get married

Chapter 108

By some coincidence, she actually followed, unable to restrain herself from following.When she walked into the teaching building step by step, she felt that her heartbeat was already abnormal.Her steps were very light, as if she was afraid of waking up something.Because there are no classes on weekends, the teaching building is much quieter than usual. This teaching building seems to be used for lower grade students. She walked all the way and didn't see a single person.She took her steps more lightly, and she didn't even know what she wanted to do.

Before reaching the top of the building, she heard gasps.

There was silence for a while, deciding on something.When walking up the last step, she stretched out her hand and gently opened a corner of the door at the top of the building, looked in through the gap, and saw a scene that she would never forget in this life.

Qiu Jiayi heard Fang Rongze gasping for breath...

Such a picture almost nailed her in place.When she recovered, she quietly left again.She wanted to run away immediately for what she saw, but she didn't want to be discovered.

Because at that moment, she actually hoped that the girl under Fang Rongze was herself, what a horrible idea, she was frightened by herself, so she had to leave.

After seeing that scene, Qiu Jiayi did not appear in front of Fang Rongze.That night, she suffered from insomnia.She was thinking, Fang Rongze didn't accept herself, was it because of that girl?
Maybe not, because in the eyes of others, Fang Rongze is a playboy.So after he played with that girl, is it possible for him to accept himself?

She asked herself, after he accepted her, would she be happy?She will just become one of the countless admirers of Fang Rongze, maybe he will talk to him frivolously, maybe he will kiss him, even...she will be like that girl.These things were all things she had never thought about before. If she hadn't seen that scene, maybe she would continue to be stupid just to chase such a boy.

But even if you catch up, so what?Lost for him, and then kept watching him change girlfriends, or keep falling down, like those stupid girls reported in the newspapers, and then were casually commented by the audience: still a teenager...

Boy, so there's an excuse to be silly, but that's not what she wants.

She actually wished crazily that the girl under him was herself, what a crazy idea.

She can't be that kind of person.

She came back and continued to be her lady, a good student in the hearts of teachers and a good girl in the hearts of parents.But she knew that she had become different.Occasionally, she would think of Fang Rongze's face, and she couldn't even come to a conclusion whether she liked Fang Rongze or just because he never cared about herself.Or, because she feels cheap in her heart, she just likes that kind of bad boy.

When she was restless, Wu Daming came to ask her to date, and she agreed without hesitation.Because she really wants to know whether she can't forget that person because he is Fang Rongze, or just because she likes this type of boy.

She is really a weirdo, she actually likes that naughty Fang Rongze, she is afraid of herself.

She dated Ng Daming and worked hard to be like a decent girlfriend.But she feels that she can't get into the state no matter what, she won't think about Wu Daming all the time, even if he is her boyfriend in name, even if he is actually handsome, there are many girls chasing him.Even if his conditions are about the same as Fang Rongze's in all respects...

But it's not the same.

She wanted to use a bad boy like Wu Daming to calm her restless heart, but she couldn't.Even in the process, she will pay attention to all the information about Fang Rongze, enter their school's post bar, and search for every information related to Fang Rongze.Even entered Fang Rongze's name in the search engine countless times...

Later, Wu Daming was with other girls. When he accused her, she felt that there was some truth in it, but not all of what he said was true.

She was very sad, because she felt that her heart was still occupied by that boy named Fang Rongze, even though he was obviously bad, even though he didn't really like her.

Until Ji Chenghao appeared in her life more and more times.

Later, she finally understood that Fang Rongze was the problem she couldn't solve. Even if it took time, it was just a waste of time, because the solution to that problem was never in her mind.

She is not the key that can unlock Fang Rongze.

A person who can make himself crazy is the easiest to destroy himself, and then get drunk, choose to degenerate, and even no longer believe in love, and completely enter the dark side of this world.Such a thing will not happen to her, because she is Qiu Jiayi, and she will not destroy her own Qiu Jiayi.

Qiu Jiayi remembered that girl, the girl under Fang Rongze.She is beautiful, like a fairy, but this does not mean that she has a deceptive appearance and looks like a fairy.It's just that she has that kind of charm on her body, the evil spirit that can't be pretended, can catch your attention, so that you can't take your eyes off her.

Lost to a girl from this.

At that time, Qiu Jiayi had examined herself in front of the mirror many times, what was wrong with her?Where is it not as good as others?She wanted to know very much.

In fact, she is not inferior to others, but she is not someone else's favorite. Some men only have one key to their hearts. If he gives it to others, he will close the door to you forever. It is useless to cry and make trouble.

The car finally entered Mochuan City, and she also woke up. She felt that she had had a long, long dream, and she could even see how stupid and stupid she was at that time.

After the car drove to Mochuan City, she got out of the car.

Walking endlessly in this familiar city, looking at the men and women on the street, one is not alone.

When she walked to a certain movie theater, she stopped, bought a ticket, and went in with others.This movie is very popular, with youth as the topic, making people nostalgic for the past infinitely.

When she saw the heroine's youthful face at the end, she cried like everyone else, just because of that smiling face, which has nothing to do with youth.

The heroine said that youth is for nostalgia... She doesn't like this view very much, for her own youth.

Why youth must be used to miss?Obviously that should be his exclusive memory, but it was infinitely magnified.Moreover, youth should be that period of the past, including the mood of solving problems in the classroom, including secretly eating in the classroom, and secretly cursing the teacher because of the many homework assigned by the teacher.And then the head teacher told me again and again to take the college entrance examination, and the friends who were very good to me at that time, and the tablemate who accompanied me that year, and the not very delicious food in the cafeteria that year, and The words that parents always whisper in their ears...these should be the elements that make up youth.

But the current youth seems to be occupied by love, youth is only when you have love, it shouldn’t be like this, youth is just yourself in that year.

Qiu Jiayi thinks about everything she has experienced over the years. She has a mother who loves to teach others a lesson. She always says that they waste and use money indiscriminately, but her mother can use it indiscriminately than anyone else.She also has a father who is not very talkative, but father will use his way to balance the family. When mother teaches them, father is mostly silent.But afterwards, the father would take the injured second sister out to eat duck legs, making up for the unhappiness in the second sister's heart, and at the same time telling the second sister that those who often fight may not get what they want.

She also has two older sisters who are often noisy, and they are the joys of the family.

And now, she has one more family member, and that is Ji Chenghao, her husband.

In this way, she felt that her life was complete, and she didn't even need to miss her past self.

Walking out of the cinema, she turned and stared at the poster about youth one last time.

She smiled and said to herself: I think the perfect youth is that I have my bottom line and I have not fallen.

How much she wanted to fall down once, but she knew that she would not, would not go out too late with strangers, would not drink too much, and knew how to protect herself.Even in front of her favorite boy at that time, she actually wished that she could become the girl under him. Such a terrifying thought made her start to examine herself...

It's not that she can't afford to fall, she just knows that she shouldn't fall.The price of falling is too small, but the price of growth is great.

She didn't want to act crazy to the end for the sake of a opposite sex who made her think crazy.Even if you like someone, you should have your own bottom line, know what you should do and what you should not do, instead of doing everything just because you like it, even if it is depraved.

When she got home, she found that her mother was still sleeping on the bed.She walked over, as if she hadn't slept with her mother for a long time.She climbed into bed and lay in her mother's arms.

Yang Jinning opened her eyes and stared at her daughter, "Are you back?"

"Ah."

Seeing her daughter's tired face, Yang Jinning sighed, "Go to sleep."

She nodded, and accidentally saw a white hair on her mother's hair. She couldn't help but feel sad. This should also be part of her youth. She hugged Yang Jinning, "Mom, I love you."

Thank you all, her life is full.

No one deserves to go crazy desperately. She remembers her mother saying, "You can't make your parents sad because of someone who is not suitable for you or is not good enough for you."

"Why?" she asked, along with her two older sisters.

Yang Jinning looked at them, "Because I have raised you for so many years, I didn't want you to be stupid and seek pain. Even if one day, you find the person you think is the most right, please take a second to think about it and choose that person. Will the parents approve?"

At that moment, Qiu Jiayi vaguely understood that choosing the right person was not only responsible for herself, but also reassuring her parents.

If you make yourself happy, it will also make those who care about you happier, especially your parents who are getting old.

Diary: This is the funeral of youth, but my youth is very complete. Youth may need to be crazy, but it needs a bottom line. Only people with a bottom line know how to cherish their present...

Rather than miss the past all the time, it is better to cherish the present, youth is gone, the future is always there...

(End of this chapter)