Mo Shao's new wife is online

Chapter 676 The Coward

During the period of living here with Shen Xiucan, Lu Xian'an became more and more fond of Shen Xiucan's craftsmanship.

She was really worried that if she didn't live here one day and couldn't eat the food cooked by Shen Xiucan, would she not get used to it.Even, will she eat meals that are not used to other people's cooking?

Thinking of this, an inexplicable sadness and sadness welled up in Lu Xian'an's heart, and the speed of eating noodles also slowed down.

Sensing her strangeness, Shen Xiucan asked, "What's wrong? Today's noodles are not delicious?"

Lu Xian'an squeezed out a few smiles and shook her head, "No. It's delicious."

Her face was rosy and smooth after taking a bath, and her eyes were moist and bright.A few hairs that were not completely dry fell down in front of her shoulders, and the fragrance of shampoo and shower gel wafted faintly, making him unable to smell the smell of food at all. God.

He came back to his senses and suppressed the throbbing in his heart, "It's fine if you think it's delicious."

After eating the noodles, Lu Xian'an helped Shen Xiucan clean up the table and the dishes.Shen Xiucan watched her take the antidepressant medicine, and let her go upstairs to rest.

Lu Xian'an was lying on the bed, but couldn't fall asleep no matter what.

Mingming walked so much at night, cried so many times, and tossed so many things, her body was already tired, but her head was extremely clear.

Shen Xiucan's words kept circulating in her mind.

"If you must go, take me with you."

"You took my heart away, how can I live if I'm not with you?"

"I don't care about anyone else except you."

……

Whenever she thought of these words, her heart beat like a deer.

She didn't dare to delve into the meaning behind these words.

Although she hoped that the meaning of these words was the same as she hoped, she was terrified.

She remembered a sentence from Dazai Osamu's "No Longer Human" that she had read a long time ago - cowards are afraid of happiness, they will be hurt when they touch cotton, and sometimes they are hurt by happiness.

She thinks she is that coward...

Tossing and turning on the bed for a long time, Lu Xian'an really couldn't fall asleep, so she sat up and looked at her phone.

It's past two o'clock in the middle of the night.She had been insomnia in bed like this for almost three hours.

She felt a little thirsty, got out of bed and put on her slippers, planning to go to the kitchen downstairs to drink some water.

She opened the door of the room, but unexpectedly found that the light in the living room was still on.Shen Xiucan was sitting on the sofa in the living room, reading a book.

"Are you still asleep?" Lu Xian'an asked as she went downstairs.

Shen Xiucan looked up at her, "Not sleepy. Read a book before going to bed."

not sleepy?

But he was obviously exhausted!How can you not be sleepy?

"Why did you come down?" Shen Xiucan's eyes were slightly alert.

Lu Xian'an: "I'm thirsty, come down and drink some water."

Shen Xiucan secretly breathed a sigh of relief, "Oh."

He was sitting here trying not to sleep, because he was worried that what happened tonight would happen again.He was afraid that if he went back to his room to sleep, when he woke up the next morning, he would find that Lu Xian'an was gone again.

People with depression have mood swings.Maybe you coaxed her well just a second ago.But in the next second, she may fall into a more severe depression than before.

Shen Xiucan was afraid.scared.

Especially when he thought of the phrase "I actually want to die" that Lu Xian'an said tonight.

He really couldn't bear to lose her.

(End of this chapter)