Draw a circle in his paranoid heart

Chapter 186 To Love Is To Miss It (Su Qing Chapter 3)

Su Heng's wife left behind a child, also a boy, named Su Yichen. He has learned a lot from Su Heng since he was a child. He can write beautiful calligraphy, he can draw, and he can shoot arrows.

Su Qing looked at the boy who was about the same age as him, and felt jealous in his heart. He was always living in the sun, and was always receiving praise and praise from others.

He is the legitimate son of the Su family that everyone knows.

And I was just a ridiculous illegitimate child.

My mother waited for so many years, but she couldn't wait for Su Heng to turn around. Now, she died and left herself to him.

He didn't know whether to be happy or sad, he just thought it was all so ridiculous.

From a wild child without a father, he became an illegitimate child raised outside since childhood.

It's as if nothing has changed.

Only the people around me have changed.

He is still a wild child that no one recognizes, and he can only wave his fists to fight off everyone who looks down on him.

He doesn't know anything, but he has brute strength, and this is the only thing he can do better than Su Yichen.

Maybe Su Yichen is a gentleman, he didn't show any particular malice towards his arrival, he just worked harder and became better and better, and then let Su Heng's little attention focus on him. body.

Su Qing is not a fool, he did not ignore Su Yichen's hatred every time he looked at him, his eyes were full of provocation.

Su Qing knew that he hated herself.

After all, in his eyes, his mother is the mistress, he is the illegitimate child, and they are the ones who broke up his family.

His mother was as holy as a white paper in his eyes. Whenever Su Qing deliberately talked about his mother, he would see his well-maintained expression crack, and then reveal his minions.

He said he would kill him.

What Su Qing said at the time, he said you just try.

He has known the taste of despair since he was a child. When his mother was sick, he couldn't carry her on his back alone. He called 120 while crying, and then ran to the side of the road to wait for the car.

When he grows up a bit, malice is always around him, what does it feel like to be called an illegitimate child every day, how does it feel to be hostile, isolated, and besieged by so many people every day.

Others always think that a poor person like him should obediently wag his tail and beg for a little sympathy from others.

In their eyes, he is a poor wretch, an unwanted child.

He was born so pitiful, and his whole life will be miserable in the future, anyone can step on him.

From the moment Su Qing learned to resist, everything changed. Everyone stayed away from him, said a few ugly words to him from a distance, and then ran away.

They said that Su Qing was a lunatic, every time he didn't speak, but every time he punched him, he was sure to beat others to beg for mercy.

His poor mother, even though she is so selfish and cowardly, he still wants to use his thin shoulders to carry some wind and rain for her, so that she can rest for a while.

He had resented her, hated her, but what never disappeared was his love for her.

She was the first person he saw when he opened his eyes after he was born, she was the one who called Ah Qing, it was she who gave him life, and it was she who raised him up.

Mother is a strong woman, she never complains to herself, she always manages this small family without complaint, she never complains, she is not strong like a woman in her 20s.

The year Su Qing was born, Lin Ying was only in her 20s, and she should have been full of infinite fantasies about the future, but she resolutely left her dearest person and let go of all her love for the person who didn't have her in her heart. Proud, living in this dirty alley.

She used to be a girl who was pampered by her parents.

She just loved the wrong person.

She is too stubborn, she never knows how to advance or retreat, she only knows that in this life, if you have loved, you will miss it, and she has no complaints or regrets.

She originally thought of bringing up Su Qing by herself, and wanted to be with him for the rest of her life, but fate always liked to play tricks on her.

Her health began to get worse and worse, her complexion was always very bad, she often fainted, and often lost her strength.

On the day when I was diagnosed with advanced leukemia, the weather was clear and the scent of sweet-scented osmanthus was in the air. Everything seemed so beautiful.

She didn't blame God, she accepted the fact calmly, walked out of the hospital gate, and threw the medical records into the trash can.

It's enough to live this life by myself, but I can't love it. These four words are enough to sum it up.

When I was young, I always fantasized about love and my own Prince Charming.

When she grew up, Su Heng was always in her dream and heart. She put all her attention on him, expecting the same in return, but she didn't.

No matter how she tried, all she got was a few words, don't make trouble, I just treat you as my sister.

to his sister.

Who wants to be your sister.

From the moment she understood the relationship between a man and a woman, her future half was portrayed in his image.

He is tall, handsome and handsome, he is very gentleman, he never said a harsh word to people, he has a nice smile, like the light of sunlight falling on people's shoulders through the window.

But the light at the back was full of disgust for her, he said so many ugly words to her, as if he gave her all the dirty words he could think of in his life.

He never smiled at her again, and looked at her coldly again and again, as if laughing at her wishful thinking.

The former Lin Ying died, and the later Lin Ying no longer had light in her eyes.

She left all places about him, severed all contact with him, and the only thing left was this child who inherited their blood.

But in the end, will this child not be able to keep it?
She walked home absent-mindedly, and seeing Su Qing sitting on the desk writing, she wiped away her tears and returned to her usual calm appearance. She didn't approach him, but just watched secretly from a distance.

Ah Qing, if you know that your mother will leave this world soon, if you know that your mother will not be with you for a long time, will you complain?
You are obviously such an excellent child, but you have suffered too much and suffered too much with me since you were a child.

She doesn't care what those people in the alley talk about them, she is already very satisfied with such a good boy with her.

But with his current body, he could no longer delay him.

Then, on a sunny morning, she prepared him a sumptuous morning, dressed him in his favorite clothes, carried him a small schoolbag, and led him into the place she once thought A place never to set foot.

It's not that she didn't see the shock on Su Heng's face, and there are many other emotions, she doesn't have the time to guess, she has given up on him a long time ago, nothing is worse than heartbreak, she has long been heartbreak to him.

She silently pulled Su Qing to the front, and Su Heng knew what was going on with just one glance.

But he still asked again, and continued to slander her once again. He was obviously such a kind and gentle person, but now he only knew how to stab her with knives.

She is no longer the Lin Ying she was back then, and he can no longer easily influence her.

After she finished speaking, she saw the shock on his face, it was incredible, and maybe there was a trace of remorse, she knew that he believed it.

That's right, she, Lin Ying, never bothers to tell lies.

(End of this chapter)