Mrs. Lu is a sensation in the city every day

Chapter 336
That is, in the past, I didn’t really care about some of my own things. When I was a child, my parents were actually letting me go because of my poor study, because I felt that even if I took care of it, it was useless. , when they divorced later, no one wanted to be themselves. They seemed to think that both of them were very strong, but they gave birth to a child who was not very smart. They didn't feel very happy, and even felt that they wanted to abandon themselves , I can feel it myself.

When I was young, other children and even my parents would praise them. Even if the children’s performance is not very good, they will be praised, but I will always be praised, and I have never been praised once. For myself, there is no It is my fault to get No.1, and many times the teacher said that even my grades are very good, but for my parents, I am still not enough or not enough, no matter what.

At that time, I knew that I was not the most perfect child for my parents. In the past, my father often said that I have never had a first time with your mother, or even very rarely. Full marks, because the two people have always belonged to the type of academic masters, and then there is no extra affection for each other, just want a child with a high IQ, it seems to be able to satisfy their feelings of regret about some things, their own It seems to be clear.

But what I don’t understand is that I think this is your dream and not my dream, why my business must be with your dream, I can’t say that I can’t say that I’m not good at studying in the past, I can only say that I’m an ordinary child, Because my talent in learning is really not as high as my parents, and I know it well, but my artistic talent has been very high since I was a child, but my parents have always felt that there is no need to be hungry or to engage in art. .

That is, when everyone else was learning the piano, I simply didn’t know what to do in the Math Olympiad class. The thing I didn’t like was insisting on learning by myself. Later, when my parents divorced, I heard that the two were because of When I was arguing about who I followed, I realized that this world was the one who really had a child who didn't like me, and I just happened to meet him.

Now, my mother also visits me from time to time, and I don’t know what’s going on, but every time I come here, I feel very strange. She will hold her sister and come to see me, and then say that she wants to let her I have some feelings for my younger sister. After all, she may also find that she is getting older, and the man she married later is also starting to be bothered, so she is worried about what will happen to her sister if she is gone, but she can only talk about these things with herself. It doesn't matter, every time this sister comes, it's not very good.

Even for myself, I don’t look like a younger sister to my elder sister. It’s like a high-ranking person looking at someone who is not as good as myself. I don’t like this sister very much. Sometimes if I don’t look at this child It's really small, I really want to see off a guest, I think it's my sister who I really don't like, it's just that when I see this person, I feel the pain I felt when I was a child and come back once.

Because I never had this person when I was a child, I was happy when I was a child. After all, she was praised by the stars when she was born. She is the little princess in everyone's heart. My mother often said that she was born when she was born. She was regarded as a genius daughter, so people who only met their mother later seemed to have no idea that this person had an older daughter, and it was only when they went back to see them that no one knew about it.

In fact, I am not very surprised, after all, my parents have never been a person who needs to be shown off. I am like a very failed work of theirs, and sometimes I even want to mention my own. Name, because I know it all, I never want these people to treat me well. As long as it is not right to me, I have other ideas, and I don’t want to help others all the time.

Thinking that you really don’t feel very good about those relatives. If you said that your parents’ feelings hurt you when you were young, every time you went to these relatives’ homes, these people’s words would also hurt you, and it’s not small. When I was young, these people always said, you said that other people's parents are all high-students, but this child's academic performance is not as high as ours. It's because you have no choice, sometimes it's just talent.

When I listened to it, I knew that these people just wanted to praise my children, and after thinking about it for a long time, people who had no comparison thought of me, and wanted to compare myself to my children, so that everyone would know my own. The talent is very poor, even if my parents are high-achieving students, they can't stop my bad grades. Every time I listen to it, I feel uncomfortable, but I can't say anything. These people will say You don't feel sensible.

Even when I was young, my parents were pretty good in the past, at least not the later ones. I always felt that my parents loved me very much like all my friends. Later, when I grew up After reading it, I realized that my parents were together not because they liked each other at all, but because they were both geniuses. Some people said that if the two of them were together, the child would be very smart, so I felt like a child. As soon as the test product came out.

But I always feel that even if this is the case, my parents have always been very kind, and I always feel that my family is very happy, until I didn't pass the exam for the first time, I knew that I was thinking too much Yes, this person has never liked himself very much, nor did he like to be with him. In the past, when the parents came to the parent meeting, they would never ask the teacher about their grades, and they would never care about their grades. How are you?

When I was young, I was always worried about whether I would fail the exam, other children were worried by their parents, and only I was worried about it. Every time I studied very seriously, and I would ask the teacher, I just want to do well in the exam so that my parents won’t quarrel. Because of this reason, I actually have a good relationship with some teachers. For these teachers, I am really good, so every time my parents come I will say that I have worked hard.

But for my parents, this seems to be a good thing.

(End of this chapter)