Eunuch's Declaration of Loyalty

Chapter 93 Qin Shu's Past Life Extra Story 1
After Qin Shu's father passed away, his mother followed him not long after, and the good family disappeared in a blink of an eye. Qin Shu became a child without father and mother. He was five years old that year.

The only uncle had promised to take care of his mother in front of his mother's hospital bed, so when his mother died, Qin Shu was taken to his uncle's house, together with the Qin family's savings.

Qin Shu couldn’t remember the faces of his parents. The only thing he remembered was when his mother held his hand and said before she died: “Mother is sorry, mother is going to find your father, and Shu’er has to live a good life alone. Go down, listen to your uncle, bear with everything..."

Therefore, he endured for five years.Before the young Qin Shu had time to realize the grief of the death of a loved one, he began to live under the fence of others, beating, cursing and scolding in the dark.

Qin Shu grew up and became sensible almost immediately, because no one asked him to rely on acting like a baby, no one would protect him, he could only rely on himself.Qin Shu vaguely remembers that he seemed to be very naughty before the age of five, and then gradually became more and more silent.

In his uncle's house, Qin Shu is almost like a slave, like the kind of slave bought by a rich family with money, who can beat and scold at will, and can do many things without resisting.Qin Shu was fine when he first left, but it changed within a few days. Qin Shu's aunt didn't like him, and it seemed that he had a problem with his mother before, but now he seized the opportunity to find Qin Shu back.

He swears and curses at that little kid all day long, and from time to time beats him with his thick arms, making Qin Shu's hands and face covered with red marks and bruises.There is no medicine to apply, and it will take a long time for it to disappear by itself, and the bruise is often beaten again before it disappears.

Uncle Qin Shu knows how to drink all day long, he is a coward who keeps silent when his mother-in-law says a few words out loud.Seeing Qin Shu being beaten and scolded, he would not stop him, and sometimes he would be scolded by his fierce mother-in-law when he drank too much, and would vent his anger on Qin Shu when he was upset.He didn't dare to quarrel with his mother-in-law, and he was also reluctant to beat his precious son, so he could only vent his anger on Qin Shu.

The sharp voice, the harsh curses and the fists and feet that landed on his body were a nightmare that he had followed Qin Shu for many years.At the very beginning, he couldn't stand being beaten and scolded all the time, so he mustered up the courage to go to those people who had called him uncle clan, begged them to help him, and showed them the scars on his body.

In his hopeful eyes, those people all looked impatient, and then told him that it was not easy for the clan to take care of these housework, and some of them advised him to be more patient with fake pity .They have seen this kind of thing too much. Is he the only one in the world who has such a miserable life? When everyone is thinking about themselves, even sympathy seems superfluous. No one is willing to give him alms.

No one was willing to help him, and this idea suddenly appeared clearly in Qin Shu's little head.He looked around, saw the expressions on those people's faces, and realized once again that there was no one in this world who was willing and able to protect him.

Qin Shu was beaten up again because of the matter of going to his clan uncle to complain.His fierce aunt cursed: "You little bastard white-eyed wolf" and then slapped half of his face until it swelled up, and then kicked him to the ground.The cousin, who was a few years older than Qin Shu, laughed and gloated, shouting that he deserved it, and grabbed a small stone next to him and hit him.

Qin Shu hugged his throbbing abdomen and curled up there, silently, only feeling that the pain on his body was not as good as the helplessness in his heart.

After being beaten for a while, Qin Shu developed a fever, and when he was so feverish that he lost consciousness, he could only vaguely hear his uncle and aunt talking, "This bastard is sick, don't infect us. Go in the utility room next to the pigsty outside."

"It's not good, after all, my sister hasn't died for a year, let him die like this..."

"It's better to die! Save food at home, and still think about going out to ruin our reputation. What's the matter, you really plan to raise a son for someone else, I said you still treat yourself as a landlord, and the money in the house is too much to burn. I'm useless, I can't make much money, and I still know how to drink and drink every day, and I have to save the money I brought back from the Qin family for Liangsheng to study. You prodigal man, I really haven't had a good day when I marry you , life oh!"

The woman started crying and cursing, and the man suddenly lost his voice.Then Qin Shu felt himself being lifted out of the room.

I don't know how long it has been.Qin Shu suddenly woke up in a daze, and found that he was indeed in the utility room next to the pigsty in the yard.There is only a roof in this sundry place, where there are some muddy farm tools and a pile of firewood.There was wind leaking from all sides, and there was a foul smell from the nearby pigsty.

The little Qin Shu huddled under the pile of firewood, wearing thin old clothes that didn't fit well, trembling uncontrollably in the cold wind.It was the moment when everything was quiet, he looked blankly at the room where the lights had been blown out, sobbed in his throat, then lowered his eyes and closed them tightly, not letting himself cry or make a sound.No one will coax him when he cries, since no one cares, why cry.

The child who was only a few years old swallowed all his grievances and discomforts back into his stomach, leaving only the hatred that he understood too early and came too early.

The cold moonlight shone on his body through the sparse railings, and Qin Shu felt in a daze that the moonlight was as warm as the sun, shining on his body.He shook his body and stretched out his hand forward, as if he wanted to grab the emptiness of warmth, but just as he lifted it up, he lowered his hand, revealing some pinch marks on his thin arm.

Qin Shu's eyes were fixed on the trace, and his somewhat lax eyes gradually became clearer.They...he called his uncle, aunt, and cousin's so-called relatives. They treated him like this. He hasn't seen their retribution. How could he die like this? He must live well and see them one by one. regret.

Thinking of this, Qin Shu's eyes showed a fierce and unwilling look, which added some haze to the child's originally clear pupils.

Qin Shu survived miraculously. The old man said that even a hard-fated life is hard-fought, and he was like that.No matter how uncomfortable it is, as long as you don't die, you have to go on living.Qin Shu learned to be patient, his expressions became less and less, and his words became less and less.Because he has to do a lot of work every day but can't eat enough, his cheeks are a little sunken, his face is yellow and thin, and only a few bones are left in a skin bag.When he was seven or eight years old, he looked even thinner than when he was five years old.

His limbs were slender, and the shabby clothes on his body did not fit very well, and he looked empty even with a belt.Every day when eating, Qin Shu watched the aunt kindly let his cousin eat more, filled him with a full bowl of rice, and kept adding vegetables for him.And Qin Shu could only squat at the door with the bowl in his arms, eating the scorched rice crust, his throat was dry and sore from choking.

Qin Shu lives in the same room with his cousin who is three years older than him. However, his cousin who always mocks and bullies him can sleep on a bed with soft mattresses, while he sleeps on a piece in the corner that is used as a bed. Even in winter, there is only a bed of old cotton batting that is almost hardened on the door panel.

When Qin Shu was seven years old, his uncle and aunt sent his cousin to school to study.He can often see his aunt hugging his cousin and muttering: "Our good student studies hard, and then he will go to the exam to become a high-ranking official, and then buy a big house for mother..." This scene somehow awakened him. The memory deeply buried in Qin Shu's mind, it seems that his mother also said this when he was very young, she said that he would be successful in the future after studying.

Promising?If he studies hard too, he will be very powerful, and then arrest all those who bully and beat him and let them have a taste of this?Qin Shu stared at the book in his cousin's hand, feeling an obsession in his little heart.

In the middle of the night, when everyone else fell asleep, Qin Shu, who had been keeping his eyes open, quietly got up, carefully dug out his cousin's schoolbag, and took out a book from it.He opened the door with the book in his arms, sat in the yard, and opened the book facing the moonlight.He didn't know the words in it, so he memorized the appearance of those words, thinking that one day he would know them.Facing the moonlight like this, tracing the words he didn't know, Qin Shu felt a kind of satisfaction. This kind of time may be the only time when his heart clamoring for hatred can find peace.

However, a few days later, he was smashed by his cousin who came out to relieve himself. "You dare to steal my book? You ugly mangy dog, let you take my book! I'll kill you, you little bastard who steals!" Children always imitated adults when they were young, and Qin Shu felt that his cousin Now, just like his mean aunt, they are not good things.

The thin Qin Shu couldn't beat this sturdy cousin at all, so he could only hug his head to protect his stomach, and let his fist land on his body without saying a word.Through the slit, he stared fixedly at the book that was pulled out of his hand and thrown aside.

Qin Shu hated this family very much, and dreamed why they didn't die.Standing by the stove, he always thought that if he had poison in his hand, he would definitely throw it into the food and poison them to death.But if there is really poison, will he take it?Qin Shu thought calmly, if this family was poisoned to death by him, the government would easily catch him.He has no money, no guides, and can't escape.This family has caused him so much pain, is he going to sacrifice his life for these people?not worth it.Qin Shu believes that he will make the family regret one day, but now he has to be patient.

He must be patient, Qin Shu told himself over and over again in his heart, then knelt down and grabbed the ashes from under the stove and threw them into the soup, stirring them with a spoon.Anyway, it was so gray that it couldn't be seen, and he couldn't drink the soup either.After doing this, Qin Shu's heavy expression had a little bit of freshness, but it was only fleeting, and it suddenly returned to that lifeless look.

A few years passed in a blink of an eye. When Qin Shu was ten years old, someone in the palace came to buy eunuchs, and those who were willing to go gave two taels of silver as appeasement money.

Everyone knows what a eunuch is. If the family is not so poor that they are about to starve to death, who would be willing to send their children to be eunuchs who will never have children and grandchildren.But Qin Shu's aunt pushed Qin Shu out because of the two taels of silver.

"We have raised you for so many years, and you are so old now, shouldn't you go out to do things to support yourself, and still want to depend on us for the rest of your life, the palace is where the nobles stay, and it is for your own good to let you go , if you don’t go, you don’t know what’s good or bad.” She said it with confidence, her hypocrisy and bitterness made people lose their appetite.

Qin Shu has always known that this family is not human, but at this time, he still inevitably feels absurd.For five years, he was here as a cow and a horse, and he was beaten and scolded. Even if he raised a dog, he would have to suffer for a while before he was slaughtered.But do they...do they still have a conscience?

"Is this little thing really ten years old?" The person who came to buy it was also an eunuch, and he was a little dissatisfied pointing at the thin and small Qin Shu.

"Yes, yes, this child is very obedient, but he doesn't like to eat, so he looks a little smaller. It will be fine when he grows up. Look, my lord, can he make it? Otherwise, there is no two taels of silver, and a little less is fine. "Qin Shu was pushed and shoved by his uncle to come to the person with no expression on his face, and when he heard that he couldn't wait to sell himself, he finally completely burned the word "family" in his heart to ashes.

Qin Shu thought, he didn't understand it for five years, hated them all the time, and still called his uncle and aunt after all, thinking that one day they would be willing to give a little warmth.He himself felt that he was pitiful and stupid, so he suddenly realized that the idea of ​​blood relationship was of no use.

The eunuch looked critically at Qin Shu, and finally nodded with grace, "I don't seem to be a talkative one, come along."

Qin Shu paused and followed. Before leaving, he didn't even look at the happily smiling couple holding two liang of silver. Of course, they didn't want to talk to him either.

Silently followed a group of children of about the same age into the palace, and did not know where they were. Qin Shu only felt that it was the first time in his life that he had seen such a high wall and such a large place.In his eyes, the originally narrow world with only a small courtyard seems to suddenly become wider.

In that unknown palace, Qin Shu spent two days with those who came with him. They didn't have to do anything for these two days, they had clean clothes and enough food.Qin Shu was probably frightened of hunger at that house, even if he couldn't eat, he still forced himself to eat more and more until he felt like vomiting.Sleeping on the bed at night, covered with a soft quilt, Qin Shu suddenly had a hope in his heart, maybe it was right to come here, maybe he will get better in the future.With this hope, he relaxed and fell asleep.

He still doesn't understand what it means for a man to lose his roots, he only vaguely knows that it means cutting off his sons and grandchildren.Now he just feels unparalleled satisfaction because he can eat enough to eat every day, has clothes to wear, and can sleep in bed.

Two days later, they began to purify themselves. While waiting, Qin Shu heard the phrase "to the best of his ability". He was ignorant and didn't quite understand what it meant. It means to cut off all the things that grow on the lower part, after cutting it is almost like a girl's lower body.Qin Shu had never seen it before, so he didn't know what the girl was like there.But hearing the scream of the child who went in first, and then being carried out with a plank, with blood on his lower body, he couldn't help but squeeze his hand.

It wasn't just him, those boys who had been active in the past two days all fell silent when they saw this scene, and even the timid ones were already crying in fright.Soon it was Qin Shu's turn. His face was also a little pale, but he was calmer than most people.He was lying on a bare bed in the room, his arms, legs, feet and lower abdomen were bound with a white cloth, and his trousers were also taken off. A middle-aged man was holding a sickle-like knife and roasting him over the fire. I looked a few more times at the bruises and scars on my legs and feet.

Qin Shu only remembered that after drinking a bowl of very bitter soup, his sanity became a little blurred, his lower body was being manipulated by someone, and then he felt sharp pain.The pain was like cutting a person alive and then stirring the flesh with his hands. The painful Qin Shu woke up from the daze, and couldn't help crying out in pain like those people before.

It was really painful, much more painful than being beaten in that home.Qin Shu jerked upwards in convulsions and was pressed down again, the veins popping out in his thin hands looked a little scary.Later, Qin Shu was in so much pain that he didn't know what happened, and when he came back to his senses, he was already in a large airtight room.

Those who entered the palace with him to purify were placed here. They were all bound hands and feet and slept on a bed. There was a movable hole in the bed for them to excrete like this. bucket.Because these dozens of people excreted here, there was a foul and fishy smell in the room.

Some were crying, others were moaning in pain.Qin Shu's face was pale and his mouth was closed, without making a sound, lying there straight like a corpse.As soon as I moved my lower body, I felt a sharp pain. Even if I lay still, I would feel the pain from time to time. The intermittent torture made me wish I could smash my head to death.

They seldom eat at this time and only drink one kind of soup, after which they will have diarrhea.It is said that it is to reduce the frequency of their urination, because the cut there has not grown well yet, and they cannot urinate yet.Qin Shu didn't remember how long he stayed there, three or four days. During this period, some people had a fever and burned to death because the bottom didn't grow well, and some people died of pain. I carried it down once.

When he stepped on the ground again, he even felt as if he had passed away.However, the suffering was far from over, and he still had to experience stretching his legs.The old eunuch who came to stretch their legs said that if they didn't stretch their legs, they would be hunched over in the future, and they would never be able to straighten up for the rest of their lives.

Qin Shu has suffered a lot since he was a child. No one told him that a man should straighten his back, but he seems to have the tenacity of not admitting defeat, stretching his bony back into a board without a teacher.He had been bent over for a lifetime, hearing this, Qin Shu would never want to become like this.While the others were screaming in pain and even running away, Qin Shu began to stretch his legs silently.

Every time I stretch it, it feels like my heart and liver are broken, and my body trembles violently involuntarily.After Qin Shu finished shaking, he took a breath and gritted his teeth to hold back, forcing himself to stretch his legs, until he couldn't take it anymore and bit his wrist.He didn't have much flesh on his hands, biting the bones would be disgusting, the wrist was bloody from his own bite, and the deep teeth marks were sunk into the flesh.

Qin Shu always thought that after suffering so much, he would gradually get better in the future, just like the phrase he had heard before, "suffering will bring happiness".He generally knew that it meant that good days would come after suffering a lot, and he thought it was a very good word, which made people feel hopeful when they heard it.

It's just that fate played tricks on him again.

In this palace, there are slaves who serve the master, and there are slaves who serve the slaves.To the master, they are all slaves, but among the slaves, between the high-ranking and the low-ranking, the high-ranking is half a master, and the young is still a slave.

Qin Shu had been a slave in that family for five years, and now that he entered the palace, he really became a slave, a little slave who was a slave to a slave.

(End of this chapter)