Draw a circle in his paranoid heart

Chapter 230 Her Hands Are Shaking, Her Heart Is In Disorder

She sat on the hospital bed for a long time, her thoughts were still confused, but she didn't want to let herself go down like this, she stood up and planned to find Lin Qingqing.

Maybe she was too clumsy and cautious, maybe she was really cowardly, never daring to let such a bad self entangle him, not daring to let such a beautiful and sunny boy live with her in the quagmire from now on.

Her parents will not give up, maybe one day they will really find BJ, and if he encounters such an embarrassing scene at that time, how should he deal with himself.

If she is a clean woman, without such vampire-like parents, without such a bad family, if she can grow up freely like others.

Then she will definitely not become what she is now.

He will not be trembling when he accepts a little bit of goodness from others, and he will not repeatedly think that when he understands his past, he will hate himself.

She has not received much affirmation since she was a child, her inferiority complex is inherent, and she will think of the worst outcome in everything.

She was afraid of being abandoned again, afraid of being rejected, afraid of being pitied.

Since she was born, she has suffered too many disgusting or pitiful eyes.

When she walked out of the school infirmary, she looked around habitually, and there was still a faint expectation in her heart, as if she was looking forward to seeing that familiar face.

There were people coming and going all around, without his figure, it seemed that he really left without looking back.

Fu Shuang suddenly felt flustered. If he really gave up this time, would he have no chance to find him again?

In the previous 21 years, she regarded dignity as the most important thing. Perhaps the more she lacked, the more she longed for it. She longed for the respect of others, and hoped that she could be the same person as others.

There was a wry smile on the corner of her mouth, then she turned and left the infirmary, walking towards the school gate.

She wanted to find Lin Qingqing, wanted to find some direction, and wanted her to tell herself what she should do.

She wanted to ask her if she could be selfish once, if she could ignore other things and just follow her heart, if she could really be with him.

She seemed really cowardly again.

She walked a little hastily, her mind was in confusion, she didn't bother to look around, she didn't notice that there was a figure behind her, standing straight, her gaze forbearing, and it fell directly on her body.

After all, he was worried, so even though she resisted him in every possible way, he still didn't leave, he just found a place where she couldn't see, watched her leave, and checked if she was well.

He felt that he might have lost his mind and went crazy. He liked someone to such an extent that no one agreed with him. Before, his friends in Jiangcheng University opposed him transferring to another school, but he came here without hesitation, just because of the day she left , smiled at him.

At that time, there was light in her eyes, anticipation on her face, and a sense of relief. She told herself that she was going to BJ.

She said, goodbye, Lin Zicong.

At that moment, he panicked. He thought that as long as he didn't keep paying attention to her, he would let go one day.

He thought it was no big deal.

He has been going smoothly for the past 20 years. No one has ever rejected him like this. How proud he is. He is angry, as if to prove that he does not have to be her.

But he really didn't like anyone else.

On the day she left, he really recognized his own heart, so he chased BJ and stood by her side regardless of everyone's opposition.

Fortunately, she was still alone, and there was still time for all of this.

But he still doesn't know how to warm her, he is clumsy, he can't speak love words, he just wants to warm this woman.

Maybe her heart is cold, but he hopes he can warm it up.

Her repeated refusals did not repel him. Now that he has seen hope, how could he give up.

He watched her leave without catching up, but just looked at her from a distance until he could no longer see her.

Fu Shuang made a few phone calls to Lin Qingqing along the way, her hands were shaking and her heart was in a mess.

She didn't understand where her panic came from, she just kept wondering if he really wanted to give up on herself this time.

Lin Qingwei is at home at the moment, her phone is on silent and drawing, she saw Fu Shuang's call as soon as she turned on her phone, she hurriedly picked it up, and then heard her voice.

The girl who has always been calm and composed, now there is a cry in her voice.

Lin Weiwei panicked, and her voice became louder, "Shuangshuang, what's wrong with you, Shuangshuang?"

Fu Shuang's throat was choked up, and he didn't say a word for a long time. Lin Qingqing was not in a hurry, and just waited for her until she calmed down a little, and only said, "Qingqing, I want to come to you."

Lin Weiwei seldom saw her like this, although she had doubts in her heart, she immediately responded to her.

"Okay, come here, I'm here at the apartment, I'll pick you up right away."

Fu Shuang only said yes and hung up the phone. Her steps were hurried and her eyes were slightly hot.

Lin Qingqing hung up the phone and went out. Lu Chen hurriedly chased her out, changed her shoes and put on her coat before letting her out.

He didn't ask her what happened, he just knew that something must have happened to her now that she was so anxious.

As soon as Lin Qingwei walked downstairs, Fu Shuang had already come over. Her face was a little pale, her whole body was sickly, and her footsteps were flustered. As soon as Lin Qingwei walked to her side, she seemed to be completely vented. In general, he squatted down on the ground.

Lin Qingqing squatted down with her, and felt relieved after seeing that there was no one around.

Shuangshuang wants to save face, and can't let others see her fragile appearance.

Just looking at her like this, she must have encountered something that made her very sad.

She was not in a hurry to ask, and waited quietly for her to speak. After crying for a while, Fu Shuang raised her head and met her concerned eyes.

She just squatted so quietly, accompanying her, without saying a word.

She hugged her violently, like a person caught in a swamp suddenly caught driftwood, "Gently, gently, I really don't know what to do."

Lin patted her shoulder lightly, comforting: "What's the matter, tell me, don't cry."

Fu Shuang has never been a crybaby, but she shed tears after seeing Lin Qingqing's fragility was aroused.

Even she herself can't remember when was the last time she cried.

Lin gently pulled her up, "Go home and talk to me?"

Fu Shuang subconsciously refused, "Lu Chen is at home, I was not very well."

Seeing her insistence, Lin Qingqing didn't say anything, just led her around, and both of them bought a cup of hot drink, Lin Qingqing read Lu Chen and bought one for him.

After drinking a cup of hot drink, Fu Shuang felt her heart warm up. The two of them sat in the milk tea shop, watching the crowd outside, and she finally had the desire to speak.

(End of this chapter)