get married

Chapter 64

Yang Jinning thought that she must have caught a cold to feel so uncomfortable. She didn't want to do anything or eat anything.When she opened her eyes after a night of sleep, she looked out the window.The sky is still the same as yesterday, even the scenery is still the same as yesterday, everything is the same as yesterday, so can she treat herself as the same as yesterday?
She clearly knew what had happened, but she still had hope, hoping that everything was just a dream of her own, that waking up was just waking up from a dream, and she was still living the life she usually thought of.

She stroked all her hair back with her hands, hoping to be more refreshed, but she still couldn't.The brain has been groggy, but she can't go on sleeping, otherwise she is in a bad state.She knew that when her emotions fell into a trough, she should not let it go, otherwise she would not even know what she would do.

Finally got up, changed her clothes, and when she looked at the mirror in the bathroom, even she was frightened by her own face, so she put on makeup to cover it up.It was only then that she remembered that she hadn't formally put on makeup for a long time.In the past when they got married, Gu Chengdong usually didn't show up unless necessary. Once he showed up, he would definitely go to a certain banquet.At that time, she always put on makeup slowly, thinking that she must not embarrass him, although when she put on makeup, she always thought that he could find any woman to support the show, anyway, countless men did this, let alone he Don't wait to see him so much.But he doesn't seem to have done anything like that.

They were both divorced, but she pretended to think that he was not bad.

The hand that drew the eyeliner trembled, and when it got elsewhere, she wiped it off again.

When everything was ready, she finally matched a bag for herself.Before she was about to go out, she took another look at the bed she had slept in. The quilt hadn't been folded yet, and no one would remind her to tidy the quilt out of the house.

And the extra pillow was still there, she stared at it for a few seconds before choosing to go out.

She must be a typical example of suffering. Even though such a big event happened, she can pretend to be the same as usual when she goes out, instead of being a divorced young woman.Even if she was so sad that she was going to die, she didn't want others to see it and feel sorry for her.She doesn't need others to pity her, and she doesn't need others to judge her.

No matter what happens, she will still live a chic life.But now it is just the experience given to her by life, she has said so many high-sounding words, now it is just for her to use actions to prove that she is indeed the kind of woman she said, even if she loses the whole world, she still wants to be beautiful .

When I arrived at the hospital, I heard someone pointing and pointing before I got to the ward.It turned out that it was the perpetrator who knelt down and begged Yang Lihai and Zuo Qinfang to forgive him. All of this was his fault. It was his careless driving that caused Yang Yisen to suffer such a serious injury.He's willing to pay for it, just hope they don't tell him.He has a wife to take care of, and his wife is seriously ill, and he can't do without him...

Yang Jinning watched coldly, there are always so many people in this world who claim to be poor, maybe it's true, maybe it's fake.But poor people must have something to hate.

Everyone has their own difficulties, but these difficulties are not the price of all actions.

She originally wanted to go forward, but she must be like an angry youth at the moment, wanting to argue and express her views to the extreme.But she finally stopped.

Because the man said that he still has a nine-year-old daughter who needs to be taken care of by him...

The man also told how his daughter was very obedient and had good grades, and would go home with a certificate every semester...

Yang Jinning stood there blankly. What was she doing when she was nine years old?I learned about the things of adults too early, so I accelerated my maturity, and gradually realized that this world is not as simple as black and white, and gradually realized that there is something privileged in this world, which can turn white into black...

Even if she later leads a normal life, can everything in the past not affect her at all?
Why did she become so selfish and insecure? Isn't she witnessing the products of those darkness?Parents always have different influences on their children, and if the child is still so sensitive and intelligent, the influence will be even greater.

She didn't express any opinion, everything was up to Yang Lihai and the others.In fact, she knew that the old couple were so kind, they would probably be moved.In addition, Yang Yisen is recovering from his injury well now, so it seems that they will not blame him... Besides, those who have been parents always feel the same about their children...

See, it's about seeing things from someone else's point of view, so you start to doubt yourself.Those who only think about themselves may be called paranoid, but they should not doubt themselves, nor lose their way.There are good and bad in everything, and no one can blame anyone.

She didn't think about it, nor did she ask about their results.

But when she was about to enter the ward, she heard Yang Lihai and Zuo Qinfang talking.

"Is Jin Ning having trouble with Chengdong?" Zuo Qinfang was asking his own son, and the two of them asked Yang Jinning, which was equivalent to not asking, and the child was always not telling the truth.

Yang Yisen just shook his head, "I really don't know."

Yang Lihai simply glared at his old woman, "Don't worry about it, young people have young people's lives, we don't want to interfere too much. Besides, Jin Ning knows what she is doing, you worry about it all day, but it makes her feel better." pressure."

"Aren't I worried? Haven't you seen that her face is getting worse and worse these days?" Zuo Qinfang frowned, "If it's a small matter, of course I wouldn't be so worried. Think about it, Yisen went to the hospital , so many people have come to see it, but Chengdong didn't come. That kid is definitely not such an ignorant person. no……"

Yang Lihai also felt that it made sense, but he still retorted, "Maybe Chengdong is too busy, don't worry about this and that, let alone ask Jin Ning."

What Zuo Qinfang said again, she didn't hear, just walked to the other side.

She was afraid that her disguise was too fake, making others feel uncomfortable, and she also felt uncomfortable.

She calmed down her heart before entering the ward.She said a few jokes to liven up the atmosphere. At this moment, she didn't want to talk about the divorce.It was a very selfish idea, she was not afraid that they would not be able to accept it, but that she hadn't even accepted it until now, and she wanted to wait until she could accept it before slowly telling others.Otherwise, she must not be able to accept other people looking at her, she is not ready yet.

It's just that when she thought that none of them would mention Gu Chengdong again, Zuo Qinfang held her back again, gossiping as usual, ignoring Yang Lihai's hints and asking directly, "What has Chengdong been doing these days?"

She seemed to think for a while, "I'm on a business trip, it seems that there is a big problem with a case in another province, he has to rush there..."

She answered naturally. Although Zuo Qinfang had some doubts, he didn't bother with it any more. He just frowned, "Are you feeling unwell? Are you looking so bad?"

Yang Jinning touched her face, she should have concealed her face, how could she still be seen, could it be that her face is so bad?
"I just didn't sleep well last night."

Zuo Qinfang finally nodded and stopped pulling her to ask questions.

She let out a long breath.

She was reluctant to talk, so she sat down and took out her mobile phone to browse the forum.I saw a certain post, and an author from JJ.com complained about her writing life. The posts were all kinds of cute, and all kinds of cute pictures were posted in the form of complaints. Moreover, these pictures are quite connotative, and those who have been writers can generally understand , which has laughter and bitterness.When she sees something funny, she will cover her mouth and smile. It's rare to see such a post, instead of the "little three, original partner, scumbag" posts that are annoying to see on the homepage all day long.

When she turned to the picture in the next chapter, a smile suddenly froze at the corner of her mouth.

The picture is still very cute, but the narration is: If the writing is like menstruation, you and I must be pregnant; if the text is like menstruation, then I must need the extended version of anti-leakage.

Her eyes were fixed on the word "pregnant", and her face became even uglier.

At the same time, she felt that something was wrong with her whole body, and she couldn't help but ran to the bathroom, vomiting again.

Seeing her like this, Zuo Qinfang was very worried.She just said that she had a bad stomach, and told Zuo Qinfang not to worry about herself.

Zuo Qinfang was still not at ease, and told her to see a doctor, she promised to go, so Zuo Qinfang stopped talking.The old man is really annoying, although it is a sweet annoyance.

She somewhat refused to prove why she was abnormal.

Before, she had been thinking that it must be due to irregular work and rest and poor mental state that this abnormality appeared in her body.In addition, she always wanted to conceive a child in the past, but she was always unsatisfied, so she didn't think about it.

But after seeing the word pregnancy just now.Those two words kept circling in her head.

Even, she already felt that there was a child in her belly, who could breathe, think, and remind her of her existence.

This thought made her feel crazy.

It was even funny, when she wanted a child, the child never came, but after she got divorced, she actually had a child.

It's just a thought, she has to make sure.

She was nervous and couldn't tell if she wanted to have children or not.

She knew she had a crazy idea.I heard before that a girl has been secretly in love with a boy for many years, and finally they are together. They have been together for many years, although they broke up in the middle.In the end they still have to break up, not because they don't love, but because they are not suitable for each other.The girl said that she wanted to conceive a boy's child, and then she would spend her life with the child. She loved that boy, but they were really not suitable...

This kind of bloody story has always made Yang Jinning scoff.

But at this moment, she knew that she also had this crazy idea, even though she was acting calmly, registering normally, waiting normally, and sitting there normally.

"Excuse me, are you married?" the female doctor in her 40s asked with a glance at her.

She wanted to say that she had just been divorced...

"You are already eight weeks pregnant. Let your husband accompany you to the hospital for a detailed examination next time. Your physical condition is not very good..." The female doctor continued without raising her head.

She stood where she was, took the order, and walked out slowly.

She was really pregnant, after her divorce, after the man didn't want her.And the person that man really loved was never her, but she still had this stupid idea of ​​wanting to have a child for him.

She seemed to have really been poisoned by the poison called love, and it was very deep.

She seems to be developing more and more towards the kind of woman he hates, more and more like a silly woman, like countless women who have fallen into the vortex of love...

She despises such a self, and hates such a self.

(End of this chapter)