Draw a circle in his paranoid heart

Chapter 71 I'm Bad, Am I?

This time, Lin Weiwei fell into a deep sleep, until the middle of the night, when she was woken up by urinating, she got up softly, and went to the bathroom in the dark.

When she came out, she found that something was wrong with Lu Chen. He kept calling someone's name. Lin Weiwei leaned closer to listen, only to see that his head was covered in cold sweat, and he kept calling "Dad" and "Mom".

He seemed to be having a nightmare, or recalling the scene when his parents left, his body was trembling, and his whole body was so fragile.

"Dad, Dad, don't go in, don't go in, it's dangerous there!"

"Father, didn't you promise Ah Chen to watch me grow up? Why don't you count your words?"

"Mom, don't cry, I'm still here."

"Mom, mom, don't be afraid, Ah Chen will protect you, Ah Chen will grow up, and he can be your reliance in the future, just wait for me, okay?"

"Mom, mom, don't go, what should I do if you are all gone?"

"Mom, mom, don't you want Ah Chen?"

"Mommy mommy!"

His voice gradually became louder, his expression was very painful, his eyes were closed tightly, as if he was in endless pain.

Seeing his heartache, Lin Weiwei held his hand tightly, and said softly, with a bit of crying, "Ah Chen, I'm here, I'm always here, don't be afraid."

As if feeling a hint of warmth, Lu Chen held her hand tightly, his whole body was extremely fragile, Lin gently wiped the cold sweat off his forehead, and coaxed softly, "I'm here, Ah Chen is not afraid."

Lu Chen leaned closer and closer to her, he was so uneasy, and wanted to find peace of mind in her.

Lin Weiwei simply took off his shoes and got on the bed, sat beside him, patted his back lightly with his hands, and said softly, "Ah Chen, I'm by your side, don't be afraid, go to sleep."

As if he had heard his words, Lu Chen finally stopped trembling, and stopped talking in sleep, but kept holding her body tightly, refusing to let go.

Lin Qingyuan didn't let him go, she sat on the hospital bed with her eyes open, feeling that his mood had finally improved, and then slowly fell asleep.

He didn't dare to imagine how many days and nights like this he had experienced, and he didn't dare to imagine how he survived those difficult days and nights in the past.

He is so stubborn, he is so stubborn that he refuses to forget himself, even if he hurts himself, he has to remember himself by deeply engraving his name on his arm.

He was so desperate, locked in a dark place, and suffered mental torture every day, reminding him of those painful pasts and those extremely painful scenes over and over again.

How he persisted, she couldn't imagine.

That's why he was so fragile when we met again, treating himself carefully, worried that he would disappear again, worried that he would not be found.

His heart is so soft, he hides all the edges and corners, treats himself tenderly, wants to give himself all he has, wants to give himself the best.

But he is the best person, apart from him, everything in this world is nothing more than nothing.

This was the first time she felt his pain so closely. The memories that she wanted to bury were brought up time and time again, brought out again and again, and exposed bloody in front of him.

That's why he became what he is now, worrying about gains and losses.

But obviously he used to be so outstanding. He was the number one student in the college entrance examination in Nancheng, and he was the envy of everyone. He had excellent grades and an excellent appearance.

It shouldn't be as desperate and painful as it is now.

She opened her eyes and waited for the dawn, her heart was helpless and painful. What should she do to make him get better quickly and make him happy like before.

Until the sky outside gradually turned fish-belly pale, Lin Qingqing's body was completely stiff, but she still maintained the posture of embracing him.

His posture at the moment is like a restless child, nestled in her arms, holding her tightly.

Lin looked at his face lightly, unknowingly, he looked more and more like Lu Chengpeng, whether it was the eyebrows or the outline.

They were indeed relatives whose blood was thicker than water, so Lu Chen, like Lu Chengpeng, was determined and stubborn.

Her hands unconsciously touched his eyebrows and stroked his face. His pale face made people feel distressed. His whole body was that kind of sickly white, giving people a very decadent feeling.

Lu Chen's sleep was very shallow, and he woke up slowly when her hand touched his face, and when he opened his eyes and saw her, there was some surprise in his eyes.

"Gently, why are you here?"

Lin Weiwei looked at him like this, as if a child had eaten his beloved candy, and his joy was completely undisguised.

"I'm here with you, did you sleep well?"

Lu Chen smiled at her, "Slept well, have you been sitting on the bed?"

Lin Weiwei subconsciously wanted to say no, but he sat up all of a sudden, "You stayed with me all night, didn't you?"

He was a little anxious, thinking about his terrible appearance, maybe she had seen all of it.

Seeing him like this, Lin Weiwei felt a little distressed, pulled him over, and looked at him seriously: "No, I heard you talking in your sleep at dawn, and you kept sweating, so I came to accompany you. wake up."

Lu Chen's expression became a little bad when he heard this, and he didn't dare to look into her eyes, "I'm bad, am I? Did I do anything to make you unhappy?"

Lin Weiwei forcefully turned his head in front of her, and looked into his eyes, "Ah Chen, you are not bad at all, you are just sick, you must not feel bad about yourself, you are the most beautiful person in the world. Good man. And I am still by your side, and will always be there in the future. You are just sick, and you will get better in the future. I will accompany you and wait for you to get better.

In this process, no matter what we encounter, let’s face it together, okay? Didn’t you say that you like me the most? Then you can tell me all your fears and worries in your heart, and I will face it with you. correct.

You're never alone, you know that? "

Lu Chen hugged her tightly, and his words were still a little uncertain, "But I'm worried that you think I'm not as good as before, I'm worried that you will be afraid of me, bored with me, and worried that you will leave, I only have you now.

I dare not tell you, I am actually very scared, I always have nightmares, always dreaming about the scene where my parents died, that dream is like a huge abyss, sucking me in little by little, every time I wake up When I was alone, I was looking at the ceiling in despair.

I don't know how long this kind of life will last, and I don't know how long it will take for me to get better. I try very hard to get better, but it's really hard, really hard, lightly. "

His tears fell drop by drop, his voice was desperate and painful, like a helpless child who wanted to hold on to something firmly, but was afraid that the other party would let him go easily, so he wandered around.

(End of this chapter)