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Chapter 17 February 22
Today is New Year's Eve.

The New Year's Eve is a day for Chinese people to worship their ancestors, and most of them burn paper money at home as offerings to their ancestors.Of course, there is no need to go to the grave like Qingming and Winter Solstice. It is not so much ancestor worship as praying to our ancestors to bless us living people to live smoothly in the new year.Many families lit paper money and tin foil in the open space, continuing the ancient ritual.We are a big family, almost every New Year’s Eve, as the eldest son and grandson, I always kowtow first among the juniors. In fact, I hate these rituals in my heart, especially when I grow up, but I still respect the adults reverence for ancestors.

This year they have canceled the kowtow ceremony and simply burned something to end it.On the way back, I saw many people burning paper money. They were silent while burning paper money, talking and laughing after burning paper money, and some people burned Ming coins and lit firecrackers. After all, it was Chinese New Year.

I went back to the door of my room, and saw a person standing at the door, and when I got closer, it turned out to be Huang Yun.

"Why is it you?" I was surprised, how could she be waiting at my door, today is New Year's Eve.

"I found your address in the address book left by Lu Bai." She smiled at me, and I noticed that she seemed to be getting plump.

I hurriedly opened the door and let her in: "How long have you been waiting?"

"It's okay, I've only been here for a while." She sat on my sofa and looked around my room, "Your room is not bad."

I immediately blushed, I live alone now, as an only child, raised by my parents, never able to take care of myself, you can imagine what my room looks like.

"You are laughing at me." My room is a mess.

"Oh, no."

I wanted to find something to drink for her. There was no tea at home. I searched for coffee for a long time, but couldn’t find it. The Coke was too cold. It’s not summer now, so I had to pour her a cup of hot water in the end, which made me very embarrassed.

She politely took a sip of water and said thank you.With rosy cheeks and natural lipstick, she looked prettier than ever.I stared at her secretly, not daring to speak for a long time.

If it's on the Internet, maybe I can still speak wildly; if it's on the road or in a public place in a cafe, I can still stammer and make a living.But in my own home, in a space that is purely my own, this space is supposed to be a place where I can do whatever I want, a beautiful woman suddenly barged in, faced me face to face, almost within reach, I felt a little scalp hair numb.Because I am a person who is not good at doing but good at thinking, of course I am just thinking about it at the moment.

"How old are you?" she asked me suddenly.

"Fictitious or real?"

"Of course it's one year old."

"It's already 22 years old." I answered truthfully.

"Oh, just right." She said to herself.

"Suitable for what?"

"It's nothing, I mean, you've reached the legal age to marry."

"Why do you ask this?" I have never thought about such a thing, it is too far away for me.

She didn't answer, just stared at me, that look made me a little scared, I turned my head away and looked out the window, avoiding her eyes.

"Sorry, I have something to ask you." She finally broke the silence.

"Go ahead."

"This matter may be difficult for you to understand, but I must tell you, because I have no choice." Her tone of voice was very serious, which made me feel very nervous.

"Just say it."

"Marry me."

I immediately stood up and took a few steps back. She also stood up, nodded to me, and said softly, "I'm sorry, you must be very surprised. If you don't agree, there is nothing I can do."

I felt my forehead start to sweat and said hastily, "Please tell me why."

She sat down again: "I'm really sorry, I lied to you in the cafe last time."

"Tricked me?"

"Let me tell you, because Lu Bai went to Mount Putuo to pray for my mother, I was moved, so I agreed to marry him."

"Is not it?"

"I lied to you. There is no such thing. He has never been to Mount Putuo, and my mother has never had a tumor. I deliberately made up a lie to clear your doubts. The real reason is——I Pregnant. It was a mistake, three months ago, Lu Bai and I had a big fight, and we were both drunk, a mistake that happened unconsciously."

"Maybe Lu Bai is too impulsive."

"No, there is nothing wrong with Lu Bai. It is our common mistake. I had no intention of marrying him at all. I decided to break up a long time ago. But when I found out that I was pregnant, I started to reconsider. I once wanted to marry him. I tried to get rid of the child, but I couldn't do it. I'm not that kind of selfish person. After all, it's a life. I finally decided to give birth to the child and promised to marry Lu Bai, even though I no longer love him. "I found that her eye sockets were already wet.

She continued: "After Lu Bai committed suicide for no reason, I was desperate. I couldn't let my child be born without a father. Do you know? I am an illegitimate daughter. I have no father. After he met my mother Soon, like the wind, she disappeared without a trace, leaving behind my mother, who was an 18-year-old girl at the time. But my mother gave birth to me, and raised me alone with a small income. I have the greatest mother in the world. But because I am an illegitimate daughter, I have been discriminated against since I was a child. My mother and I have been looked down upon by others, and we live in inferiority complex. I am very scared, I am afraid that if I give birth to Will this child repeat the mistakes of my mother? This child without a father may have the same tragic childhood as me. How should I explain to my child in the future? My father is dead, but why does my mother never Have you ever been married? I have been thinking for a long time in pain, and I think there are only two options: one is to kill the child, and the other is to find someone to marry me and let him be the father of the child in my womb. So— —”

"So, you chose me?" I took her words.

"I'm sorry, I have no choice." Her tears finally slid down her cheeks, and I clearly saw a string of teardrops emitting crystal light.

"But why did you choose me?"

"Who else is there besides you? You are Lu Bai's friend, and you will treat Lu Bai's children kindly. According to the contact with you these days, although the time is very short, I think you are a kind and trustworthy person. People, that's enough. As for whether you have money or status, it doesn't matter, what matters is whether you can accept other people's children calling you father."

"I see." I nodded, but am I really "a kind and trustworthy person"?

"Don't worry about your future—you can divorce me after going through the marriage formalities with me."

"fake marriage?"

"In fact, it is a fake marriage, but legally, it is a real marriage, and then we will divorce after my child and Lu Bai's child is born. In this way, my child can have a father in name, and the child will not have to be married in the future. We are under the pressure of having an illegitimate child. During the period from our marriage procedures to our divorce procedures, we live separately, everything is quiet, and no one will know."

"But--"

"I know your worries. In your file, this marriage history will definitely be recorded. Legally, you will become a divorced person. Moreover, you will have a nominal child. He ( She) will take your last name, of course, I will never ask you to bear any obligations and responsibilities as a father, you are just a father in name, nothing more. I know this is still unfair to you, you will I have to pay some price for this, so I will not force you, and if you don’t want to, I will never resent you, we can still be friends, but the child in my womb will die in the hospital in 10 days .”

I can't speak, I look at this woman and admire her courage and wisdom, but now my mind is in a mess and I can't make any decisions.But her last sentence shook my heart: "Huang Yun, I really don't know how to answer you."

"On January 1st, the government agencies finished the Spring Festival holiday and started to go back to work. At 31:10 am on this day, I will wait for you at the gate of the District Marriage Registration Office. If you agree, please bring your ID card He Hukouben arrived on time and met me. If I don’t see you until 12:[-] noon, I will go to the hospital I have already contacted and have an abortion.”

"you are great."

"You still have 10 days to think about it. It's up to you to decide, don't tell anyone else." She stood up and moved closer to me, so close that I could feel her breath on my chest. face.But I trembled like a coward, not daring to face her menacing gaze directly.

"Sorry to bother you, happy Chinese New Year." She was leaving.

"Happy Chinese New Year." I managed to squeeze out four words from my mouth.

I sent her to the door and she gave me a little push and said softly, "Don't send it off, sleep well tonight. Also, stop surfing the Internet, especially 'Ghost of the Tomb'. For The child in my belly, I will never go near the computer again."

"Goodbye."

She walked a few steps, then turned around: "Remember, at 1 am on January 31, at the gate of the District Marriage Registration Office, I will wait for you."

It was dark again, and she gradually disappeared into the evening sun.

I was stunned for a while.

(End of this chapter)