Affectionate [Published + Full Version]

chapter 72
Enmity between men can be big or small.

Jiang Man wanted the family to live in peace, since Jiang Sinian has married Tong Qin, he should live a good life.She will marry in the future and leave the home where her parents live. Even if she does not marry, she will move out to live alone sooner or later.

Even if she was unwilling to contact Jiang Sinian and Tong Qin, she would not force herself.

I will definitely keep a distance from my brother in the eyes of my parents and reduce meeting.

Jiang Sinian nodded: "I know, if he and I do the same thing, their rich and powerful people can succeed very easily, but I can't. This reminds me of when other boys gave girls I can't afford a gift from a friend."

"Middle school..." Jiang Man didn't say any more, the middle school is not together yet.

So who is the girlfriend he wants to buy a gift for?

Jiang Sinian closed his eyes, his harmless and handsome appearance seemed to return to his student days, he lay down, looked up at the ceiling and said softly: "It's too early to fall in love in middle school. Puppy love delays study, I want to study, I'm still young , I shouldn’t be able to run away, as long as I work hard enough in all aspects. I like you, and I feel shameless when I was young. When I think of the warmth when I lived in the same room with you, I often laugh. They all thought it was very interesting. During that time you were picky eaters, you didn’t eat this or that, even this I thought was cute, and then I saw that other girls in school were not as cute as you.”

"I blushed for the first time, do you still remember. You, a girl, started to develop, and your breasts bulged a little bit. I am your brother. We live under the same roof. I noticed things that other boys didn't notice. .For example, when you come out of the shower, even if you wear very conservative pajamas."

Jiang Sinian turned around: "I matured so long before you. I like you and want to buy you a gift. I especially want to be a rich man. When I was 16, I had this idea. I was insulted by pointing at my nose. When I was young, I told myself that I want to be rich. Knowledge creates wealth? There are so many people with excellent grades but they can’t support a family!”

Jiang Man couldn't help but feel depressed when he heard him talk about those things.Still endured and said: "Don't blame the society if you don't have the skills, at least you can't do without knowledge. The teacher didn't clearly guarantee that your graduation certificate, degree certificate, that dead thing that can't talk and have long legs can make you money. What you do is the key. Individual ability."

He is like this, sometimes his eyes look very dark, it may be caused by many things piled up in his heart.But more often he is exactly the same as many years ago. He loves to smile at her, and when he is not smiling, his tone is very gentle, and he can say what he wants to say lightly, without saying harsh words.

There have been many conflicts in the past few months this year, and some of the things he did were revealed with the marriage between him and Tong Qin.

Therefore, he began to become erratic, and Jiang Man could hardly tell which face was the real him.

Now, standing in the hospital ward, I feel that he is the most real at this moment. He grew up together and lived in the same room for more than 16 years.

"You have a house, a car, and everything that money can buy. How do you feel now?" Jiang Man took a deep breath, feeling a little tight in his chest: "Looking at the things that money can buy, Started coveting things that money can’t buy again, right? Jiang Sinian, from the age of 16 when he was ignorant to now 27 years old, 11 years, are you happy on this road of getting rich, you have experienced all along the way What? I didn't notice your behavior at all, I trust you, trust you like I trust my mother and myself. "

Jiang Man couldn't control his emotions: "I told you more than once, I trust you and Mom the most, and I don't believe Dad [-]%, because he thought about divorcing Mom and not wanting us, I think he It’s too bad, maybe I was narrow-minded and not sensible when I was young, but that was my truest feeling at the time.”

The feeling of choking made Jiang Man unable to speak.

To calm down, Jiang Man said: "When I grow up, I think things have changed a lot, but I still don't dare to delve into the past and current situation of our family and think carefully. You and Dad will make me feel that it is a man's words. I can't believe it. I didn't realize that this man is bad. Maybe it's because the time hasn't come yet. It seems that all men will show their bad side in the end. Am I delusional? You have implicated other male compatriots. Jiang Sinian, in my mind before I was 27 The two most important men, you and Dad, have brought me bad things. The feeling of negative energy in my heart is that I don't believe that I will find happiness in the future."

Jiang Man raised his hand, touched his wet eyes and turned his head away.

"I regret the ten years I have spent with you. In the best youth, love is not like love, family affection is not like family affection, bad is not bad, it is very thorough, and beauty is also an illusion. I will not end when I am separated from you. Feeling broken, and maybe you don't know why."

Jiang Man raised his eyes and tried to see his haggard facial features clearly: "I can't tell the difference between family affection and love, so I'll say five or five points, anyway, it's all for you, don't pick which one is lighter and which is heavier. You give My five points of love are gone now, and the five points of family affection are still in my heart, because you can’t hurt me in terms of family affection, so you can give it to your parents in the future. How many times have we met in total in ten years together? How many days does it add up? 100 days? 150 days? Is that too much? Now if a good man randomly appears and treats me considerately, his 30 days of care and care at close range can be worth as much as our blank time before? I saw too many cheating men at school, I laughed it off, it was none of my business, I knew my destination was unshakable, at that time I really wanted to marry you, live with you, family or love At least you can give me a very stable sense of security."

"You know my disappointment with our dad best. When my dad didn't come home, I went crazy and thought I was going to lose my dad. It was because of me that my mother persisted until later, otherwise my mother would really divorce. I am also afraid of my father when I grow up. My husband bullies me, it seems that I have nothing to worry about when I marry you, I have met many excellent men in the past few years of work, but I don’t know their attitude towards marriage and wife, I only trust you..."

Jiang Man shed tears, regretting that the good family relationship turned into love and now it has become like this again.

Jiang Sinian suddenly became vulnerable, Jiang Man's words were like sulfuric acid, dripping on his heart drop by drop, the pain was like a weak boy, tears flowed down.

"I regret it, I regret it a long time ago, I can't control our affairs..." No matter how you explain it, it is wrong, and you are destined to not get much.

When Jiang Man left the ward, he bowed his head and walked quickly to the end of the corridor of the ward.

After leaving the hospital, he went down the steps and walked towards his car. Since he lowered his head and didn't look at the road, he suddenly fell into... Lu Cunyu's arms.

"What's the matter with hurrying?" He looked down at her face and asked.

Jiang Man took a deep breath, not knowing what his face looked like, he lowered his head and shook his head and said, "It's nothing, I'm sorry I bumped into you."

There was a bit of annoyance in Lu Cunyu's voice, but also a bit of tenderness and distress: "Crying? Little grievance, can't you see that I deliberately let you bump into my arms?"

"Oh." Jiang Man turned his head away.

She raised her hand to wipe away the tears on her face, but Lu Cunyu grabbed her wet hand. He leaned close to her cheek and asked nicely, "Why are you crying so well? I talk?"

Jiang Man, who usually looks like a big woman, is now as fragile as a child who can't find a home.

In his car, Jiang Man lowered his head and shed tears, but he didn't want to cry at all: "Are you a good person?"

How helpless it is to ask such a simple and direct question.

Jiang Man's thoughts were blank and helpless. At this moment, he was like a child reaching out to ask for candy from an unfamiliar uncle. The uncle said, "Thank you uncle, and uncle will give you candy." Thank you uncle, raised his face and looked forward to the candy.Believe that uncle said that if you give candy, you must give candy.

Or, when your mind is blank and you lose your ability to think, you are still trying to believe him.

Lu Cunyu leaned over, took her face with one hand and gently wiped away the tears, his gentle voice reassuringly said, "I should be considered a good person. If someone provokes me, I will return the principal with interest. There is no reason I have taken the initiative to hurt anyone. I am 37, and this age understands what I did not know when I was young. Now people are afraid that I will be unhappy and provoke them, but they dare not provoke me to approach me. After all, I just said that I did not take the initiative to hurt anyone."

Jiang Man stabilized his emotions, and confided: "I think I'm quite strong. After a long time, I'm blindly strong. It's not easy to get rid of something. Time feels fast and sometimes slow. When the time comes, time needs to be fast." When I pass by, I feel that it is too slow. Death may be the fastest way to escape."

"How do you know that death is the fastest way to get rid of it?" Lu Cunyu pressed her small face in his arms, his posture was very tired, but he bowed his head on top of her head without frowning and analyzed, "I haven't heard anyone ask her before." Is this a sentence, how do you know if a dead person can really forget everything if you haven’t died, or you may have to suffer in the underground without being reincarnated with your memories. Or the sins that have not been suffered in this life will continue in the next life, Endless happiness will continue in the next life. Happy people don’t want to die, and those who feel pain just wait a moment. When happiness is chasing you, fools don’t turn around and take a closer look. Jiang Man, tell me, how good we are alive, Crying and laughing are also beneficial to promote the relationship between men and women, for example, you only take the initiative to throw yourself into my arms when you cry?"

Jiang Man was in pain at first, and all the garbage that had been accumulated for several months was dumped on Jiang Sinian. Hearing Lu Cunyu's long-winded personal style and logical theory comfort, he couldn't help but want to laugh.

"Are you a graduate of philosophy?"

"Really?" Jiang Man looked up at him with red eyes.

He smiled and shook his head, his deep eyes were gentle and penetrating, and there were his charming facial features in her eyes, he said: "If you scare me with nonsense, I will really be forced into a philosophy department by you." professor."

That night, Lu Cunyu comforted Jiang Man a lot. Jiang Man's eyes were fixed on his facial features, listening to every word he said, and he felt that it made sense. She accepted everything he said to her. .At work, Jiang Man has also been pursued by other men, but the one Jiang Man dislikes the most is the kind of man who speaks exaggeratedly and glibly.Not Lu Cunyu, his warm and deep eyes can actually smooth all her thorns.

(End of this chapter)