royal girl

Chapter 469
When the light is very light, I know that the flowers are more colorful, and my heart is full of spring to the crabapple.

After middle age, the obsession has faded, and the only thing I can't let go is the melancholy in my heart, which can't be dismissed, leaving only melancholy.

Xia Yingbai stood in front of the window, the backyard was full of crabapple flowers, and it was the season when the crabapple flowers were in full bloom. Looking through the window, the pink petals were like clouds, and the white petals were like a sea of ​​clouds. The scene in the palace.

There used to be a crabapple forest in the palace, and she liked to wander alone in the forest when the crabapple flowers were in full bloom. Flowers are the cleanest things in the world.Born with pure fragrance and turned into mud on the ground, the human heart is much cleaner than the people in this world.

Turning her thoughts back to the past, she seemed to see the figure walking towards her from the depths of the sea of ​​flowers again.

When she entered the palace, he was no longer handsome and unparalleled in his youth.Her slightly chubby body carried a domineering air of pampering, and she couldn't take her eyes away just by looking at it.The exhausted life at home in the early years made her dislike the tough and handsome man.

His father was tall and handsome in her eyes, with a charming smile, but what was the use?His favorite is always Aunt Gao and her children.

So she was tired of men with excellent appearance from the bottom of her heart, such men were unreliable.

At that time, the emperor lost the demeanor of his youth, his plump figure and gentle smile gave her a strange feeling of peace of mind.

That kind of peace of mind, at least makes her willing to approach him, look at him, and smile at him, which is something she likes from the bottom of her heart.

Her appearance is not outstanding, at least in the harem full of beauties, she is like a drop in the ocean.

If she wanted to survive better in the palace, and wanted to give her mother and younger sister a stable future, she knew that she had to let the emperor put her in a position that she would always remember.

She didn't deny that she was very smart. Once, she knew from the voice of the imperial concubine that there was a person in this palace that no one could mention. She was a woman whom the emperor had loved with all his heart.

The imperial concubine intended to promote her, so she always told her Fang Jieyu's preferences and behaviors "unintentionally".Fang Jieyu is beautiful and beautiful, she is absolutely inferior, but she also has a poetic spirit, so she can only go another way.

Use her talent, gentleness, and unique personality to slowly capture the emperor's heart.

The days in the palace were full of blood and tears. During those days of confrontation with Concubine De, she tossed and turned sleeplessly, every step of the way was startled, for fear that if she accidentally fell, she would be smashed to pieces.

Concubine De has a son and is favored by the emperor, even if she made a mistake, she still has a chance to turn around and start all over again.

But she has no imperial heir, only the great favor that everyone loves, but this kind of favor will go with the wind one day, where will she go then?

No more children were born in the harem, and she knew that there must be some unknown secrets in it, so she was very careful and cautious, and finally let her have a child.

Pity God, she gave birth to a daughter.

The emperor's only daughter.

Just because of Xiao An's voice, even if she is a princess, she is the emperor's only princess. For the first time in this palace, she really felt that she could finally stand on her feet.

The emperor's love for Xiao'an was beyond her imagination. She never imagined that a daughter could be held in the palm of the emperor's hands like a treasure.

Later, Sister Zhao was born, and then the emperor saw Sister Zhao.A sister Zhao compared all the emperor's grandchildren, even the princess Xiao'an was compared, the emperor's eyes seemed to no longer be open to sister Zhao's figure.

She used to feel a little uncomfortable, after all, Xiao'an is the emperor's daughter, and Sister Zhao is the granddaughter.

But she and Huiyu are as close as brothers and sisters. She knows that she shouldn't have such thoughts, but she should be happy. The better the emperor treats sister Zhao, the better they will have a better future.

She swallowed the bitterness in her heart, and the first time she saw Sister Zhao, she knew why the emperor liked her.

Sister Zhao's birth is really very similar to the emperor, very similar.

Some people also said that Sister Zhao is actually very similar to that person who cannot be mentioned in the palace.

If so, she has nothing to complain about, after all, that one is the one that the emperor puts in his heart.

She's not even qualified to be jealous.

She had to let herself learn to let go, learn to look away, otherwise she would drive herself crazy in this deep palace.

One year, when it snowed heavily, the Empress left her to talk with Xiao'an in Fengqi Palace.

It was cold and windy outside the window, heavy snow was blowing, and Xiao An was tired of playing in the room and had already fallen asleep. Only she and the queen were sitting opposite each other, and the room was quiet.

The empress is already old, and no amount of makeup can cover the wrinkles at the corners of her eyes.The empress is an open-minded person, and she never thinks that having wrinkles is a big deal. She faces it calmly, and she doesn't apply a little more powder to cover it up every day.

She brewed tea with her own hands and handed it to the empress. The empress smiled at her, looked at her and asked, "Are you used to living in this palace?"

Such a question stunned her all of a sudden, and she didn't know how to answer it for a while.

Seeing her rarely showing a silly side, the empress smiled softly, "You are a lucky person. You met the right person at the right time. You must know that 20 years ago, when you entered the palace, it was equivalent to sitting in the palace." The fate of guarding the empty court until dawn. You have no future in this palace with your appearance."

The empress was telling the truth, she smiled embarrassedly, looked at the empress and said: "What the empress said, the concubines dare not say that 20 years ago, but now they feel that they can have everything in front of them, just like in the dream. Same."

The queen lowered her head and smiled, "You are indeed a smart person, and you are much more free and easy than I was back then. If I could see things as you do now, maybe I could keep my child."

She was taken aback and stared blankly at the queen, then heard the empress continue to say: "What's yours is yours, you can't take it away if it's not yours, even if it's temporarily taken away, it will be returned in the end. This is cause and effect, cause and effect, is the end."

She knew that what the Empress was referring to was Concubine De, and she didn't know what kind of grievances there was between Empress Empress and Concubine De, but Empress never favored King Ning's line of work, which was one of the reasons why she was close to the Empress.

"Ma'am?" She asked a little anxiously.

"Your smile is beautiful, don't let her disappear. Although your appearance is not the best, your smile is already your greatest weapon."

She didn't understand at the time, but it wasn't until later, when the sky was going to change after a long time, that she realized that she smiled like Fang Jieyu who was deep in the emperor's heart.

After Fang Jieyu entered the palace, she seldom smiled in front of everyone, so very, very few people had seen her smile.

After living in the palace for several years, giving birth to a daughter for him, and being with him for many years, her smile has become her demon.

It's just that she didn't dare to say it, as soon as she said this, she would leave if she was hurt, and Xiao'an couldn't be hurt.

That year, Prince Ning fought against Prince Jing, Prince Ning's family was defeated, and Prince Jing was named the crown prince.

After the dust settled, the big rock in her heart was finally settled, at least the future of their mother and daughter was preserved.

Without the worry of survival, the little demon in my heart came out to make trouble again.

She didn't know what happened to her, she entered the palace for revenge and to give her mother and sister a good future.But in the ups and downs of life in the palace, she gradually had her own awareness of the only person she could rely on by her side.

Nuo Da's palace was filled with the bitter taste of thick soup medicine, she came in from outside the palace carrying the medicine soup.The seriously ill emperor leaned on the soft pillow of the big couch. He didn't like the dragon bed that couldn't see the sunlight, so he liked recuperating on the big couch with the sunlight coming in.

She gently placed the medicine bowl on the kang table, "Your Majesty, it's time to take medicine."

The emperor's eyes were drawn back from the window, and she responded casually. She handed over the medicine bowl, and the emperor took it with his hand, and then swallowed it mouthful.

Such a bitter medicine does not even contain a candied fruit.

She took the medicine bowl back, looked into the emperor's bewildered eyes at that moment, suddenly she didn't know where the courage came from, and suddenly asked, "For so many years, in the emperor's heart, is there a place for a concubine?"

The question was abrupt, and the emperor suddenly turned his head. She met his eyes, and her heart seemed to be raised.

She shouldn't have asked, but she just couldn't help it.

If you don't ask again, I'm afraid there will be no chance in this life.

The imperial doctor said that the emperor was exhausted and the lamp was dry.

She just wants an answer.

"You are very good, and you can live well in the future." The emperor looked at her and said slowly, then turned his head and looked at the crabapple tree outside the window that he never tired of seeing, "Zhen, I like many women in this life, but love There will always be only one.”

She didn't cry at that time, it was strange, she should have cried, the person he loved in his heart would never be himself.

It's just this matter, looking back at the past, looking at the crabapple tree in front of me, the fallen flowers are so colorful, my eyes are fascinated, the tears that I couldn't shed at the beginning finally fell at this moment.

During those trembling days in the palace, he was her reliance, her heaven, and her faith.No matter who it is for or because of who he looks like, he gave her hope and a future.

She is also just an ordinary girl, it's normal to like someone.

It's just that she likes people who belong to her heart.

The crabapple tree in the emperor's eyes is not because she likes it, but because that person likes it.

In the begonia forest back then, when he met the smiling self, maybe he saw another Fang Jieyu.

Since then, crabapple flowers have become her favorite, but at that time she didn't know that there was another woman in the palace who also liked crabapple flowers very much.

Now this courtyard is full of crabapple trees, she can never get tired of looking at it.

Every year, every year.

Perhaps the reason why the emperor couldn't get tired of the crabapple flowers was because there was Fang Jieyu's shadow there.

Now I can't get tired of looking at this crabapple flower, maybe because she is willing to let herself miss him in front of each branch of flowers.

At least, he once liked her.

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