Distressed Concubine

Chapter 286 Fighting all over the world together?
He has been wandering between sticking to himself and the unshirkable responsibility of the royal family.

Therefore, the bitterness in his heart is unspeakable. No matter how many children Bei Gong Chu has, they are no longer considered as direct members of the royal family. It was Beigong Sheng who was adopted as Zen, otherwise... no one could enter the imperial ancestral temple, not even Bei Gongchu was qualified...

Gong Jinwei's duty is to guard Beichang's most orthodox bloodline. In other words, Gong Jinwei's future will only guard Bei Gongcheng's children.

After Beichang was broken, their emperor could not take that step on this road.Every time Jin Wu came to sit with him, he would murmur something. "What if I still can't do it?"

He would regret it every time, and would give them the medicine every time.

Jin Wu would advise him to do it slowly if he can't do it. Your father couldn't do it after he had you back then, but for the sake of the Bei Gong family, he still has to keep doing it.

He will smile wryly, why should the throne be passed on to me!

Jin Wu sighed helplessly, it was still for the Bei Gong family.

Five months ago, he suddenly came again. He had just finished changing Bei Gongchu's blood, and his face was pale. That time, there was deep happiness and an unresolved melancholy in his eyes.

They talked for a long time that day.

Finally he asked: "I found her, she is just as I imagined, even better than I imagined, I am hopelessly in love with her, but... a woman on my side is pregnant, what should I do?" How to do?"

Jin Wu has never seen him so confused. After years of hard work, he has matured to the point where no one can disrespect him. Jin Wu understands the meaning of his words.On that day, he began to feel helpless like a child, with happiness on one side and extreme pain on the other.

After waiting for many years, all contradictions began to break out on that day, tearing his heart apart, like the two ends of a balance, one end is the pure love he insisted on, and the other end is Bei Gong's unshirkable responsibility.

Jin Wu was helpless, and finally asked him how long it had been.

Unable to hide his face, he replied, three months.

Jin Wu said silently, and after a long time, he only uttered one sentence,...it took shape.

He was stunned for a while, said something I know, and then left silently.

His figure that day was a bit vicissitudes, when Jin Wu watched him go away, he understood a little bit.

This child who shouldn't have been born may be the catastrophe of his life, and the woman who shouldn't have appeared is the death that he can never retreat in his life.

In the next few hours, Bei Gongcheng quickly told her about the current situation of Beichang. Jin Wu and the others were slightly surprised, wondering why the emperor even told the queen these things.

Nalan Ruixue listened carefully, quickly overlapping with Xiao He's words again and again.

Under the dim candlelight, she stared at his face until he stopped, and finally asked the question she wanted to know the most.

"Sheng... have you been alone all these years?"

With a faint voice, Bei Gongcheng was startled suddenly, his black pupils contracted, and he looked at her in surprise.

Seeing that he didn't speak, she continued to ask: "Before you went out at the age of 16, were you always alone?"

Embarrassment flashed across Bei Gongcheng's face, and he turned away slightly.

"Tell me, have you been alone all this time?" Nalan Ruixue spoke softly, with a bit of coaxing, she gently held his hand, opened her palm, and stroked the thin calluses on it.

After realizing what she was caressing, Bei Gongcheng wanted to withdraw his hand, but she held it tightly.

Looking up, she found that under the golden crown, tears were streaming down her cheeks at some point.

Feeling distressed, he squeezed out a faint smile, and raised his other hand to wipe away more and more tears from her. "How can there be a person, I... also have a father, a brother, and a... mother... mother..."

At the end of the sentence, he couldn't make out the word.

She smiled sarcastically, and finally shut up.

Nalan Ruixue cried more and more, her heart twitched in bursts of pain, Bei Gongcheng said a lot, it was the current situation, and briefly mentioned some reasons, but because of Xiao He's advance notice, she was able to make her very happy. Quickly think about why these things happen.

Why does he have so many brothers? He only cares about Bei Gongchu's life and death.

Why is it that Xiao Yu has tried to kill him all these years, but there is nothing he can do about him.

Why is there so many people around him, except for Bei Gongchu, no one knows that he is the emperor of Beichang.

Just because only Beigong Chu managed him in the huge imperial palace, and because he was alone with no worries, Xiao Yu couldn't coerce him.Because of his childhood personality, he would rather bear everything by himself than involve more people.

It's more because...he has no one to confide in.

He was alone these years... He was even more lonely than she had imagined. Xiao He said that he was withdrawn, but she didn't believe it at first, but after hearing these things, they all connected together and all pointed to the truth.

He... lived a whole childhood and adolescence by himself.

Jin Wu glanced at the queen, then at the emperor who was unwilling to say anything, sighed deeply, and said lightly: "Where is someone...always alone, living alone in such a huge palace, since childhood, there was no one in the palace, Meals, laundry, all done by myself, once I had a fever and started talking nonsense, when I heard the news...he hadn't had a drop of water for three days and three nights, the late emperor was threatened by the empress dowager, so he couldn't see him , As for those brothers...the battle among the royal family...the queen should be able to understand."

Jin Zhou couldn't bear to answer and said: "The empress must have seen his back, it was all whipped by Xiao Yu when he was young, and the scar on his waist and abdomen was also cut by Xiao Yu's killer. More torment... these years of overt and covert pursuit, hey, don't mention it."

Jin Yu opened the copper cabinet on the other side and silently handed over a scroll. "This is the wound and the reason we recorded every time the emperor was treated. It is only what we know. If the queen wants to see it, she can take a look."

As Gong Jinwei, they originally recorded these as a research and exploration of the emperor's health. They wanted to unravel the cause of this nightmare for a hundred years, why only the emperor had healthy blood, but the queen did not expect these care so much.

Now that he has found his destined woman, it is always a comfort to have someone to accompany him.

Nalan Ruixue took it with trembling hands, and looked at him quietly, his deep eyes were filled with endless embarrassment, as if he wanted to say a million words to her, but he couldn't say a word.

She looked at each other silently for a long time, then handed the scroll back firmly.

Jin Yu and the others were surprised. "This……"

Doesn't the queen really want to know?
"I don't need it, and neither does my husband!" She looked at him fixedly, and then smiled with tears in her eyes.

The tense nerves in Bei Gongcheng's body were slowly released, and he stared at her with a deeper smile.

After all, she understood him.

After a pause, Jin Wu and the others also understood the reason, the emperor has been here for so many years, how could he want to show his vulnerable side in front of his woman, staring at the firm look in the woman's eyes, they suddenly understood why the emperor would In love with her.

What the emperor needs... is just a person who is willing to accompany him through the storms of his life, not pity, not sympathy, but a heart that puts everything aside and only wants to go together.

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I finally understood why the founding emperor built this tower at that time.

The tower in front of me is actually filled with people who were chosen by the late emperors to close the coffin. Some of them lived a lonely life. There are many concubines, but there is no one.

Some have loved, come here to engrave the name of the beloved woman, after the death, the emperor and the empress will be buried in the imperial mausoleum in a lively manner outside, but the palace guards will use the woman's tablet engraved by the former emperor himself , Move the queen who was originally coffined to the concubine's tomb, and give the woman who wanted to be coffined by the previous emperors according to the memorial tablet, and move her corpse in. If there is no corpse, it will be placed in the memorial tablet.

Then add a ghost marriage, add a ghost name, and re-canonize the queen of the ghost.

The emperors were all lonely all their lives. When they were alive, they couldn't hug their lovers for various reasons, so they stayed together in this way after death.

I have planned for a lifetime, and I have calculated for a lifetime.

No one wants to die lying next to a woman who can no longer be tolerated.

This tall tower... actually records the love that every emperor buried deep in his heart and did not tell the world.

Although meager, it is their last long-cherished wish before they die.

Nalan Ruixue looked along the line of sight, the upper floor of Beigong Cheng remembered his father Bei Gongyue, and the phoenix plaque next to it was engraved with Empress Sangyu - Xu's family.

He couldn't help looking at Bei Gongcheng in surprise, and his gaze was also fixed on it, a little far away.

Is the lost mulberry elm harvested?His father has always loved a woman in his heart?Just what kind of desolate feeling at that time?It is lost at sunrise, and cannot be found until sunset.

Sunset... What kind of bleak waiting is that?Just why only one last name?

Received her doubtful eyes, Bei Gongcheng turned his head and said with a light smile: "I don't know either. Although Father has drawn up a title for her, he also left a sentence, "Bi Luo Huang Quan, I hope I will never see you again. In this life, Just let him leave with regrets, and in the next life, just hope that we will never meet again."

"Why?" Nalan Ruixue is puzzled. If she really loves to that extent, if she really has regrets, shouldn't it be the hope that the relationship will continue in the next life?
Bei Gongcheng smiled lightly for a moment, but did not answer.

The father left with hatred. Before he left, the father said that he had lied to him all his life, made him wait all his life, and killed his child all his life. He knew that his life was short, but he chose to escape and leave. He couldn't even wait for him to die. When she turns around, their father and son will just treat her as dead in this life.

Time passed quickly while chatting, and when he was waiting to go out, Bei Gongcheng smiled and looked at the little woman who was holding on to him and said happily: "Why are you holding on so tightly now, if you have the ability to hold on for a lifetime."

Nalan Ruixue blinked slightly and smiled. "I don't know if I can hold you for the rest of my life. If you don't love me anymore, won't I annoy you by holding you?"

Knowing that she was laughing, but still feeling dissatisfied, he frowned and said, "Why would I bother you?"

"Oh, that means you won't bother me if you don't love me, oh, thank you Lord Ron."

She suddenly realized that Bei Gongcheng's teeth itched in anger. "How could I not love you! I'm sure..."

He paused suddenly, looking at the woman with sly eyes, two cloud clouds appeared on his face instantly, he grabbed her hand angrily and walked out sullenly. "Let's go! There is still work to go back to the palace!"

"Bei Gongcheng! You don't tell me about your uncle!"

"Tell me! No!"

After Jin Wu and the others watched the pair of bi people leave with a smile, Jin Yu frowned and said, "The man in charge of the mausoleum, Jin Zhe...how to deal with it?"

Jin Wurui's eyes turned cold, and he said lightly, "Kill!"

(End of this chapter)