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Chapter 80 What is it (1)
Xu stared at Jiang Man who had not come out of the villa, closed the car door and played it.

Lu Cunyu only memorized the occasional words in his heart, do you want to send them to Jiang Man?

He really didn't want to hear that sentence: [It is only when you love deeply that you blame him]
However, he knows that everyone may have a painful past that they have loved, at least the 37-year-old himself has it, and the 27-year-old Jiang Man also has it.

The past in his sense does not refer to the past where men and women play and tease each other, but when he fell in love, he couldn't see the colorful eyes in his eyes, and he was surrounded by a hundred flowers, but he really only wanted to stare at them in his sight. That one, the affirmation of love for that person, the persistence of love.

The relatives and friends around him can see that he is tempted to chase her.

The beginning of a relationship is thought to be beautiful. If it can be predicted in advance that it will be full of disappointment and separation in the end, probably no one will want to start it on purpose.

After hearing about Jiang Man's past, Lu Cunyu felt the same way.

Disappointed in the relationship between men and women, he gasped for many years.

For so many years, there have been many female suitors around him, father's favorite, grandma's favorite, all kinds of styles, but there is no one that he really likes.

One of them accompanied him to see his mother who had been sleeping for many years. In order to make grandma happy, he coped with it while sending that woman back.

The woman said: "I want to get to know you better. We are the same family. In terms of talent and appearance, I think I am worthy of you."

Indeed, she was the most educated and well-bred among the women he came into contact with, but she was very old-fashioned, even more old-fashioned than his 37-year-old man.

On the way to send the woman back, he smiled and said, "We must not be suitable. I'm quite accurate in this respect. Don't waste your time."

"Is it accurate? Then why did you divorce your ex-wife?"

The marriage was low-key and never publicized, and the matter of the divorce of the second son of the Lu family was also low-key and never made public. The daughter-in-law moved back to her mother's house shortly after her wedding and never returned.Everyone in the circle knew that he was divorced, but people from the Lu family only said that it had been approved and the divorce was low-key.

The truth is that the divorce was not successful at that time, but the elder didn't want to delay the grandson's embrace, so various blind dates began. He listened to his grandmother and watched one by one. Whenever the result was unsatisfactory, the grandmother would smile wryly. Over time, he understood the grandson. the behavior of.

The grandson takes care of grandma's feelings, and grandma naturally learns to take care of her grandson's feelings, because grandma really loves her grandson.It was also in those two years that grandma felt that her grandson had really grown up, and it seemed that her precious grandson had never been childish. Maybe the grandson was not good at expressing, and everyone in the family didn't pay attention to him or observe him. Treat him as the unworthy descendant of a dude!

With the label of a dude's unworthy descendant, whatever he does seems to be wrong in the eyes of his grandfather, and only the eldest grandson Lu Xianzhang is right.

Grandma doesn't force him to go on a blind date anymore, and there are other elder relatives.

Blind dates are not troublesome for him, he doesn't need to go, someone will naturally bring the other party into his eyes, for example, he goes to a government department for a meeting, and when he goes out after the meeting, the beautiful daughter of a certain leader will appear in his eyes. It's not justified to say hello, and after saying hello, there is no end to it.

He didn't answer the question asked by the well-matched woman.

Feng Anya is a woman that he doesn't want to talk about. The right person may not always make it to the end, and the divorce has nothing to do with their personalities or getting along with each other.

Everyone around him knew that the poor girl Feng Anya was the name of the world he loved in his ears when he was young.

Lu Cunyu remembered Jiang Man saying to himself: "I'm betting."

He deeply understands the weight of these three words. He has gambled with his feelings before, and he also once felt that he can win for sure. If he catches up with her, Feng Anya in his eyes needs his careful care, and it happens that he is also willing and capable. You can take good care of her, everything looks so sweet and harmonious.

But he lost. Her actions and thoughts made him understand a lot. People can drive people crazy, and people can drive people to hate so much that they want to turn around and bump their heads to death!
One hundred.

In the past 37 years, the most frustrating moment for Lu Cunyu came from the girl he once loved the most.On the night when the dog who accompanied him on the first day died, he had a dream. In the dream, he dreamed that he gave her everything for the girl he loved the most. Later, she took those things and put them in her bag. It was a sentence: "Lu Cunyu, what are you? Are you worthy of my love?"

Waking up suddenly, there was only a cool mat under his body, and there was nothing around him, and his only loyal dog was dead.

After the age of 30, the marriage has not yet been divorced, and she can't leave without signing.The trash upstairs can no longer participate in any affairs of the Lu family. He represents the next generation of the Lu family. He has endured for so many years, and the price is that his mother is also unconscious. Therefore, he will not be willing to let the Lu family lose to the end in order to divorce early.

The Lu family is no longer a Lu family with only the elder brother Lu Xianzhang alone.

Lu Cunyu couldn't remember which year, month, or day after he turned 30, he was stopped by his grandma and forced to have a heart-to-heart talk. Grandma was assigned by his grandpa.

Of the three sons of the Lu family, one is disabled, the other hides out of town to teach, and the other is arguing for someone. Maybe he is too lonely. When he was studying, he lived with his mother and younger brother. After his mother fell into a coma, he lived with his family. Brother, after being betrayed in your relationship, what you live is... I don't know what to fight with my brother.

It is probably because of the resentment suppressed in my heart that supports me, and resentment is also anger, if there is no anger, how can I work hard to get better.

In the days when he was in love and had a mother and younger brother, he was young, and he still wanted to live a stable life, and he didn't lack anything anyway.

When everything was gone and divided, there was only a solitary self left, decadent because of that grievance, and buried in the collapsed stone slab during the disaster relief, thinking that he would never get out.

I don't know what kind of luck, but whenever the most danger comes, he can always be saved, even without opening his mouth to shout, a pair of hands stretched out in front of him to rescue him.

Facing the reality with the mentality of having nothing, he slowly got what the enemy had in his hands. The expression that the enemy thought he would never show, showed up. At the age of 26 and seven, he looked at everything very victorious pleasure.The girl who doesn't want him has already become a woman, and she can't want another man.

She asked if she still loves her, and he announced with a sneer that he no longer loves her.

Counting 37 years ahead at the age of 10, at the age of 27, he has a heavy revenge mentality and is immature.

At the age of 37, I can't recall the day in the past when I felt that all revenge was unimportant. It may be the year my grandfather passed away, and he was 34 years old.

The grandfather who had swapped his identity with the eldest brother finally, finally showed a gratified smile and died with tears in his eyes, knowing that the next generation of the Lu family would not lose because of his support.

The good grandson in grandpa's eyes at the end is called "Lu Cunyu", not the grandson "Lu Xianzhang" that grandpa believes in every time he bullied him since he was a child but still bites back.

Grandpa closed his eyes, and he stood beside the sick bed in a straight suit, clenched each of his fingers tightly to hold back a single tear, unwilling to shed.

Every muscle and bone that he clenched his fingers seemed to involve the flesh of his body. Those scars caused by his grandfather's discipline since he was a child, although the scars have faded, and his body no longer feels pain when he grows into a man, but his heart is always there. pain.

Do you hate grandpa? I hate grandpa because I longed for equal love from grandpa when I was young.

Before the grandpa closed his eyes, he didn't see his grandson's tears, but he cried later, and he doubled the unfilial piety towards grandpa to his dear grandma.

Before his grandfather passed away, when he was in his worst health, he scolded his grandmother to find him, forcing him to find a woman to give birth to a boy for the Lu family as soon as possible.Maybe the grandfather felt that he was not going to live long, so he contacted the grandson who taught, but the grandson didn't have any contact information for him.

Lu Cunyu said to his grandma: "My mother made a lot of mistakes when she was young. Her biggest mistake was falling in love with a man as passionate as her father. I couldn't fit into the family where my eldest brother came. When my elder brother came home, we fought and fought. I used my father’s gun, and I hated my father after my mother left the house in a coma. Both my elder brother and I believed that our own existence was correct, and the other was superfluous. All of this was caused by my father’s passion for women.”

"When my mother was still young, I hoped that my mother would be happy. After my mother was in a coma, I hated my father even more. The trouble caused by passion. Grandma, forgive me for not accepting that I can't just find a woman to give birth to a child. I will not get a child in any way Accept it, harm others and yourself."

Grandma was very sad, and she often lowered her head and secretly wiped her tears when she was speaking. When she cried, grandma didn't know she was still pretending, but he heard it.

I feel sorry for grandma.

Lu Cunyu finally relaxed a little: "Grandma, let me calm down, but if I find a woman to marry, I can't be casual, right? My mother's life has become particularly bad because of my father's passion. My other half is also a woman. In this world, she lives the same role as my mother. If I live as a man like my father, wouldn't I be unworthy of being a man, the kind of man I despise the most. "

"It's hard to meet a good girl. This society is not as good as your grandma's society at that time. There is not much simplicity. If I find her, I will marry her and have grandchildren for you. I am not a copy of my father, and naturally she is not a mother." version of the

Lu Cunyu thought about finding a loveless but ordinary good woman to marry and give birth to a grandson for grandma, but why didn't he find one?
I've tried my best to find them, but none of them fit my eyes and I feel that my words and deeds are not in step with me.

What he wants is not to be very elegant in words and deeds, not to be on a big stage, life is not a gorgeous stage, what he wants is to accompany his significant other in life.

It's good to feel happy together, naturally, don't pretend to express yourself to him.

Jiang Man is very close to him.

In my memory, there was also such a little girl who was taken to the hospital by him, and the pain hurt somewhere, and the little girl bit his white shirt with her mouth.

When I got to the hospital and put it down, I saw that my shirt was dyed red, like a red flower blooming.

After going through the formalities and paying the money in the medicine, he glanced at her name and realized that the little girl was on her period. At that time, it was nearly the fifth year since he filed for divorce.

He didn't have a deep impression of the 15-year-old girl, and he simply forgot after paying the money and leaving.

Forget it all.

If he hadn't met this 37-year-old little girl again at the age of 27, he would not have remembered that he had picked up such a little girl who was on her period 12 years ago.

In the eyes of the 15-year-old, a 25-year-old girl is a child, just a child.

However, the 27-year-old Jiang Man was a woman in his 37-year-old eyes, and he still remembers the feeling of holding the white skirt bitten off by Fifteen, soft and fragrant.

He couldn't even remember whether Jiang Man was wearing a skirt or pants when he was 15 years old.

(End of this chapter)