Disguised as a man, the chief pet of the president

Chapter 489

I can no longer tell what mood I am in at the moment, I seem to be a little angry, angry at why Zishuang did these things, this is not what I think the silly and innocent Zishuang can do, but it is undeniable that there is a feeling of relief .

I feel that the stone that has been pressed in my heart for so many years is getting lighter little by little.

"Ziqing, I know you hate me. I have done all kinds of bad things, so you should hate me too. I did all the things. You must think that I am innocent before. In fact, I used to be like that. I was originally a very kind person. You are the person who made me become like this, and I also hate myself, so I have always hated you."

"you hate me?"

"It started when I was very young, probably when my brother Qiuyan told me that his sister Tang Qiunuo was his favorite person when I was five years old. Because at that time, everyone told me that I grew up When I grow up, I will marry a man named Tang Qiuyan, but that man told me that the person she likes the most is not me. I didn’t understand at that time. If I want to marry him, shouldn’t he like me the most for granted? So I started to ask He liked it, at that time, I thought, I am better than you, I am more likable than you, I can even make chocolate, brother Qiuyan will definitely like me in the end."

Zishuang looked far away and sighed: "But, I deliberately ignored the childhood sweetheart between you. You have lived under the same roof since childhood, and you are more than me as an outsider. So, I moved and let you go. his thoughts."

"Do you know why your great-grandfather insisted on letting you go back to the Mo family before he died? Why did he not mention this matter in the past 15 years, and why did he insist on it in the end?"

"It's because I begged him. I begged hard. In fact, my great-grandfather was the first person to know what I was thinking. He knew that I was afraid that you two would end up as a couple. Maybe it was because of the tragedy of the Situ family. He said to me: Some things can’t be forced, and your own strength can’t change the result.”

"At that time, I didn't know what it meant. I just begged bitterly, but he finally agreed. So, nine years ago, I caused the separation between you and Tang Qiuyan."

I was dumbfounded when I heard it, and I never thought that there was such an episode in it.

"Why are you telling me this?" I asked.

"Because I woke up from my dream." Zishuang suddenly smiled: "I have been in love with Tang Qiuyan for 19 years, from a boy to a teenager to a man, almost the first half of my life is because of this person, he is my dream , you know, people are actually animals that live in their own consciousness, I lived in this dream, unable to extricate myself, until Brother Qiangu slapped me awake."

"Actually, when I begged Brother Qiangu to design you, Brother Qiangu slapped me. You know that he was the one who loved me the most since I was a child. Daddy and Mommy are not as good to me as he is to me. One part, from childhood to adulthood, he is my brother, my driver, my servant, my tutor, my punching bag, my listener, he has penetrated everything in my life, just like the air, It is everywhere, but at that time I was living in a dream I wove. I selfishly thought that it was natural for him to be nice to me, but I never thought about what was behind it. Maybe I understand, but I just don’t want to think about it. .”

"After I put forward such a condition that day, Brother Qiangu stretched out his hand and slapped me. In fact, his slap was not very heavy, but I suddenly felt that my world had collapsed. A person who loves me so much is so obedient to me. The person who is obedient will hit me, and now I clearly remember every word he said to me at that time: Mo Zishuang, you are really unreasonable, you know what you are going to do now, what are you going to do now? The person who designed it was your younger sister, your twin sister, and Miss Er was sick and weak since she was a child, have you ever thought about the consequences of doing this?"

I still remember my mood at that time, I was so angry that I wanted to tear you apart, and I was so angry that I beat Hua Qiangu hard.I've never been so hopelessly angry in my life.

I said to Brother Qiangu: "I know, the person I want to design is her, I don't care what the consequences are, anyway, I just want to marry Brother Qiuyan, Hua Qiangu, don't you love me, don't you can do it for me?" Sacrifice everything, can't you die for me? Do you think that if Ziqing and brother Qiuyan are together, I will like you? You are dreaming, I will only love brother Qiuyan for the rest of my life, and I will only love him for the rest of my life one person."

Zishuang's mouth suddenly showed a trace of sadness, she smiled at me: "I look like a devil, don't I?"

In fact, it’s really hard for me to imagine Zishuang’s ferocious appearance, and it’s also hard to imagine that these extremely harsh and selfish words will spit out from Zishuang’s mouth. She is in my impression, or in everyone’s impression Li is a well-behaved and kind child.

Or maybe only Hua Qiangu has seen the most unknown side of her.

Zishuang continued: "It was only later that I realized why I was so angry. I wasn't angry at Hua Qiangu for hitting me, nor was I angry at him for refuting my decision for the first time, but angry at him for helping you speak. Hua Qiangu, who belongs to me alone, can speak for you. At that time, I wished I could cut the person in front of me alive. At that time, I realized that I might not be able to leave him anymore. He had never looked at him with such disappointed eyes. I, I feel like Ling Chi under that kind of eyes. I kept saying that I love brother Qiuyan, but in fact it was just because of why he was stimulated. I wanted to see his reaction. At that time, there was nothing else in my mind. Only Brother Qiangu, I even hope that he can give me another slap, wake me up, and tell me that even without Tang Qiuyan, he will be by my side forever."

"But, no, Hua Qiangu just said to me indifferently: "Eldest Miss, this is the last time I will help you, because in the rest of the time I will atone for Second Miss, I will marry her, and then take care of her for the rest of my life. ""

"You know how I felt at the time, I felt that the whole world had lost its color, and I felt that if he had left me, what was the point of my being alive? That's how I felt at the time."

"Actually, you have fallen in love with him a long time ago." I quietly interjected.

"Maybe, because the person I hate the most in my life is you, and the time when I hated you the most was not when Brother Qiuyan announced that he could only love you in his life, but when you stabbed a knife into Brother Qiangu's body." At that time, I really found out that you inserted the knife into my heart. At that moment, I seemed to be thrown into the eighth hell. At that moment, I said to myself: Mo Zishuang, your The retribution came, God was going to take him away, and I realized that the person I cherish the most is Brother Qiangu, not Brother Qiuyan, who I have been doing all these years to get him."

(End of this chapter)