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Chapter 14 January [-]th
It rained heavily today.

Heavy rain in winter is rare, but winter rain in Shanghai has increased in recent years, perhaps because Shanghai has not had snow for a long time.

I was holding an umbrella and walking on the road, the rain was beating on the surface of the umbrella, and some water droplets splashed on my face.Looking around, the distant streets, yellow and white phoenix trees, and small square-like buildings are all immersed in misty rain, hazy, like a watercolor painting dropped into the water, so I remembered A poem written at the age of 19: "The heavy rain beats on the forehead of the city".

I came to the gate of Dr. Mo's psychological clinic.Because she made a special phone call before going out, Rose said on the phone that Dr. Mo was out today and was not in the clinic, so I came. If she said that Dr. Mo was here, then I would definitely not come.Yes, I'm here to find ROSE.

I rang the doorbell, and ROSE opened the door for me. I was wet and took off my coat, feeling a little more relaxed.There is also a damp air in the room, which penetrates into my heart everywhere.

She still made me a cup of hot tea.In front of the hot tea, the heat covered my face.

"Doctor Mo went out, and he said he might not be back until four or five o'clock."

"It's okay, I'm here because I want to..." But I was too embarrassed to speak.

"Thinking about what?"

"I want to ask you something." I suddenly became stuttering.

"Ask." She smiled at me.

"Please don't mind, some questions should not be asked by me, such as age and the like. I know this is very bad and may even cause you to misunderstand, but..."

"I'm 22 years old." She spoke first.

"Oh, so how long have you been here?"

"It's only been a few months, and I just graduated from college last year." She answered the question much faster than I did, much to my embarrassment.

"I'm asking stupid questions, aren't you, you don't think I'm here to do boring market research?"

"You really interesting."

"Why do you want to work for Dr. Mo? In fact, someone like you should be able to find a better and more suitable position for you." My tone sounded like words in the talent market.

"Because the work here is very quiet and leisurely. I don't like the kind of work that is constantly busy all day long, trying to think about some boring things. I just want to be like this now, sitting alone, with nothing to do with the world. Fighting, looking at the banana leaves and flowers outside the window, and the hazy rain, quietly listening to the sound of raindrops hitting the leaves and eaves, you know? This sound is very pleasant, much better than listening to CDs. You calm down, Listen carefully, listen—"

Sure enough, I heard clearly, the sound of raindrops coming from outside the window, and the sound of rushing water from the sewer pipe, like a miniature waterfall.At this moment, there are only her and me in the empty room. We are silent, listening to the rain outside the window, looking at the flowers shaking in the wind and rain outside the window, and we are actually a little lost in thought.

"How do you feel?" she asked me suddenly.

Only then did I come to my senses: "You are right, working here is indeed a kind of enjoyment."

"I just like an ordinary life, the more ordinary the more. It is like a raindrop, which comes and goes quietly. No one notices it. For people, this raindrop does not exist. If it is for you, I don't exist, then I'll be happy."

She is indeed a different girl. I wanted to use the word calm as water to describe her, so I said softly: "Then I really envy you, you know, my mind is very messy now, and many troublesome things are entangled in me. If I can see everything the way you do, and I won't come here for inexplicable treatments."

She smiled slightly: "You will be fine."

"Thank you, but relying on Dr. Mo's treatment method, I'm afraid I will only get worse. I'm sorry, I said it too directly."

"He's a doctor of psychology."

"Is it really a doctor?" I shook my head, I couldn't believe it, he was more like a charlatan, I continued, "Have you seen his treatment?"

"No."

"Fortunately, it's best not to look at it."

She laughed suddenly, and I also laughed inexplicably. Our laughter floated and collided in the empty corridors and stairwells. These sounds reminded me of the past, of another person, who seemed to have never came back to me many years ago.Then there was silence again, and we seemed to have a tacit understanding, holding our breath and listening to the sound of rain beating plantains together, as if we were listening to a Jiangnan Sizhu performance.

The rain is getting heavier.

"Where do you live?" I broke the silence suddenly.

"I live in this area, and I rent a house."

"Do you live alone?"

"Of course, do you think it's two people?" She asked me back with a smile.

"No, no, I mean why don't you live with your parents." I tried to dispel her misunderstanding.

"We separated a long time ago, why do you always ask these questions?"

"Nothing, I just feel—"

Suddenly the doorbell rang, Rose opened the door, Dr. Mo came in, followed by a person, it was Huang Yun.Dr. Mo was taken aback when he saw me, and Huang Yun was even more surprised. She smiled at me unnaturally.

"Why are you here?" Dr. Mo spoke to me rather coldly.

"I'm here for treatment." I also replied coldly. I was very disappointed when he came back to the clinic suddenly. I had already talked well with Rose, so he disturbed me all of a sudden, and Huang Yun would actually be with him. I found myself hating him more and more.

"I didn't ask you to come, so don't come. I will notify you when you need treatment, understand?"

I turned away, looked at ROSE, and didn't want to talk to Dr. Mo.All four of them fell silent suddenly, and the atmosphere became a little strange.Finally I said something: "Huang Yun, hello."

"Hello." Huang Yun replied weakly.

"Are you still on 'Haunters of the Tomb' tonight?"

Her face suddenly changed, and she shook her head vigorously, but did not speak.It was only then that I noticed Dr. Mo's eyes. He was staring at me, as if he was very nervous.Maybe I said something I shouldn't, I can't figure it out.

"Sorry, the clinic is closed early today." Dr. Mo said bluntly.

He is giving an order to evict guests.I looked at Rose, she still smiled at me and waved to me: "Goodbye, welcome to come again next time."

I smiled at her, and looked at Huang Yun's beautiful pale face. Rose and her are both beautiful in their own way. I really can't tell which of them is more charming, but I always feel that Rose is more kind and lovely. People are understanding.I picked up the umbrella and finally left the clinic under Dr. Mo's disgusted gaze.

It was still raining heavily outside. I held up my umbrella and walked into the rain curtain alone. After walking dozens of steps, I looked back at the small building of the clinic. It seemed that it had been shrouded in misty rain and gradually turned into a phantom.

(End of this chapter)