing nothing like this every day."

"I don't know that in the company, everyone is a colleague and a relationship, so why are they fighting each other and trying to get rid of others? I don't know why everyone wants to report to each other and pour dirty water on others."

"Everyone is envious of my job. They say my job is good, stable, and easy. I don't need to do anything else to get a similar salary."

"I don't know what the meaning of my day is, I feel like I'm an ATM and I'm not useful for anything else."

"I brushed Weibo all day, and I'm tired of playing things."

"I've got nothing to do to the point where I find an excuse to hang out and hang out all day and that's it, there's no problem, I'm never approached by a job, and no one asks me where I'm going."

"I don't like that I'm at home when I'm not at work. I'm tired of being rushed home every time I go out for an hour."

"I hate that I can't go to any place that looks informal. I'm so old that I can't even go to KTV."

"Every time I have to control my communication with others, control what kind of friends I make, who will be a network after I make friends, and who will not be helpful in the future, so I don't have to make friends."

"I don't want to get married when I'm old, and then get married and have children, and live year after year, day after day."

"I don't want to live my whole life without knowing what I want to do. I will stay in one place all my life, like a frog in a well, never knowing how big the world outside is."

I listened to these WeChat voices, and my shock never stopped.For so many years, I really haven't seen this kind of Hanhan. At least the Hanhan I have seen are warm-hearted, cheerful, respectful to their parents, and don't care about anything.

I never knew she had such resentment towards her own life, or even her own parents.I don't know how to comfort her, I don't even know, when her parents call me later and ask me where Hanhan is, should I tell the truth.

In the eyes of all of us, Hanhan's work is the best.In our industry, a fledgling, no experience, even in the internship period, can be so reused in such an important position, and the workload is still small.

The working environment is very relaxed, even the company's business is not much, and the life is very leisurely, which is simply the ultimate goal of our industry to enter the company.

I don't even understand why Hanhan is unhappy.

But I know that although we seem to be fine, Hanhan is not happy.I asked Hanhan, did your parents know that you ran away from home?
"You know, you should be looking for me like crazy now, but you can't find me. I'm going to play around crazy for a while. In the past 20 years, I've been suppressed for too long and ignored too many things."

As I listened to the voice, I seemed to see Hanhan's expression, which only represented one meaning, that is, relief.

I seem to know, even if I tell her parents where she is, her parents still won't find her.

After some time passed, I received the news from Hanhan, three months later.Hanhan sent me a photo.

Hanhan in the photo is smiling happily, standing in the spring scenery, people are more beautiful than flowers.

I asked Hanhan, are you happy now?

"I've never been this happy."

"I used to think about what I would do the next day every day, because I had nothing to do, and I had to find all kinds of things to pass the time. I had to find meaningful things, so that I wouldn't feel that my life and Time is wasting."

"But now I am different. I have things I want to do every day. I don't need to think about what I will do in the future, what I will do in the future. I have things I can't finish every day, although sometimes I work overtime until midnight. , but I make the money I work hard for instead of sitting around doing nothing and getting paid."

"Even if it is intrigue, I feel that I have strength. I rely on my own efforts, the salary I get, the job I get, and this position. I don't rely on relationships. I deserve it."

"I don't need to think about whether my parents will be happy, what I have to do to make them happy, even if I am not happy in the end."

"I can use a lot of spare time to learn some things I like. I don't need to learn what I don't like because of my parents' preferences."

"I can make a lot of friends that I like, without having to think about it every day. My parents say that this person can't make friends, and it's useless for the future."

I asked her, what about your parents?

"I know I can't repay the grace of nurturing. If one day, they can forgive me, they will understand me."

"I've been suppressed for too long."

I asked Hanhan, have you ever thought about how much trouble your leaving caused to your parents.Your job seems to be easy to do, but the handover is really troublesome, and it also involves money. The company immediately called the police. Your father sat in the company all morning with the money in his pocket before waiting for the news that the account was correct.Your mother searched outside for a day and a night because you disappeared, but she didn't close her eyes.You only think about yourself and suppressed it for too long, but have you ever thought about it, what about your parents?
"I know this is very irresponsible. But it's not like I never said I would resign. They always say that this job was introduced by relatives, and it's very good. Everyone is envious and envious. I shouldn't leave like this."

"I was so anxious, and sometimes even scolded me, why did I choose this major when I didn't want to do this business?"

"But when I chose a major, who asked me?"

"What do I like? Haven't I been rejected one by one for so many years? Does what I want to do seem to them to have no ambition and nothing to do? Didn't all the friends I want to make let them mess up? "

"It's not like you don't know, when have I been to a party for so many years? I can't even eat out for more than an hour, even with a group of girls! A group of girls whose parents have known each other for a long time!"

"As long as I have no power at home, or I'm not very good professionally, and I haven't found a good job, my parents won't let me be friends with them, saying it's a waste of time and won't help me in the future."

"I don't know, why do I need to think about what I can get when I make friends?"

"Since I was young, I have been denied all contact with the opposite sex! I have been indoctrinated into saying that the opposite sex is a bad person. As a result, I have been in college for three years, and I dare not talk to boys. If I say one more thing, my whole body trembles."

"Seeing the friends who were once rejected by them, they are doing well now, and they are shy and want me to make friends with them. Have they forgotten how they took the trouble to separate us in the first place?"

"I don't want to go in such an extreme way, but I really can't live in this environment. I think I'm going crazy. Why can't I live according to my own wishes? Why should I be like a puppet."

"I can't control that much anymore. Whether it's to call the police and arrest me, or to cut off the relationship, I can't live that kind of life anymore."

I listened to the voice, and I understood the former president. I used to think that Hanhan just had less social life, so she was shy when she saw people, so she didn't dare to talk to the opposite sex. Now I know that's the case.

If Hanhan's classmates knew that the cold goddess in their eyes was like this, would they be surprised?All I know is that Hanhan's parents have protected Hanhan very well. For so many years, Hanhan has always been a good student, no puppy love, no resistance, only learning.

All I saw was Hanhan's cleverness for so many years. I saw a good student in the eyes of a teacher and a good child in the eyes of parents, but I didn't see a good friend in the eyes of my friends.

I didn't think about trying to persuade Hanhan anymore, and I really couldn't persuade Hanhan anymore.Although I saw the situation at Hanhan's home after Hanhan left home.But I am really powerless to persuade Hanhan.I never met a person who was never more than an hour away from home except for school and work.

Going to work at noon even if you only take an hour to rest, you have to go home.

I have never met a person who has never had any communication, and I only have more contact with the mobile phone, and I don't go out much at all.

I used to think that Hanhan was a house girl who didn't like to go out very much.

Now I know that Hanhan simply cannot go out.

How can I catch a bird that has finally flown out of its cage, and then return to that cage?Can the cage that used to be maintained by the love of parents still hold this bird that has experienced freedom?
I know that Hanhan's work is very tiring now. She wakes up early and sleeps late every day. Not only does she have to get up early to squeeze the bus to work, but she also has to go home very late at night.However, which child who just graduated is not like this?

We only envy Hanhan for finding a good job, and we envy Hanhan for having a high salary for a month when he is not too busy.

But we don't know that in Hanhan's heart, freedom, hard work, and preferences are far more important than these.

Han Han has been locked up at home for more than 20 years. In the past 20 years, there has never been a day of freedom. She has always only thought about how to make her parents happy and how to do things according to her parents' wishes.

Do not defy anything, even if it is something you don't like.

The job that parents like, even if they frown, they have to go.

But no one has ever asked Hanhan what she likes.Even now, no one has asked, only Hanhan, why is he so ignorant.

I don't know whether a stable job is envied by everyone, and I don't know why a city kid doesn't like stability.

But I know that Hanhan's parents spent their whole life pursuing the stability that Hanhan dismisses now.They suffered a lot when they were young, and none of them got a tenth of Hanhan's current life.

They just want to turn Hanhan into what they want, to live a life that they couldn't live when they wanted to.

I thought about finding a good job for my hard-earned child, so that I can get in and out easily, so that I can not be like myself in the future and work hard all my life.

But Hanhan's parents forgot that things don't go so smoothly in this world. Hanhan's stability is due to the relationship Hanhan's parents worked hard to build up when they were young, not Hanhan's own efforts.

Wings created with the ability of parents are not as good as those developed by oneself after hard work.

The eagle soaring in the sky learned to fly only after falling over and over again since childhood.

Nothing happens overnight.

I pulled back and looked at Hanhan’s smiling face in the photo, and I saw the light of joy and freedom. Although Hanhan is already an eagle that needs to have the ability to fly independently, because of the overprotection of his parents, Hanhan is now and There is no difference between the eaglets who have just learned to fly. I even saw the joy of successfully flying for the first time in Hanhan's eyes.

I thought, wings, I still have to work hard to plump them up.

I replied to Hanhan, relying on my own efforts to do what I like.

(End of this chapter)