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Chapter 184 If You Are Destined Not to Have You in This Life (Su Qing Chapter 1)

Jiangcheng Prison.

Since that incident, Su Qing has been here for more than two months. For eighty days and nights, no one came to see him.

He has never understood the feeling of heart death so much as he does now.

Every day in the past, he always asked himself why he was born, since he was not expected from the beginning, why was he born.

The mother is cowardly and only has that man in her heart. Even though he abandoned her for so many years, she still loves her deeply. She watches the TV every day just to see him appear.

He knew very early on that his father was the head of the Su family, Su Heng.

He is a household name in Jiangcheng, and he is a successful entrepreneur.

He has his own children, they have a very good relationship, and they can often be seen on TV and in newspapers.

Their feelings are the real father and son, and blood is as thick as water.

As for himself, at best, he is an unfavored or even unknown existence.

His birth was an accident, and his mother was just a poor woman who had silently loved him for so many years.

The illegitimate child, the wild child, these titles have always followed him. When he was a child, he fought with others for his mother, and was severely pressed to the ground by so many people. He never gave up. Until the last moment, he beat everyone to the ground.

He swore that he would protect his mother.

Although that woman, cowardly, selfish.

She gave birth to herself without hesitation, but she didn't treat herself well. She often watched herself cry, and occasionally beat and scolded herself.

Maybe she is just a tool for her to miss that man.

She and Su Heng were childhood sweethearts. She had loved Su Heng since she was a child, but Su Heng only regarded her as the neighbor's little sister and never had other thoughts about her.

Until later, Su Heng relied on his own efforts to have his own career and a beloved woman, but he no longer had her in his eyes. She frequently appeared in front of him like crazy, just to make him not forget so quickly. Own.

But love has never come first, first come first, even if she came first for so many years, if you don't love, you don't love, there has never been any reason.

She watched them go in and out, looking like glue in front of outsiders, she was mad with jealousy, but she was also a woman, she had her pride, she was no longer clinging to him, she just stood far away, watching The appearance of their affection makes my heart die a little bit.

Until that time, when she went to his house to look for him, she accidentally found that he was drunk and took care of him all night.

He seemed to have quarreled with that woman, and he was in a very bad mood. He looked a little fragile. She looked distressed, tidied up his room, and took care of him to sleep.

That night, half asleep and half awake, Su Heng regarded her as his beloved woman and had sex with her. She didn't push him away and let him ask for it.

It was only when he called out the woman's name that he shed tears.

Su Heng, I have loved you for so many years, the only time you took the initiative to approach me was because you recognized me as her.

She left before Su Heng woke up the next day. She had already stolen the tenderness of the night, and she didn't dare to covet more.

Later, the woman was pregnant and they got married. Su Heng went home and held the wedding. She watched their happy appearance from a distance, saw his happy smile, and saw the sweetness when he looked at the woman. .She didn't even have the courage to show up.

She never knew how long it would take to let go of someone. In the first half of her life, in just over twenty years, she was all connected to him, and his emotions could easily affect her.

She is domineering, she is not gentle enough, she is always willful, and she always loves him in her own way.

At that time, Su Heng was also very kind to her, he would pamper her, let her be pampered, and hardly argue with her.

She really thought at one point that he liked her.

But the woman behind appeared, she was bright and dazzling, she was generous, stood beside him and greeted her, she said she was his girlfriend.

She seemed to be mad, and frantically drove them away, saying all the nasty things.

She never believed that Su Heng would really fall in love with someone else.

He obviously dotes on her so much, treats her well, and looks at her tenderly.

But he said that he only grew up with her feelings for her, it is family affection, he just regards her as a little sister of the neighbor's family.

She was not reconciled, and frequently appeared in front of him, wanting him to see her more, and wanting him to know her feelings.

She loves him, so many years of feelings, little by little accumulative love, little by little secretly hidden love, until now, can this only be exchanged for such an ending?
It wasn't until his indifference broke her heart that she believed that maybe he really didn't love her.

Maybe never loved.

She has always lived too simply, thinking that if she likes it, she will be together, but she never thought about whether he would like it or not.

She finally believed that sentence, among the two people, the one who fell in love first must have lost miserably.

She turned around countless times but couldn't get a single glance from him, she was about to give up.

Until that day, they had a relationship, and then she ran away.

Su Heng obviously forgot what happened that night, or he just thought it was that woman, and soon he held a wedding with that woman. She hid in the dark and kept watching secretly, like a thief spying on other people's happiness .

Her parents persuaded her to give up and stop being attached to him. She said that she no longer loved him, but she never stopped beating him.

Liking him has been a habit for so many years, just like eating and drinking water. Suddenly one day, someone told her that she can't like him anymore, he already has a lover.

She was very scared, like a child who lost her favorite toy. She kept chasing and running hard, but finally found that the toy was already in someone else's arms.

But Su Heng has never been her toy. Between the two of them, the loser will always be her.

She has a nice name, her name is Lin Ying.

He once said that her name is very beautiful and will make people feel good.

But he had called her "Yingying" so many times, but in the end he only got an evaluation of "unreasonable".

The person in his arms is always his white moonlight, and even a little bump will make him feel bad.

But the person who loved her so much back then, now even when he sees her tears streaming down his face, he just turns around and leaves.

Did she overestimate the relationship between them, or was she always wrong.

The mistake is that I shouldn't be so confident, thinking that he must like me, thinking that he will confess to me one day.

She waited and waited until she had someone else by his side.

Then she looked at them, had a child, watched him accompany that woman every time to go to the maternity checkup, and saw the joy of being a father on his face.

She touched her stomach, wiped away the tears on her face, and left alone.

If this life is destined not to have you, at least let me leave something that belongs to you.

In this way, in the future life, I will not be lonely and desolate.

(End of this chapter)